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let the poison spill spurt from your throat

About Me

Findin' out my way somehow
Heard those sounds up in the sky
Tryin' to find a way up out/about
Darkness will not be my guide
It's been a long time comin' as well
Lots of rises, lots of falls, lots of stories to tell
Lots of 40 ounce session couch surfin'
Hotel Residency
Got to pay the rent
Fuck it
Oh well
Came to a point where a drink meant death
Cold turkey, nerves shook, all the stress repressed
Bubbled up to the surface, now I'm lookin' at me
Face to face with myself, simply tryin' to be
Sometimes it's hard to just be
When you're blinded in mist
I wonder if other people go through shit like this
Was about to call it quits, then the moonlight spoke
I was sleepin' on life, suddenly I awoke
And now I'm..
Did some wrongs, paid some costs
Skipped out on some roommates, cussed out a few bosses
Explosion of the ego, the power of the sauce/source
I guess that I was lookin' for a confidence loss
Somewhere along the road I must have made a wrong turn
But I've come to realize that it's just a long journey
Used to search for the meaning 'till one dark Summernight
A cat told me that my words had inspired his life
And now I'm..
Now it's all about purpose, progress, not perfection
Seeing beneath the surface, faith followed by action
I live it all now, with a hunger and a passion
And when I get stuck I let go and keep mashin'
And when I get stuck, I get still and just ask Him
For knowledge of His will, then my third eye transcends
Thought and everything now's exactly like it's supposed to Be
Channel when I'm givin' and give it back out
Over beats
Every now and then I think of how things work
All that's fuel for fire now
It's funny how things work
And when I'm flustered and I find I'm slipping back in that Space
I see that planet
Now it's perfect in the middle of space
And I know that I'm..

My Interests

Music:

INDUSTRIAL:
andriod lust
apoptygma berzerk
assemblage 23
bauhaus
cessium 137
covenant
das ich
depech mode
front line assembly
funker vogt
godhead
haujobb
hocico
icon of coil
informatik
ll'ame imortal
lights of euphoria
mindless faith
my life with a thrill kill cult
ministry
nine inch nails
otto von schirach
ohgr
project pitchfork
purgatory
panzer ag
rasputina
razed in black
rotersabd
SITD
skinny puppy
snog
suicide commando
terrorfakt
vnv nation
wolfsheim
wumpscut
zeromancer.
METAL:
apacolyptica
arch enemy
behemoth
cannibal corpse
cradle of filth
danzig
dimmu borgir
fear factory
napalm death
system of a down
soulfly
sepultura
HIP-HOP:
aesop rock
atmosphere
a tribe called quest
buck 65
blackalicous
brother ali
company flow
dead prez
deltron aka del the funky homosapean aka deltron 3030
mr. dibs
edyea and abilities
grey skull
gangstar
hieroglyphics
illogic
jedi mind trick
jurasic 5
mf doom
micronauts
murs
sage francis
soul position
soul position
styles of beyond
viktor vaugn.
EMO:
atreyu
box car racer
death cab for cuttie
coheed and cambria
dash board confessionals
finch
glassjaw
the used
ELECTRONICA:
the flaming lips
the postal service
the faint
the epoxies
figurine
PUNK:
the ashtrays
the buisness
citizen fish
the distillers
the germs
rancid
INDIE:
frans ferdinand
hot hot heat
the killers
the muse

Movies:

The believer. Everyone should watch it

Television:

rots your brain

Books:

catch 22, sidhartha, one flew over the cokoos nest, the lord of the rings, the myst of avalon, killer angels, confederency dunces, the big book, the basic text, 1984, electric acid kool-aid test

Heroes:



I love your face. RIP

My Blog

existence

Today I have the feeling of not wanting to exist.  I want to be able to take a break from life and let the storm blow over, only to reemerge when all is clear and the sun is shining.  But wh...
Posted by .:xFISHx:. on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 12:16:00 PST

wake up america

More and more I am realizing that this country needs to wake up very quickly or it will destroy itself.  So many issues are coming to a boiling point.  The time has come for the American pub...
Posted by .:xFISHx:. on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 01:25:00 PST