...I couldnt think about much to write this time... My life was forever changed in late August 2005 that when me and Vinny really became serious about being with each other... I never realized until a few months ago how much my life really had changed... I went from doing whatever i wanted to do without carin about anyone to having this person in my life who meant the absolute world to me... And it happened just like that, so suddenly, and my world was upside down... Throughout this year and almost 5 months he's became even more important, if thats even possible... He's challenged me to do right and think things over in a whole different way more than anyone ever has before... He's allowed me to open up and reveal my deepest secrets to someone who i know will keep them forever so i dont feel so alone... He's made me believe i can do anything and that some how everything will work out the best in my life... The main reason i even believe that though is because he's in my life... This is gonna sound crazy and i know he'll and say i scared him when he reads this but i would stop at absolutely nothing to keep him by side... Not that it will be hard because he loves me and always will, i just mean that for the rest of my life i will continue to do every possible thing i can to keep him happy and keep all harm and stress from his life... We've had ups and downs like every normal couple does but last september we decided once and for all we'd end anything that could bring harm to one another or this relationship that we love so much... The minute he looked at me and i realized everything was over was the best moment in my life... I felt like a huge rock had been lifted from my shoulders and i was no longer carrying the weight of the world... And though there has been mistakes still because we're not perfect and i still worry sometimes, it sonly beacuse i'm human... i can't help the thoughts that run through my head... What i can do though is push them and remind myself that i have the guy here who would do anything for me, wants to marry and have children with me someday, and know that he'd never hurt me... For those of you who dont know what that feels like, when you find out it'll be the best time in your life...
So babe what i'm saying is that even if i seem to doubt you... i never do... even if i seem suspicious... i'n not... i love you with all of my heart and even if you think you know how much that is you dont... you are my world and im so happy about that... there cant possibly be anyone better in this world than you are... you're so caring, loving, and helpful and you make my life soooo much easier... you cant do anything for myself lol... i cant wait to marry you and have you in my life forever... i love you baby =)
swEEt lay0uts
