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About Me

I have nothing to say right now. Still dealing with the pain of feeling I'm not getting what I want. Am horribly confused.
And sorry I suddenly have something to say it's largely to do with being borned in Taiwan & because I was f**kin borned in Taiwan I get all these shit like Bonnie, Anny, Sherry, STW...Dennis... ... ok WTF I'm typing here if any of them sees this I'm through...
Woe to u body of Christ we are not one we are broken prepare sackcloth pls...
The problem of living in Singapore for me is meeting sleezy men, middle-aged and above, ogling at me, questioning me, and most of such people think I'm from China, People's Republic, where they still persecute the Church, and those sleezy people thinking I'm here to harvest money illegally(sleeping around). Honestly speaking, if I were still living in the Old Testament with such people, I would have called down fire from heaven and burn them up on the spot! And because I believe in the New Testament and living AFTER it, I did NOT do it!
A good reason for you to call Jacqueline a freak would be how she rejected admission from a PRESTIGIOUS UNIVERSITY, even where her crush is studying. Got her portfolio handed up LAST MINUTE, yes, very last minute, AFTER the DEADLINE, BEFORE the OFFICE OPENED, before dawn. And so she got in, and she rejected them herself. What a freak!
Which leads to why she freaks out when her mum asks her to study in another university fulltime, be it Singapore, Taiwan, Italy. And the problem now they have is, a university degree is really prestigious, but they have NO MONEY for it. Moreover, Jacqueline has lost her innocence and self-discipline ever since she stepped into LaSalle-SIA (now known as LASALLE).
Technically, Jacqueline has NO BIG PROBLEM in her life. However, Jacqueline's FEELING BITTER all the time. She imagines things, assumes herself correct, blogs them out, FEEL HAPPY for a moment, and the next day, BACK TO SQUARE ONE.
And if you really want to know partly how Jacqueline's bitter/what she's bitter about, you can try visiting jacquelinethen.multiply.com & www.youtube.com/user/jacquelinethen for bitterness expressed in videos, jacquelinethen.easyjournal.com & jacquelinethen.livejournal.com for bitterness expressed in words.
That's all for now. Thanks for reading all these shit.

My Interests

oil & acrylic painting, poetry, writing songs & music scores, collecting seashells, daydreaming, psychology, reading, pencil drawing & sketching my fav "subjects" (u noe who), computer art, video art, oil & chalk pastel drawing, picking up coins to fork up for bubble tea.

This profile was edited with Thomas' Myspace Editor V3

I'd like to meet:

Well, if u're a professional pianist, violinist, ballet dancers, music scholar, pet lover, video artist I'd be generally pleased to meet u, cos these areas of interests connect to me.

I used to think meeting people borned in Taiwan, living in Singapore, was such a wonderful thing. But somebody out there seems to prove me wrong all the time. Somebody. And this "somebody" takes turns to be different persons. Right now at this moment, this "somebody", in my present mentality right now, is a nice guy called Dennis. He's technically a Taiwanese, but he meets many people in Singapore, mostly locals, instead of JUST Taiwanese. And he's happy.

And right now I'm no longer sure what kind of a person I'd like to meet, and most probably, they'd all be in Singapore. I made a few girl "gangs" here, they're nice people, and we're good friends. And I used to think I'd never need to FALL IN LOVE with any guy, until...

So right now I'm trying, yes, trying HARD to keep my fingers crossed about what kind of a person I'd like to meet. I've got an unusually interesting crush here I found in Singapore (he's NOT local). And I'm still praying for at least one more female friend who could be a sister to me, whom I can meet up regularly for a good chat, and share the same faith. Somehow, NO SUCH PERSON has entered my life now, and I'm still PRAYING HARD for it.

I used to think I was a bi-lesbian, because I thought I "fell in love" with a certain beautiful girl, and it ended up with me feeling shit all the time, & she, by merely breaking simple promises and now avoiding me online (she was an ex-school mate), was/is not feeling a bit about it. Or maybe I was just PLAIN WRONG about it from the beginning, swayed by loneliness, feeling horribly helpless. And worst of all, I mistook her as an answer to my problems JUST BECAUSE she was FROM TAIWAN.

