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I am a fun loving kind of person and like people who are fun loving and up front honest. I don't like phonies and people that lie. If you can't tell the truth then keep your mouth shut.I was born in Spartanburg, SC. My father was in the Navy and we did a lot of traveling. I later married and divorced an Army man. I think the military is a wonderful place to build character and pride in oneself.I met a wonderful man and we dated for 10 years and was engaged for 9 of them. To my sadness he died on July 30, 2006 after a very short bout with lung cancer (less than 16 days from the time he found out it was lung cancer and less than 9 days after his 1st round of chemo). He was a good man and sad to say his children never knew him because he and their mother divorced when the youngest was 5 and because of the emotional scars for him, the communications were shut down. Even after the children were grown, his 2 youngest never tried to contact him. He loved his children dearly and it broke his heart because of the way things happened, however he felt it was best for them at that time, but eventually he saw it was the wrong decision, by then it was too little, too late. But it is sad for them also, as they will never know how much he loved them and that he shed many a tears over them. But someday maybe they will find out he was a good man and he did love them.In June 2005 I was admitted to the hospital for a medical problem to find out what was causing my problem. To my surprise I ended up fighting for my life. I remember the night I was near death. I could hear someone calling my name but it was so distant and I couldn't see anything but bright white light. I remember trying to following the sound of my name but it kept getting further away. I remember stopping and turning around and around saying where am I to go? Stopping again I asked please where am I to go? After that, the sound of my name started getting louder and louder until I finally awakened. There were at least one doctor, several nurses, and other medical service people there. My hospital bed was tipped downward to the floor with my head almost upside down. They said I wasn't reading out on the vitals and my heart was beating but ever so slowly. They rushed me to ICU to continue my fight. With the grace of the Lord and best Doctor (I love him dearly)anyone could have [sidebar:the TV DR McDreamy is Dr. McNightmare compared to my doctor; but steady, ladies, he is happily married with children:end of sidebar]I came back quickly. I have been told by several clergyman that on that night I had been on the verge of going to heaven but then I was allowed more time on this earth because there is something left for me to do in this lifeand it may be a while before I would fully know what it was. I thank the Lord each and everyday for allowing me to have yet another day on this earth and giving me a doctor who truly cared and knew what to do. But I know there will be another time when the Lord will call me once again. I am ready now even more than then.I try to live each day as best I can hoping the things I do that day will not offend or hurt anyone. I want to be a good person and I try to be understanding and caring. I hate no one nor judge them as that is not my job. That is the Lord's job and I think He knows best. I try to find good in each and every person I meet. Until you have walked in their shoes you cannot know how they feel. We all have our faults!! When we find love it should be a love that is unconditional with patience, tolerance, understanding, kindness and caring. We should look beyond the outer shell of the person and see into their heart and soul. The beauty from within is more true than the beauty shown on the outside. I want to trust but I have been hurt trusting before and it is hard to trust. But a friend told me I shouldn't feel that way; but I should trust until the person proves differently that I shouldn't. So, I am trying to do just that, trusting until proven otherwise. It isn't all that easy but I am working on it!!!