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About Me

same old shit, different days. it's a mad corporate world with all the shitty politics. what's the meaning of life?I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. And I don't think that love is here in this tiny metropolitan island.Thinking about relationships, there are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart.Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they're supposed to run wild until they find someone -- just as wild -- to run with.You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because somebody else has a problem with it.I will not be the first one to speak. And if he never calls me again, I'll always think of him fondly. As an asshole.When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?Can you get to your future if your past is present?I'm thinking balls are to men what purses are to women. It's just a little bag, but we feel naked in public without it.I wanted a man who'd commit, not a man who was committed. Apparently we have to be more specifc

My Interests

anything and everything if i have time, which is seldom.....used to love to shop, but nowadays, time is too little for me to enjoy the way i used to shop. love bags and bags and more bags, shoes come a close second.i am an avid reader...... i know i don't look like one....but i am....turning into an alcoholic. love to guzzle beer and slowly enjoy my wine. love my macallan. love my mojito.

I'd like to meet:

"Soul Mate" Two little words. One big concept. A belief that someone, somewhere is holding the key to your heart and your dream house. All you have to do is find them. So where is this person ? And if you love someone and it didnt work out, does that mean they weren't your soul mate ? one can love a dog, love the trees, love the sex. but one can only be in love with somebody.when someone tells you he loves you, is the love same as loving his car? his dog? his work?i am waiting for someone to tell me he is in love with meUnless it's mad, passionate, exciting love, it's a waste of your time. Life is full of mediocre things. Love shouldn't be one of them

Music:

depeche mode, norah jones, diana krall, olivia ong, tracy chapman, no particular genre actually, as long as it feels right. currently bossa nova and jazz top the list of most listened.

Movies:

i watch anything and everything. if i have time that is. love kevin costner and bruce willis. i love movies that make me cry.

Television:

i love The Nanny, The Simpsons, Southpark and SATC.nowadays i watch whatever is showing on cable. i no longer have time and energy to choose what i want to watch. i just channel surf and stop at whichever channel that doesnt seem too bad.i will like to have time to watch silly korean soppy dramas and taiwanese idol serials. i need to feel silly, being sane all the time is tiring.

Books:

anything, i believe reading is a way of learning, fiction and non fiction. every book will give you new perspectives and ideas. living in an imaginary world everytime i read. its a way of escaping reality for that few hours. it makes life easier when u actually get to live the happily ever after written.

Heroes:

.....HELL doesnt want me and HEAVEN is afraid that i'll take over.....When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.It means I live my life MY way.It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch!The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.You might not or you won't even succeed, at all...And if that makes me a bitch, so be it.I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.B - Babe I - In T - Total C - Control of H - HerselfB = Beautiful I = Intelligent T = Talented C = Charming H = Hell of a WomanB = Beautiful I = Individual T = That C = Can H = Handle anything

My Blog

~feelings today~

Sometimes I feel Like I am drunk behind the wheel The wheel of possibility However it may roll Give it a spin See if you can somehow factor in You know there's always more than one way T...
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pictures from bangkok~

these pictures are courtesy of mr kevin aka fuckster who was on this bangkok trip with me as well as shervin...... my camera was kept in cold storage throughout the whole journey cos it was considered...
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pictures taken in class~

this is simon~ little boy of our class...... this is xiao wei~....... this is ellen........ this is ellen and simon...... =P and this is shervin...... available in myspace.com a...
Posted by im.not.home.but.my.shoes.are -pls.leave.them.a.msg on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

what every woman should know~.....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...one old love she can imagine going back to... and one who reminds her how far she has come. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...enough money within her control to move ...
Posted by im.not.home.but.my.shoes.are -pls.leave.them.a.msg on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

stoning....

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unreleased cover.....

this is for the cover of u weekly for channel U...... unreleased..... i love it so much...... oh god.... she looks damn good....
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more pics of the boy~

hiding inside the refraction room today during work....... cant stand my hair~...... lol~ its too short@~...
Posted by im.not.home.but.my.shoes.are -pls.leave.them.a.msg on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

feeling naked!!!!

i think i cut my hair too short....... i feel naked.... my neck and my eyes feel naked...... i look like a boy. i know androgynous is in but i think i am more in touch with my feminine side.... ...
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at work....

bored at work~....... lol~
Posted by im.not.home.but.my.shoes.are -pls.leave.them.a.msg on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

girl's night out

we went out today again..... the four ladies...... its my sister's birthday today..... had dinner den went to a sing song session...... the four monkeyS....=D this is eileen letting her hair ...
Posted by im.not.home.but.my.shoes.are -pls.leave.them.a.msg on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST