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::ericka::

i'll see it when i believe it

About Me

I am a photographer. Check out my website: www.erickaheidrick.com"Feet all full of streets, heart all full of beats..." ~ Sean Hayes. I am ruled by my heart and my mind, equally. This can be problematic. The parallel course that they run can be conflicting. I long for them to find the perpendicular. But I know they won’t, so I have decided not to want that anymore. Instead, the more days I spend on this planet, the more I move away from my mind and speak and live from my heart. I want to think with my heart. Progress, yes. Perfection, no. Perpetual personal growth and the gumption to always move towards personal truth is all I ask from myself in this life. Oh yeah, and enlightenment sure would be nice! But I have learned that in “desiring” enlightenment, one cannot attain it. Enlightenment knows no wanting, it only knows being. Being with what is, right here, now…free of mind.What else? I am a fun-loving gregarious tall girl with a hearty laugh. I appreciate it when my house is clean. Okay, yeah, I’m a Virgo. Virgo’s get such a bad rap! I am not THAT anal, but a little yeah. What can I say, I like a tight ship! :) But I will have you know that my drawers are filled with VERY unorganized paperwork and junk. Does that make you feel less judgmental?I’d like to travel two thirds out of every year. I like to dance my legs down to the knees. I am a hugely sensual being. Hugely sensitive as well… I sing all the time, best therapy! Especially in the car… “Without music, we are in hell.” Someone said that, and I would have to agree. Music has literally saved my life on more that one occasion. There is little I can think of that is better than to be listening to an amazing song and be moved to tears by the sheer beauty of everything mixing together just…so. If I could live inside a great song, I surely would. I think honesty is strength. I think weakness in also strength. To be able to be weak and vulnerable is to invite truth to yourself. Saying someone is strong for not giving into feeling weak is totally backwards and fucked in my opinion. We got it all wrong… It’s time to unlearn the lies of our conditioning and youth. I have a hard time with the ever-increasing attitude that it is okay to be flakey. It’s not! I totally appreciate consideration and thoughtfulness for other people’s time and energy. Am I just old fashioned? Do I need to back to where I was born to get this? It’s true; mid-westerners are the salt of the earth! :) I left a piece of me on Maui. It will always live there… I want to go bowling. Any takers?
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(Child selling plastic orchids at night, NYC, 1963, 1990 Estate of Diane Arbus, LLC)now, letting go, holding on..., music, music, music, film, dance, yoga, art of almost any kind, skin, peace, laughter,Vipassana meditation, homoeopathy, drum kits, photography, tongues, animals, why, bicycle riding, mortorcyles, liberation, guitar, lips, consideration, space mountain, feet, live music, connection, raw foods, communication, queers, balance, personal truth, honesty, spirit, sushi, hawaii, cold unfiltered sake, hot springs, travel, kissing, singing in the car, joking, teasing, love.
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I'd like to meet:

"I remembered you the moment I met you...." Searchers and Growers. Not Show-ers. Well, showing and growing are pretty cool, actually. Show yourself, grow yourself. Be strong and accepting of where you are at, but have the back door open for growth and change. Being able to say you are wrong is pretty important. I love people who are able to deal with getting shit right out on the table, whether it be conflict or love. Listen as loud as you can scream. Show up. Being fanatical about music, movies, and films (and yes, there IS a difference) is a definite plus. yeeeeow. "Flaming June" by Lord Frederick Leighton (circa 1895). Is this not one of the best renderings of languid and lush sensual beauty?