And for those of you out there who think TAIWAN, Republic of China (supposedly the COMPLETE NAME of Taiwan, R.O.C. in short, & some places called it P.O.C.)needs to be politically independent from People's Republic of China (commonly known as just "CHINA"), I agree with you, & AT THE SAME TIME, I disagree with you.

I used to daydream myself being at least a vice-president there, and now I realized what a deficient freak I am in politics. They've got an established Nationalist Party who used to fight Communist Party in "CHINA", & now, it's the Democratic Progressive Party who's explicitly hurling insults, just to gain a confusingly-termed INDEPENDENCE.

Which sounds complicated right now to me. NO single local in Singapore could give a right damn about it. All that I know is, an average LOCAL's developed a certain perpective of immigrants from People's Republic of China, and many, yes, MANY of them often mistook me for being borned there & coming over for NO CONSTRUCTIVE REASON but thinking SINGAPORE'S GOT A GREENER GRASS.

And given their down bottom perspective of such immigrants (A.K.A. Chinese Nationals), I sort of partly understand why Taiwanese would NOT like to be known as one, especially in Singapore where locals have NO CLUE what shit they're going through right now.

This could be partly explaining why Jacqueline's feeling lonely & bitter sometimes. But, again, she's still TRYING HARD to sort out things that just make her feel complicated. She's trying to feel for the politically bitter Taiwanese, but at the same time, she badly doesn't feel like one many a times. Or maybe she doesn't have to do it, since she feels being LOOKED DOWN by IMMIGRANT relatives in Taiwan. Yes, and ironically, they're now a typical Taiwanese u'd see on the streets there, calling themselves Taiwanese and Christians at the same time.

She no longer knows where she's from. In Taiwan, she's a Singaporeanized idiot. In Singapore, she's a freak artist looking like another idiot from "China".

WTF

Music:

classical, pop, orchestral, piano solo, soundtrack

Movies:

bible story, A tale of two sisters, Wishing stairs, Acacia Tree, Pulp Fiction, Spiderman Cartoon, Cinderella (Korean horror)

Television:

Kitty cartoon, Doraemon, late night movies...

Books:

Friendships of Women (Dee Brestin)

Heroes:

Mr Tong Yee. ~ My JC2 Civics Tutor, Spider Man

My Blog

Yesterday

It's fun cashiering & seeing how blur new colleagues are & how much company loses with my mistake. I know it won't get me far anyway. Maybe it's my fault, but definitely the blur Levi n...
Posted by Jacqueline on Sun, 13 Nov 2005 11:24:00 PST

Important Update!

Greetings. For those of u who are interested to view my blogs, please take note that I don't post my complete blogs here. if u're interested, just drop me a message and I'll tell u where my blog is. ...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Unwritten Play

Are u a Chinese? Most probably you are just Chinese. My official identity says I am not only Chinese, but also a Chinese. Maybe I should consider myself as A Chinese.But not everyone thinks I am A Chi...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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milan church. i guess many parents dont really mean it when they offer their baby to God or go for infant baptism. hypocrisy. just like my mum. haehaehae. u probably think i'll go U just like my mum, ...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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when the h*** did i become soo excited about the mass? it's just celebrating Maria! worst of all, i don't even understand Italiano............ jerk starts fooling at me...hmm.... anny must hav rea...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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haircutter gal eat shit! i had a dream my n friend wanted to receive Christ she asked me her parents how they are all hindu then i say what the woman speaker said the day i went arle...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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block me, block me, for this is the will of God. Thanks be to God! think about it, the little fair girl standing in the rows of girls in bluc pinafore, she was the star with a sparkling smile. and ...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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i don't givea damn who's my friend & who's not. I don't givea damn on who's my boyfriend & who's my husband. If God thinks he's really the one, let Him send an angel down from heaven & tell the guy to...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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OVERSLEPT FOR CHOIR BREAKFAST & EVERYTHING ON SUNDAY MORNING went to arlene's roman catholic church yesterday. they had a nice worship that makes me feel a sense of spiritual togetherness . they di...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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don't blame me for takings my own way. im only asking the reason behind it, feeling pain, asking for a change for good and still with faith.i didn't blame anyone for it. i just want to know the secret...
Posted by Jacqueline on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST