mana♥lynn - ProfilesArchive

About Me

capture life. capture love.
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hey yo. i'm amanda lynn. i'm about twenty years old (going on forty-five) and i'm every inch of perfect. i love who i am, and i'm an inspiration to those around me. i delve deep within in books, stories, and fantasy to ease the pain within my mind. i capture beauty in this everyday world by photographing those wonderful creatures around me, as well as myself. i have attempted suicide, been with a monster, and become one myself. i find myself to be most jealous and passionate, probably more so than you could ever be. i harbor secrets deep inside of me, and wear burning passions upon my sleeves. my face isn't perfect , but i will tell you it is. why is that? because i am happy with it. i could have been born a monster, except that i wasn't. i am as perfect as i could ever be, born in a black hole of a town, and tortured with life's cruelest anomalies . i'm no idiot -- today's world revolves around being and if flaunting my face will get me what I want, who am i to say that's not what i should do? i believe that religion is a ploy to calm the panic amongst the masses. i am brutalized with addiction, birth, death , and abandonment. i am softened with fantasies about true love, families, and violins. i'm sexy because i'm confident, and i'm confident because i'm sexy . i love eyelashes, color, cameras, and celebrities. i am an avid fan of makeup, harry potter, stephanie meyer, and myspace. i am easily overcome by temptation and totally absorbed by music. i have an addictive personality type, but i resist drugs as well as i can. i am invested in art, books, music, and dance . my passion is fashion, ( and i laugh as i write this, for it rhymes ). i am as complete as i could ever be. if you take the time to actually look over my myspace, you'll see that it says down in the left hand side, that i'm a proud parent, and i definitely am. my daughter, ashtyn reilly, is completely mine and gloriously perfect. that little girl is my gift from my higher power and she will always be the first thought in my mind. second to her is my truest love... he rules my heart, my body, my mind, and most importantly , my soul... i am completely and totally wrapped up in my torrid love affair with my kindred heart... dustin, you are my world, and i love you with all of my heart . don't underestimate me. i am jaded and still beautiful... perfect? we all have our faults...
this world is full of wonderful encounters: love, hate, cruelty, family, friends, miracles, and yet, the thing that brings out the most passion and creativity in me, is by far fashion. to design and create a look that is more than just one evening of your life, that is more than just a sickening twist on looking your best. to create something so beautiful , it can totally and completly change the image represented by a single one person's face... that is true beauty. it takes passion, depth, and a truely trained eye to create gorgeous looks, an entire line of matching, and unique styles. it is my dream, my hope, and my passion . though i may be just a small-town girl from illinois, i have what it takes to follow my dreams. if only we could all be so daring as to go after that one thing, deep in our hearts, that we want more than anything else. don't give up. the only person stopping you, is you . ♥
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My Interests

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photography, webdesign, modeling, communications, cosmetology, education, hair styling, piercings, tattoos, music, acting, reading, writing, dancing, reality tv shows, fashion design, experiencing life, baking, fashion, retro everything, big hair, heavy make-up, nudes , art, painting, teeth, eyelashes, being cool, making bitches jealous, smiling, laughing, drinking, bitching, fighting, arguing, debating, eating, spending money, shopping , going out, being myself, having fun. ♥

I'd like to meet:

i'd like to meet someone to understand without stereotyping or judging.

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live the biggest life you can.
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♥forever remembered
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Music:

EVERYTHING. all that remains, the ying yang twins, mariah carey, the used, my chemical romance, lil wyte, project pat , atreyu, slipknot, mudvayne, marilyn manson, evanescence, vendetta red, nine inch nails, stabbing westward, bright eyes, regina spector, lily allen , mike jones, ciara, the faint, the fray, harry and the potters, soft cell, the clash, madonna, lamb of god, tech n9ne, kelis, outkast, the gin blossoms , carrie underwood, tim mcgraw, martina mcbride, faith hill, rascal flatts, dierks bentley, fat joe, chingy, gym class heroes, daniel beddingfield, bow wow, brand new, orgy , stone sour, taking back sunday, the sunstreak, thursday, garbage, korn, alanis morrisette, a skylit drive, the sunstreak, hollywood undead, mudvayne, and everything from the 80's and 90's; ♥

Movies:

mean girls, a beautiful mind, clerks, chasing amy, shiloh , harry potter(s), underworld, titanic, ever after, donny darko, casper, the garden state, the last kiss, original sin, porn; ♥

Television:

project runway, grey's anatomy, the duel, desperate housewives, heroes, doctor 90210, extreme makeovers , deal or no deal, rescue me; ♥

Books:

Harry Potter!! ♥

Heroes:

myself, dustin c peterson, ashtyn reilly graham, paula s farrey, jk rowling; stephanie parker♥!

My Blog

down the staircase to heartbreak...

and i fall so willingly! isn't it funny how we all throw ourselves into the pain? we think it's going to be so amazing until that first nasty fight... we think we're going to be so happy, so wrapped u...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Wed, 14 May 2008 12:50:00 PST

drown out the sound...

where did our lives leave the beaten path and stray into the harsh reality of hell? try opening your eyes when they're caked shut with denial. it's a hard thing to do... to see the truth, to realize t...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Fri, 02 May 2008 12:06:00 PST

don’t turn around...

i don’t wantcha to see my heart breakin... things never change, and yet, they are always changing. i can’t explain exactly why this bothers me. i feel like a queen and simultaneously not g...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 11:31:00 PST

whirling...

and who are you when your mind is... nothing?there is a part of my heart that is rotted. hanging by a thread and completely blackened, hollow, sickening. it makes me sick. in my mind, i see all of the...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Thu, 03 Apr 2008 07:24:00 PST

lost in the haze of all these (endless) days...

how will i ever see my path in life... if i can’t even see the road?days are going by so quickly, anymore. i’m slowly becoming... empty. reverting back to old ways, and old ideas, and old ...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:40:00 PST

falling... away from me.

...screaming so loud.confusion hits me between the eyes. i blink, contemplative and wondering... silently, inside my head. i’m always analyzing, trying to make sure i’ve done the right thi...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 01:41:00 PST

poet;

.... mess ....opened eyes, cheeky tongueyou break my heart, you’ve already won.tangled web and broken wings;i am nought except for everything.crucial retribution oh-so-so close,always seeming to...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Tue, 18 Mar 2008 01:37:00 PST

(correctly) incorrect

sharpening the blade...once upon a time, i was young and niave. i was pretty and blonde and completely real. my skin was not scarred and my heart was completely unmarked. i was the epitome of girlish ...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Tue, 18 Mar 2008 11:12:00 PST

terror

i was so comfortable, i almost forgot what it was like to have your heart wrenched out... unfortunately, i find no comfort where i seek it. i’m impatiently waiting to find out the answers to my ...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 02:03:00 PST

awakenings...

false pretenses...lead to nothing.i feel... like no matter how hard i try, some people are always going to have their own opinions and perceptions. i have my secrets; the deepest layers of my heart hi...
Posted by mana♥lynn on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 02:46:00 PST