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About Me

MAKE A DIFFERENCE...I DID. GO TO WWWW.SAVEDARFUR.COM & INVISIBLE CHILDREN .COMI SAVED TWO FROM CHILDREN FROM, RAPE, FROM BEING ENSLAVED, AND STARVING. THEIR PARENTS WERE KILLED.GBHELLO, MY NAME IS CAL. I AM A WARDROBE STYLIST WHO IS TESTING, IN GLOSS, AND WORKING IN THE FASHION INDUSTRY. I LOVE WORKING IN THE FIELD. YOU MAY HAVE SEEN MY WORK AND NOT KNOWN IT WAS ME._________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ [THIS IS A DAY I CAN SMELL A WASHING____ IN A COLD STEEL DRUM AGAIN____ I USED TO SIT SO LOW LIKE DROWNING____ I TRADE WATER BUT NOW I CAN'T STAND____ I LOST MY WAY AND I AM DIRTY____ I WISH I'D NEVER BEGAN TO____ UNDERSTAND---- _+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_ I MOVE THROUGH WAVES OF MY SECOND SKIN____ SOAKED AND WRINKLED I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS WILL END____ I MUST CLEANSE MY WAY IT IS____ MURKY HERE____ AND THEN FIND MY REASON TO INHALE MYSELF AGAIN---- _+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_ I CLOSE MY EYES TO SEE THE DIM____ LIKENESS OF HIMSELF____ I NOW KNOW MEN CAN'T ASCEND TO THE COMING OF SOMEONE ELSE____ I REACH AHEAD TO STEADY MYSELF AND INHALE____ I'M CLEAN____ KNEES SHAKE TO PARTICIPATE AS____ A NEW DAY FOUND ITS WAY TO BEGIN] ____________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ _________________________________________________________[I WAKE__IN A FLASH I AM SHAKEN AGAIN, THIS TIME BY THE STILLNESS OF SWEAT__I CAN NOT MOVE AND MY SKIN, LIKE THE CANVAS OF A RED DESERT, SPARKLES AND SHIMMERS WITH EVERY ATTEMPT TO MOVE TO END THIS__STILLNESS__I CAN'T MOVE__AS THE FOEVER THUD OF THE PUMP SHUTTLES BLOOD THROUGH MY VEINS__I CAN'T MOVE FOR IT WOULD DISTURB THE WONDERFUL__THE BELOVED ONE WITH EAR AND CHEEK MY SPARKLING CHEST__FINGERS PRESSED SO PURPOSFULLY PILLOWING MY FLESH I BELIEVE THERE WILL BE PRINTS LIKE CROP CIRCLES OF PASSION AND ADORNMENT__FOR SOMEONE NEEDS ME__SOMEONE SHUT OF THE PHONE, THE CLOCK, THE HOLD FUCKING WORLD JUST TIME HERE__I CAN'T MOVE BECAUSE CONTENTMENT FINDS ME IN CHAINS AND I SIGH IN THE STILLNESS OF SWEAT. 061107 10:35PM]____________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ _____I AM INTERESTED IN BREATHING; STIMULATING CONVERSATIONS THAT ARE DYNAMIC AND INFORMING. I AM VERY INTERESTED IN MUSIC AND ALL OF THE ARTS. I SPEND A LOAD OF TIME INVOLVED WITH MUSIC.I WORK IN THE FASHION INDUSTRY, MORE SPECIFIC I'M A FASHION. WE PRODUCE ALOT OF SHOWS TO BENEFIT DIFFERENT PHILANTHROPIES. I STAY VERY ACTIVE. I TRY TO RUN AND WORKOUT REGULARLY. I AM SIMPLY INTERESTED IN KEEPING INTERESTS, REALLY._____________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ ____" ART IS A KIND OF INNATE DRIVE THAT SEIZES A human being AND MAKES HIM ITS INSTRUMENT. THE ARTIST IS NOT A PERSON ENDOWED WITH FREE WILL WHO SEEKS HIS OWN ENDS, BUT ONE WHO ALLOWS ART TO REALIZE ITS PURPOSE THROUGH HIM. AS A human being HE MAY HAVE MOODS AND A WILL AND PERSONAL AIMS, BUT AS AN ARTIST HE IS "MAN" IN A HIGHER SENSE- HE IS "COLLECTIVE MAN"- ONE WHO CARRIES AND SHAPES THE UNCONCIOUS PSYCHIC FORMS OF MAN KIND"- JUNG, 1933 ____________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ _________________________________________________________ 06JULY05, WHOA, I HAD A BIRTHDAY THAT WAS HEAVY WHEN I TRY TO GRASP IT WITH MY HANDS AND EVEN MORE SO WHEN I TRY TO GRASP IT WITH MY MIND. I REALIZED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF AND SOME THINGS THAT I NEED TO WORK ON, IN ADDITION, THERE ARE SOME OTHERS THAT NEED TO BE WORKED WITH. I AM TRYING TO IGNORE THIS ALOMST INNATE FEELING TO JUST FUCKING [CTRL+ALT+DELETE:END TASK]A FEW PEOPLE I KNOW. I GUESS I AM MOST INTERESTED IN REALLY GETTING TO

