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Nothing But A Nightmare

Ignorance is only a form of self-deception. Are you really justified in having nothing to say? Take

About Me

i too am not exempt from this fate...

My Interests

meditate and destroy

I'd like to meet:

magicians, outlaws, pirates and ghosts...

Music:

The Minutemen, Bad Brains, Black Flag, Buzzcocks, MC5, Beehive and the Barracudas, Refused, Joe Strummer and the Mescaleros, The Clash, Bonecrusher, Iggy, The Stooges, Slayer, The Jam, CIV, Agent Orange, Booker T and the MG’s, Otis Redding, Misfits, Snapcase, Straight Faced, Desmond Dekker and the Aces, Tom Waits, Bowie, Cocksparrer, Sabbath, The Sonics, Dead Boys, T.S.O.L., New York Dolls, Killing Joke, The Damned, Fugazi, The Libertines, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, Billy Bragg, Mississippi John Hurt, The Pogues, The Blasters, Joanna Newsom, Au Pairs, Sham 69, Motorhead, Ken Booth, Symarip, Toots and the Maytals, Willie Williams, Bjork, Naked Aggression, Rudimentary Peni, Redemption 87, Verbal Abuse, MDC, HFL, R.K.L., Zero Boys, Iron Maiden, Cro-Mags, Agnostic Front, D.R.I., Gorilla Biscuit, Ignite, Oi Polloi, One Way System, Poison Idea, The Accused, Jolie Holland, Dizzy, Django, Parker, Sidney Bechet, Bessie Smith, Gustavo Santaolalla, The Clancey Brothers and Tommy Makem, and oh so much more…

Movies:

true romance, shawshank redemption, but i'm a cheerleader, suburbia, we jam econo, may, baraka, devil's rejects, angels with dirty faces, something wicked this way comes, ararat, the quiet man, papillon, hellraiser, night of the demons, hour of the wolf, the seventh seal...

Television:

kill your god

Books:

the invisibles - grant morrison, the chronicles of narnia - cs lewis, condensed chaos - phil hine, something wicked this way comes - ray bradbury, hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy - douglas adams................AND....................This then? This is not a book. This is libel, slander, defamation of character. This is not a book, in the ordinary sense of the word. No, this is a prolonged insult, a gob of spit in the face of Art, a kick in the pants to God, Man, Destiny, Time, Love, Beauty ... what you will. I am going to sing for you, a little off key perhaps but I will sing. I will sing while you croak, I will dance over your dirty corpse....To sing you must first open your mouth. You must have a pair of lungs, and a little knowledge of music. It is not necessary to have an accordion, or a guitar. The essential thing is to want to sing. This then is a song. I am singing.It is to you, Tania, that I am singing. I wish that I could sing better, more melodiously, but then perhaps you would never have consented to listen to me. You have heard the others sing and they have left you cold. They sang too beautifully, or not beautifully enough.It is the twenty-somethingth of October. I no longer keep track of the date. Would you say--my dream of the 14th November last? There are intervals, but they are between dreams, and there is no consciousness of them left. The world around me is dissolving, leaving here and there spots of time. The world is a cancer eating itself away.... I am thinking that when the great silence descends upon all and everywhere music will at last triumph. When into the womb of time everything is again withdrawn chaos will be restored and chaos is the score upon which reality is written. You, Tania, are my chaos. It is why I sing. It is not even I, it is the world dying. shedding the skin of time. I am still alive, kicking in your womb, a reality to write upon. *********************** the tropic of cancer - henry miller

Heroes:

not heroes but reality beacons******************sid grant ***** uncle al ***** the other uncle al *****natas*****AND THIS HORSE!

My Blog

Two Years Ago Today

i love you sarah... *********************** and of course, the winds are low and the mists have cleared now that you have gone. but with such soft focus, as to write a line, her invisible breath blows...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 03:26:00 PST

routine maintenance meltdown

  my mind has been dark and cloudy lately. a secret even to myself. i have been easily frustrated and incommunicative to most. i have been unavailable to my family and friends even when they need...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 12:33:00 PST

i just found this from 1996...

sven, sam,johnny, brett, joe, zoli and anyone else who was there who might read this, sorry for any creative liberties i took... after 11 years i can't remember the exact truth anyway. i hope you all ...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 04:19:00 PST

Old School Pride

your wide streets fed our anxiety. your perfectly planned neighborhoods fueled our insecurity. we lashed out, we scarred and defiled you. we lit you on fire but you survived. you destroyed our re...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Sat, 02 Jun 2007 12:44:00 PST

the "paying my rent" rationalization ain't working tonight

the "paying my rent" rationalization ain't working tonight. yesterday was the two year anniversary of my friend's death, correction... murder at the hands of the san diego police. i had an amazing da...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 01:15:00 PST

paying the rent

just a mindless rant... i work in a hostel. i am a manager. i pay my rent by being on call every other week. when you're on call and someone doesn't show up for work you have to get it covered or work...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Tue, 03 Apr 2007 03:01:00 PST

on a roll

i was just reading some shit on my friends page (http://www.myspace.com/joelbull) that got me ranting so i'm going to continue here... fuck all these people who tell you shit's gonna get better. it wo...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Tue, 20 Mar 2007 06:41:00 PST

a little haunting for breakfast?

my friend came by today. he's been dead for almost two years. a little haunting for breakfast? *********************** why are you haunting me today? i miss you brother. i've been looking at your pict...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Sun, 18 Mar 2007 12:06:00 PST

suicide is an alternative

now that i have your attention. the universe is spiraling faster, gravity ripping at my ability to stay stagnant. pulling away the stones i have lashed to my ankles to hold me down. i am done seeing h...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 09:39:00 PST

next stop, purgatory

it's been a long time since i've written from the 923 and my perspective is different. this is no longer a happy magic carpet that takes me from heaven to hell but a shuttle from one point of purgator...
Posted by Nothing But A Nightmare on Tue, 19 Sep 2006 01:08:00 PST