Music:

::holcombe waller::trespassers william::gossip::shins::boy eats drum machine::wet confetti::mono::city and colour::fujiya & miyagi::the smiths::indigo girls::meow meow::massive attack::portishead::LKN::imogen heap::antony and the johnsons::sean hayes::storm and the balls::electrelane::inner::iron and wine::ray lamontagne::chet baker::martha wainwright::rufus wainwright::ani difranco::peaches::(old) cure::fischerspooner::le tigre::bob dylan::sleater-kinney::interpol::jt::the brand new heavies::sade::dolly parton::patty griffin::gillian welch::jeff buckley::american analog set::feist::tricky::tori amos::chet baker::dead can dance::yeah yeah yeahs::innocence mission::joni mitchell::belly::the kills::yaz::cocteau twins::natalie merchant::cat stevens::sundays::erasure::mia doi todd::loretta lynn::nina smone::billie holiday::air::everything but the girl::pat benetar::belle and sebastian::leonard cohen::and on and on and on and on and on...:: Holcombe Waller @ Doug Fir ©2006 www.erickaheidrick.com Matt and Anna-Lynne from Trespassers William ©2006 www.erickaheidrick.com

Movies:

to kill a mockingbird::ice castles::pan's labyrinth::little children::baraka::the fountain::children of men::the dead girl::xanadu::shortbus::the color purple::amelie::kika::stay::all about my mother::half nelson::volver::hard candy::ma vien rose::bladerunner::truth or dare::crash::hedwig and the angry inch::the hours::brokeback mountain::in america::party girl::aimee and jaguar::donnie darko::born into brothels::enchanted april::heathers::pulp ficiton::run lola run::momento::i heart hucabees::the secret::what the bleep do we know::gia::the matrix::all over me::show me love::requium for a dream::secretary::the hunger::boys don't cry::donnie darko::fight club::you, me and everyone we know::gia::angels in america::eternal sunshine of the spotless mind::dogville::and on and on and on and on...::

Television:

::six feet under (best show EVER)::i shouldn't be alive::biographies::inside the actor's studio::true crime shows on A&E::the daily show::cow and chicken::south park::

Books:

::cunt::if the buddha dated::the power of now::written on the body::the giving tree::sidartha::think on these things::wicked::the hours::

Heroes:

(buddha painting credit: yael malkin)

My Blog

Boy Eats Drum Machine new video. yeee-ha!

check out my buddies' new video.they totally rule the school.and soon, the world!so very talented.i effing love these guys.go jonny go!here....
Posted by ::ericka:: on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 10:40:00 PST

uuugh.

can you die from a horrific allergy attack?if the answer be yes, than it was nice to know you, if i knew you.and if i didn't, i'm sad we never met.much love and light,ericka:(...
Posted by ::ericka:: on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 08:55:00 PST

remember this in your heart.

i saw the indigo girls perform last night.then went backstage.it was surreal and wonderful.i have been listening to them for like 20 years.their wisdom and spirit taught me so much when i was younger,...
Posted by ::ericka:: on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 11:25:00 PST

the greatest light.

..> ..> ..> ..> You never know,You never really know.You can't have people figured out. One friend came inOut of nowhere, with litSparklers in both her hands for me,And saved the dayWhen I ha...
Posted by ::ericka:: on Fri, 15 Jun 2007 09:51:00 PST

Strut

check it out.jeff and i are in this news story.i'm behind a camera in two spots.can you find me? it's mostly just hair and body, sans face!and well jeff, ya know, he's giving charming interview.that f...
Posted by ::ericka:: on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 11:39:00 PST

pretty effing A-mazing.

check this out.wow.Kinetic Sculpturewow.
Posted by ::ericka:: on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 05:15:00 PST

my Gossip video debut.

it's out.it's rad.it's here:Listen-up Videoi'm dancing towards the end.can you spot me?:)
Posted by ::ericka:: on Fri, 25 May 2007 09:28:00 PST

My first album cover! Wade Mccollum

Okay, this came out quite awhile ago, but I kept forgetting to put it up.So here it is:...
Posted by ::ericka:: on Tue, 22 May 2007 11:50:00 PST

um....holy mary mother of god, hanging with the shins.

I know there is so much more important shit going on in the world, but woah. I totallly hung out with The Shins for hours last night. If you know me, you know I love The Shins. LOVE them. So, it wa...
Posted by ::ericka:: on Tue, 15 May 2007 09:41:00 PST

gentle moon

smile down on us sun, show your rays when things come undone all animals lead, us to light when we can't see stars, saturn and moon, glow for those who cannot get through rain fall and voice sound for...
Posted by ::ericka:: on Sat, 12 May 2007 01:21:00 PST