just realize--
♥ ♥ everything ♥ ♥
time waits for no man. not fate. its all planned. i'm blessed just to know you, to have loved and lost, just to hold you all night. can't find a reason why God came, to you and i. if i had the chance again, i'd never let you go. hold me tight til your love comes, you never know.
let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. surely you can take some comfort knowing that your mine. just hold me tight. stay by my side and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time.
"the first step was birth, now forever cursed to analyze his self-worth. the second step was belief, he had to make that move before he even grew teeth. the third step, respect awareness. he could trip over the next step if he's careless, that next step, number four, was love. can't touch it without stepping the other three above. as he froze for a moment, ignoring the remaining ones, he was approaching, focus stolen, looking down at his hands to see what he was holding. nothing, empty. no choice but to keep going. the fifth step felt like a misstep, it was a re-evaluation of the first four. the anxiety, fear of what it hurts for. caught in somewhere between the earths core, and the first floor. when he finally made it to step six, he could no longer see it for what it is. all of his views and family and life were askew, number six had been twisted by the previous two. the last step, the seventh, was the only thing that kept him outside of heaven, one last breath and everything could be pleasant. life through death, man's final lesson. and nothing less, nothing less"
"something about the way you looked at me, made me think for a moment, that maybe we were meant to be"
"lay a whisper on my pillow, leave the winter on the ground, i wake up lonely, an air of silence, in the bedroom and all around"
"you don't know me. but you'd like to. why'd you think i stood beside you? not concerned with how this might fall, nature be, come prowl at nightfall. when the sun begins to dim and eventually the day dies. and the mood prepares to sway, that's where another way lies. glow of the liquor store lights. set the scene for no rights. let's convene, discuss the scheme, and hope it flows how we dream. tonight can make or break you if you let it, someone set it out for you to let it out, now don't regret it. get embedded to the back drop, positioned there with your cash crop, envision night as the last stop. don't miss the train, it's time to gain, strain, aim, fire. blame, reign, fuck and then retire. i'm a liar, past eleven, after one i'm on the run. till the sun comes up tomorrow, i'm working, you're having fun. not too devious, but that's me. spontaneous if you ask me. but then again. im blending in."
"so if you made it, just be glad that you did and stay there, if you ever feel loved or needed, remember that your one of the lucky ones, and if its over, just remember what i told you, it was bound to happen, so just, keep moving on, there's no perfect endings"
"it's strange how things change but not me wanting you so desperately"
"so take, these broken wings, i need your hands to come and heal me once again, so i can fly, until the end of time"
"everytime i feel alone, i can blame it on you, and i do"
"your audacity to judge me by my cover, a mistake unlike no other. would your brother judge your father, if he left the family tree? probably, quite simply, put his foot down to the earth. regenerate from the soot. and put more effort than the first. attempt to get some, get right, get closer to the meaning of life, without repeating it twice. i must know ten repeated offenders up in this blender, a melting pot of letters all marked return to sender, embark like a gypsy vendor. to market the rhymes i render originial, remember: if you're ever in a spot where you feel you'll never escape, like a rock and a hard place, where the dealers got the ace, don't about face."
"there's no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard, no song that i could sing but i could try for your heart"
"remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now? remember when you held my hand like you would never let it go? remember. cause that's all you can do. we'll never make another memory"
"and i try but i'm not convincing, and your lips they pout and twist, and i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you"
"this song is meant to keep you, from doin what you're supposed to, like waking up to early, maybe we could sleep in, i'll make you banana pancakes, pretend like its the weekend now"
"sing me something soft, sad and delicate, or loud and out of key, sing me anything"
"heaven's not a place that you go when you die, it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive. so live for the moment and take this advice live by every word. love is just a hoax, so forget anything that you have heard"
"we live on front porches and swing life away, we get by just fine here on minimum wage, if love is a labor i'll slave til the end. i won't cross these streets until you hold my hand"
"does he kiss your eyelids in the morning
when you start to raise your head?
and does he sing to you incessantly
from the place between your bed and wall?
does he walk around all day at school with his feet inside your shoes?
looking down every few steps to pretend he walks with you?
does he know that place below your neck
that is your favorite to be touched
and does he cry through broken sentences
like i love you far too much?
does he lay awake listening to your breath?
worried that you smoke too many ciggarettes."
"why the fuck did you tell me about magic
and then show me the strings
why did you whisper that your heart was in my teeth
when that was the first place that you kicked me as i lay helpless on the ground
yes all that once was has turned to the blackest of hate
instead of wishing you the best
i will be rooting for you to fall
as i learn the most painful lesson of all
that a lie is a lie is a lie is a lie
i don't give a fuck how pretty it's disguise"
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
see all these people on the ground,
wasting time,
i try to hold it all inside,
but just for tonight,
the top of the world,
sitting here wishing,
the things i've become,
that something is missing,
maybe i...
but what do i know..
and now it seems that i have found,
nothing at all,
i wanna hear your voice out loud,
slow it down, slow it down,
without it all,
i'm choking on nothing,
its clear in my head,
and i'm screaming for something,
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
i watch and enjoy way too many movies to possibly keep track of...
but i think Fight Club is still my favorite.
you are not your job.
you are not the money you have in the bank.
you are not the car you drive.
you are not the contents of your wallet.
you are not your fucking kackis.
y o u a r e t h e a l l s i n g i n g,
a l l d a n c i n g,
c r a p o f t h e w o r l d.
Family Guy
Simpsons
Scrubs
The Office
Whose Line is it Anyway?
That 70's Show
Law and Order: SVU
Reno 911
Stand-Up Comedy
Scrubs.. Simpsons.. Sex and the City..
...THE ALCHEMIST...
...THINK...
Eleven Minutes
...Breakable Vow...
...A Long Way Gone...
...Thirst...
...In the Forests of the Night...
...Shattered Mirror...
...Demon in My View...
...Solitary Blue...
...The Black Book Series...
...Dark Secrets Series...
... reading in general...
"for all that you are
and all that you'll be
i'll love you forever
with everything in me" ♥
♥ my mama ♥
you've completed my life since the day i was born