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Heartless and Dreaming

I am here for Serious Relationships, Friends and Networking

About Me

So maybe its time for an update so here it goes. If you are a guy and want me because I am a hot piece of ass look elsewhere because I am not interested. If you're a girl or transgendered and looking for romance please look elsewhere as I am not in any position to offer anything to anyone. Yeah, I'm depressed and shit keeps getting worse but I can't die so I'll just keep rolling the dice and hope I don't get snake eyes. If you want to be my friend then by all means do so knowing full well; I have a tendency of going through people like they were tissues because I am not exactly the easiest person to get along with and yeah maybe I'm a bit of a drama queen but pain is one of the only ways I know that I can still feel something and I am not completely lifeless. So , now that you have been warned and now that you won't listen and now that whatever happens will happen thanks for reading.

My Interests

Reading(Anything I can get my hands on), Writing(Anything from smut to fantasy to poetry), Painting and building Warhammer and Warhammer 40K models(big time stress relief), Coloring, Dressing up in costumes/en femme, Learning make up, Talking to people, Hanging out with friends, and the list goes on

I'd like to meet:

Someone that can show me what it means to be a human being. Someone that can inspire me without destroying everything I try to cling to because it keeps me from slipping back into the darkness. Someone that understands when I tell them to fuck off it is all for their own good. Someone that I can relax and have fun with and can trust. Someone that can stand beside me and not feel obligated to do so.

Music:

Panic at the Disco, My Chemical Romance, Matchbook Romance, Matchbox Twenty, Good Charolette, Evanasence, Hobbastank, Demon Hunter, 311, Movie Soundtracks, Garth Brooks, Martina McBride, Lacuna Coil, Nine Inch Nails, A Change of Pace, Linkin Park, Aerosmith, The Beatles, Green Day, and yeah the list goes on

Movies:

Braveheart, Res Dogs, Pulp Fiction, Starwars(old school), TMNT(old school), School of Rock, Dune, The Patriot, The Postman, Mad Max, The Road Warrior, Mad Max: Beyond Thunderdome, Waterworld, Gangs of New York, Saw 1 & 2, The Replacements, The Matrix Trilogy, Die Hard Trilogy, Armagedon, Deep Impact, Contact, Enemy at the Gates, Saving Private Ryan, Platoon, etc.

Television:

So umm really not a huge fan of T.V. but when I do watch it I watch these shows: CSI:anything, Medium, Law and Order:anything, Futurama, American Dad, Family Guy, The Simpsons, Random kids cartoons, and sometimes movies that are on T.V.

Books:

The Dune Series(New School), 5 People you'll meet in heaven(Awesome book), Gaunts Ghosts(Warhammer 40K book series), Anything dealing with (cool) vampires/werewolves, anything to do with history, Sci-fi or alternate history, mystery, horror stories, murder plots, conspiracies, anything about gangs. Not really big on romance novels as if I want to read blazae smut I write my own.

Heroes:

Ru Paul, People who have the courage to be themselves, Angel from RENT, Women who stand up for equal rights, Men that aren't assholes, Crossdresers/Transvestites/Transgenders/Transexuals who do not let harsh attitudes towards them stop them from doing what they believe in their hearts to be right, Girls who like girlie guys and will help them shop and do their make up, Soldiers, Sailors, Marines, Coast Guard, and Airmen from anywhere who have the guts and integrity to defend their countries with courage and honor regardless of that countries politics

My Blog

Confessions of a Heart Torn Apart

I am afraid of my inadequicesI am afraid of opening my heartI am afraid of failing those that careI am afraid I'm not good enough for youI am afraid of leaving you all aloneI am afraid of watchin you ...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Fri, 23 May 2008 09:47:00 PST

The Two Loves of Mine

Baby look I know you're scared and feeling impairedCause that heart beating in your chestHas put so many loves to restBut its not your fault nor is it mineAll things don't always heal with timeI remem...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 07:51:00 PST

Joys of the Heartless

The heartless just toss people aside as they push their way to the top of the heapI wonder how they can sleep with all those sins hanging over their headsLike knives poised to destroy everything they ...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Fri, 18 Apr 2008 04:03:00 PST

My last rant

As long as I live as many lives I have gotten there is one thing I will never understand. That thing is females: Why cuddle with me and lead me on when your not even interested. Why call me up at 3 A....
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Thu, 17 Apr 2008 11:08:00 PST

Zombies are Getting Restless

Zombies you are all zombieSlaves to your fetters and chainsJust caged despite all your rageYou yell and scream but theWorld refuses to hear youSo why not get off your assComplaining all the timeAbout ...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Sat, 12 Apr 2008 11:57:00 PST

Memories I Never Had

Just a note before I write down this song: I don't assume to know the feeligns of the person this is written to and I don't know how the other party in the song feels either so with that said here goe...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Sat, 12 Apr 2008 11:49:00 PST

Regretts, Apologies, Rant

So for at least today I was feeling happy and estatic. Was posistive about getting a job, a hair cut and maybe some decent style, paid a bit of my debt off, roleplayed a bit and then I realised that I...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 11:26:00 PST

Horned Angel’s Quest to Darkness

The fear in m heartIs getting a jumpstartThe demons forgottenNow have risen upFrom the darknessLying dormant in my soulSending me spiralingOut of my safe zoneBegining to feel lostIs all hope fleetingM...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 06:37:00 PST

Song for Sara

There is a feeling I get insideWhen I look into your eyesI see my stars aligningForgive me if my eyes are cryingCause I’d be lying if I said that You didn’t make my heart beatFor so long I...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 06:56:00 PST

True love calls to me

So sorry to put you in this posistionSo sorry I can’t change my disposistionI know it hurts me to love youBut I can’t bring myself to let goI’m like a lost puppyThat followed you hom...
Posted by Heartless and Dreaming on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 06:50:00 PST