My Interests

EDITING... I AM INTERESTED IN PHYSICAL AND MENTAL STIMULATION. I AM AN AUDIOPHILE SO I AM ALWAYS HPPIEST WHEN SURROUNDED BY PLENTY OF NEW MUSIC. I ALSO WRITE A GOOD BIT AS YOU CAN TELL FROM MY ABOUT ME SECTION.MY INTEREST CHANGES AS DO MY FOCUS. IN THE YEAR OF OUR LORD 2007 85% YES THAT MUCH OF MY CIRCLE OF FRIENDS HAS CHANGED. NOT THE ONES OUT OF STATE OR ABROAD BUT THE ONES RIGHT HERE. SURE THE ONES WITH NEW FAMILIES, KIDS, PROSPERITY AND TROUBLES ARE ALWAYS GOING TO DO THIER THING AND TOUCH BASE. I KNOW THAT THE HEART IS THERE AS I MAY NOT BE IN TOUCH AS MUCH AS MY HEARTS WANT. THERE ARE THOSE THAT IF YOU DON'T LIVE ON THEIR STREET OR IN THRIE NECK OF THE WOODS OR CITY- WILL JUST FALL OFF.

I'd like to meet:

***I WANNA MEET THE DEATH OF EMO; JESUS CHRIST; INTELLIGENT LIFE ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN; THE FEMALE HALF OF ME; THE MALE HALF OF ME; MY END IN MY SLEEP; YOU IN CHURCH; YOU ON THE DANCE FLOOR; YOU NOT IN REHAB; A MAN WHO IS SO PURE HE HAS THE RIGHT TO INHIBIT THE PROSPERITY OF OTHERS WHO ARE DIFFERENT, LOVE DIFFERENTLY, SCREW DIFFERENTLY, WORSHIP DIFFERENTLY, DREAM DIFFERENTLY;SCREAM DIFFERENTLY, CRY DIFFERENTLY, AND WHO ABLES HUMAN EXISTENCE DIFFERENTLY.*** ____________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________ ___________________View All Friends | View Blog | Add Comment

***A FEW SPECIAL PEOPLE*** READ THESE!!! ............................................................ .......................................................... I WAS STUCK STARRING AT THIS COUPLE WHILE GRABBING A SMOOTHY AFTER AN EVENING WORKOUT THE OTHER DAY. I NOTICED A WONDERFULL THING. THEY WERE JUST STARRING AT EACH OTHER SILENT AS ONLY BEING CONTENT IN A RELATIONSHIP COULD SAFELY MAKE YOU FEEL. THEY COULDN'T MOVE. THEY MADE ME WISH I WAS STUCK. ............................................................ ..........................................................To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization I can't control another. To let go is not to enable, but allow learning from natural consequences. To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands. To let go is not to try to change or blame another, it's to make the most of myself. To let go is not to care for, but to care about. To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive. To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being. To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies. To let go is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face reality. To let go is not to deny, but to accept. To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them. To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it. To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be. To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.To let go is to fear less and love more Remember: The time to love is short....................................................... ............................................................ ...IF YOU COULD SEE ME NOW... [I WAKE__IN A FLASH I AM SHAKEN AGAIN, THIS TIME BY THE STILLNESS OF SWEAT__I CAN NOT MOVE AND MY SKIN, LIKE THE CANVAS OF A RED DESERT, SPARKLES AND SHIMMERS WITH EVERY ATTEMPT TO MOVE TO, END THIS__STILLNESS__I CAN'T MOVE__AS THE FOREVER THUD OF THE PUMP SHUTTLES BLOOD THROUGH MY VEINS__I CAN'T MOVE FOR IT WOULD DISTURB THE WONDERFUL__THE BELOVED ONE WITH EAR AND CHEEK MY SPARKLING CHEST__FINGERS PRESSED SO PURPOSFULLY PILLOWING MY FLESH I BELIEVE THERE WILL BE PRINTS LIKE CROP CIRCLES OF PASSION AND ADORNMENT__FOR SOMEONE NEEDS ME__SOMEONE SHUT OF THE PHONE, THE CLOCK, THE HOLD FUCKING WORLD- JUST TIME HERE__I CAN'T MOVE BECAUSE CONTENTMENT FINDS ME IN CHAINS AND I SIGH IN THE STILLNESS OF SWEAT....................................................... ..... ............................................................ .......................................................... .BMUNTRICKED AGAIN, I WAS. BY THE WHISTLE OF FALLING RAIN, I WAS. NO LONGER WILL I LISTEN, I WISH HE COULD STOP SPEAKING, I WISH SHE WOULD MOAN QUITE LIKE, I WISH THEY WOULD PRAY OUT LOUD SO CHERUBS ROCK, I WILL WHISTLE OUT-RIGHT, THE RAIN._________ ............................................................ ......................................................... _________________________________________________________

Music:

DANCE ROCK, ELECTRO, INDIE ROCK, DUB, EXPERIMENTAL HIP HOP....U.N.K.L.E. TV ON THE RADIO MUSE TOWERS OF LONDON THE WU RES COMMON HANDFOME FURS VOXTROT JOSE GONZALES KINGS OF LEON MENOMENA NAPALM DEATH SONIC YOUTH MUDVAYNE OUTKAST THE SMITHS THE PIXES GREEN JELLY SASHA BEASTIE BOYS MSTRKRFT SLIPNOT MODESELEKTOR BOOKASHADE EROL ALKAN CHROMEO AMANDA BLANK THE CRIBS AU REVOIR SIMONE THE COOPER TEMPLE CLAUSE KINGS OF LEON AS I LAY DIEING EXPLOSIONS IN THE SKY TORI AMOS THE LIKE CARIBOU RADIOHEAD SKUNK ANANSIE SKIN THOM YORKE ADULT. FISCHERSPOONER BOARDS OF CANADA VITALIC MISS KITTEN DOT ALLISON LEGOWELT ROYKSOPP EDITORS OUTHUD VHS OR BETA MOVING UNITS PROSAICS SUFAN STEVENS SPOON RJD2 CARINA ROUND DEFTONES TEAM SLEEP KENNA FRUIT BATS THE RAPTURE PRESETS THE GLASS !!! THE FAINT AUTOLUX APPARAT BATS FOR LASHES NATALIE WALKET DNTEL JUNIOR BOYS LAURENT GARNIER SWAYZAK SPARTA NINE INCH NAILS BJORK TAPEWORM M.I.A. FIT FOR USE SUPERSYSTEM MOBIUS BAND BLOC PARTY THE ALBUM LEAF ARCADE FIRE INTERPOL SECRET MACHINES HYBRID TOOL GOODOOKS LCD SOUNDSYSTEM INCUBUS SKYE EDWARDS PORTISHEAD SMASHING PUMPKINS NIRVANA JAABAAROID SNOWDEN PLACEBO SNEAKER PIMPS ANDREA PARKER CHRIS CORNER 30 SECONDS TO MARS UNDERWORLD THE FITNESSECT.

Movies:

INDIE FILMS, CULT CLASSICS,FILM NOIR, HORROR AND ACTIONHOUSE OF SAND AND FOG BASKETBALL DIARIES TO KILL A MOCKING BIRD LEON GIA MEMENTO SPRUNG KILL BILL THE TERMINATOR PULP FICTION AMADEUS BOOGIE NIGHTS THE HOUSE OF YES RESERVOIR DOGS TRAINSPOTTING A MAN FOR ALL SEASONS HENRY V MONTY PYTHON AND THE HOLY GRAIL FARGO PLATOON TIGERLAND BIG TROUBLE IN LITTLE CHINA SNATCH SLING BLADE PSYCHO {ALL OF THEM} MAGNOLIA AMERICAN BEAUTY SCHINDLER'S LIST SE7EN DUNE REQUIEM FOR A DREAM DANCER IN THE DARK THE BLAIR WITCH PROJECT APOCALYPSE NOW THE BIG LEBOWSKI AMORES PERROS BEFORE SUNSET MYSTERIOUS SKIN THE GRADUATE PRICK SILENCE OF THE LAMBS THE USUAL SUSPECTS AMERICAN HISTORY X HOTEL RWANDA DONNIE DARKO 300 PI LOST HIGHWAY SIDEWAYS HOUSE OF 1,000 CORPSES THE HILLS HAVE EYES HOSTIL WRONG TURN THE FUGITIVE COLD MOUNTAIN LAYER CAKE GHOST IN THE SHELL MONSTER CRASH CRASH -1996{THE OTHER ONE YOU HAVE NOT HEARD OF} BLACK HAWK DOWN BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN BLOOD DIAMONDS 10,000 CIGARETTES THE BREAKFAST CLUB FAST TIMES AT RIDGEMONT HIGH BREAKIN'AND GOOD PORN.ECT.

Television:

EDITING... TV IS THE MIND KILLER...24 NIPTUCK HBO MSNBC CNN BBC INTERNATIONAL NEWS SHOWTIME FUSE 'CAUSE MTV AND 2 IS SO 90'S COMEDY CENTRAL AT TIMES...

Books:

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Heroes:

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FROM MY BABY...

FROM MY BABY... Smooth as...a precious baby brothertap dancin in a porcelain tubMr. BUBBLE sudspalms filled w/ cocoa butter lotionSmooth as...michael jordanin the middle of his fifthairborne freeze fr...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Thu, 04 Oct 2007 01:51:00 PST

VOTE IN '08

DON'T VOTE IF YOU DON'T HAVE SENSITIVITY TO SENSITIVE ISSUES THAT ARE GOING TO FACE OUR GRAND CHILDREN BECAUSE OF THE LAST 8 YEARS. VOTE IF YOU KNOW THE ISSUES! DON'T VOTE WHO YOU ARE MARRIED TO, YOUR...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 04:19:00 PST

IF YOU COULD SEE ME NOW...

[I WAKE__IN A FLASH I AM SHAKEN AGAIN, THIS TIME BY THE STILLNESS OF SWEAT__I CAN NOT MOVE AND MY SKIN, LIKE THE CANVAS OF A RED DESERT, SPARKLES AND SHIMMERS WITH EVERY ATTEMPT TO MOVE TO, END THIS__...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 07:44:00 PST

SHE'S GONE..

  :' [, NO ONE WILL MISS HER THEY WAY I WILL. NO ONE LOVED HER THE WAY I DID. "I KNOW EVERYBODY HERE WANTS YOU- I KNOW EVERBODY HERE THINKS THEY NEED YOU- I'LL BE WAITING RIGHT HERE JUST TO SHOW ...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Thu, 31 May 2007 09:10:00 PST

MY BEST FRIEND SENT ME THIS TODAY BECAUSE I NEEDED IT...I HOPE SOMEONE SPECIAL READS THIS TOO.

To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization I can't control another. To let go is not to enable, but allow...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Mon, 14 May 2007 09:02:00 PST

CHATTER BOXES

YOU CANONLYSPEAKOF CREATIVITYFOR SOLONGWITHOUT A CREATIONTOJUSTIFYTHECHATTER. ...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Mon, 28 Aug 2006 09:42:00 PST

.BMUN

 TRICKED AGAIN, I WAS BY THE WHISTLE OF FALLING RAIN, I WAS         &nb sp;    NO LONGER WILL I LISTEN, I WISH HE COULD STOP SPEAKI...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Thu, 15 Dec 2005 07:54:00 PST

THEY COULDN'T MOVE.

I WAS STUCK STARRING AT THIS COUPLE WHILE GRABBING A SMOOTHY AFTER AN EVENING WORKOUT THE OTHER DAY. I NOTICED A WONDERFULL THING. THEY WERE JUST STARRING AT EACH OTHER SILENT AS ONLY BEING CO...
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Sun, 21 Aug 2005 07:23:00 PST

[THE LAST THREE TIMES]

I WILL NOT DO THIS WEEKEND AGAIN. I WILL NOT DO THIS WEEKEND AGAIN. I WILL NOT DO THIS WEEKEND AGAIN AGAIN
Posted by C/-L M/-KINS© on Sun, 14 Aug 2005 02:19:00 PST

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[THIS IS A DAY I CAN SMELL A WASHING IN A COLD STEEL DRUM AGAIN I USED TO SIT SO LOW LIKE DROWNING I TRADE WATER BUT NOW I CAN'T STAND I LOST MY WAY AND I AM DIRTY I WISH I'D NEVER BEGAN TO UND...
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