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AutomaTom

fucking loins

About Me

"Imperious, choleric, irascible, extreme in everything, with a dissolute imagination the like of which has never been seen, atheistic to the point of fanaticism, there you have me in a nutshell.... Kill me again or take me as I am, for I shall not change."--Marquis de Sade........................................................ ............................................................ ......................................................... "It could be 'true' that Socialism is 'the bastard child of Marxist Communism'--the incestuous, self-binding, patricidal bastard-King Oedipus, where inbred offspring destroy each other in an impotent battle over the throne--but then who wouldn't seek to uncouple the relationship, to interfere with or break the discontinuous chain?"///////////////////////////////////////////////////// //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// /////////////////////////////////////////////////////////"Wh at is death? Nothing but a certain aspect of facticity and of being-for-others--i.e., nothing other than the given. It is absurd that we are born; it is absurd that we die. On the other hand, this absurdity is presented as the permanent alienation of my being-possibility which is no longer my possibility but that of the Other. It is therefore and external and factual limit of my subjectivity!"--Jean-Paul Sartre!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "The famous hypothesis put forward by the psychiatrist G. de Clerambault seems well founded: delirium, which is by nature global and systemic, is a secondary phenomenon, a consequence of partial and local automatistic phenomena. Delirium is in fact characteristic of the recording that is made of the process of production of the desiring-machines; and though there are syntheses and disorders (affections) that are peculiar to this recording process, as we see in paranoia and even in paranoid forms of schizophrenia, it does not constitute an autonomous sphere, for it depends on the functioning and the breakdowns of desiring-machines. Nonetheless Clerambault used the term '(mental) automatism' to designate only athematic phenomena--echolalia, the uttering of odd sounds, or sudden irrational outbursts--which he attributed to the mechanical effects of infections or intoxications. Moreover, he expalined a large part of delirium in turn as an effect of automatism; as for the rest of it, the 'personal' part, in his view it was of the nature of a reaction and had to do with 'character,' the manifestations of which might well precede the automatism (as in the paranoiac character, for instance)." Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari

My Interests

I basically have no life outside of school...it's pretty sad. I like literature, critical theory (I don't know much, but I'm learning), philosophy (existentialism in particular). My main interest is psychoanalytic theory and its intersection with literature and culture. I think Freud is too often dismissed these days, especially in the field of psychology--this needs to be reconsidered. Can I be more broad? Surrealism, Dadaism, literary theory (postmodernism, poststructuralism, deconstruction), reading, writing, used bookstores, used sex toy stores, parapraxis, corny philosophy t-shirts, primal scenes, being-in-myself-for-myself, Interzone Inc, being paranoia-critical, third wave feminism, howling for Carl Solomon, strange art, practicing philosophy in the bedroom, gender/queer theory, sarcasm, the Other, mugwumps, object relations theory, Oedipal complexity, sf0.org, veganism, raw food, all types of ill shit...

I'd like to meet:

My duplicate, My brother

Music:

Rock, Rap, Hip Hop, Jazz, Classical, Electronic, even a little Bluegrass...Notorious BIG, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Immortal Technique, Dead Prez, Prodigy, Grateful Dead, Tupac, Radiohead, Decemberists, The Strokes, Interpol, Dr. Dre, Mozart, Beethoven, Sublime, Bob Marley, Old Crow Medicine Show, Fugees...

Movies:

Clockwork Orange, Dr. Zhivago, Naked Lunch, Jackie Brown, Requiem for a Dream, Borat, Casino, Goodfellas, Pulp Fiction, Bronx Tale, Blue Velvet, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Trainspotting...

Television:

Not that I believe personality can be quantified but...
Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||| 62%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Antisocial |||||||||||||| 58%
Borderline |||||||||||||||| 62%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 54%
Narcissistic |||||| 30%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 42%
Dependent |||||||||||||| 58%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 54% Take Free Personality Disorder Test
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Freudian Inventory Results
Oral (56%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own.
Anal (63%) you appear to be overly self controlled, organized, and possibly subservient to authority, this effectively narrows your exposure to a wider set of options and ideas lowering the odds that you will make the best decisions in life.
Phallic (46%) you appear to have a good balance of sexual awareness and sexual composure.
Latency (66%) you appear to be afraid or averse to present or future real world responsibilities, this will only make your inevitable transition more difficult, so learn to deal with the real world.
Genital (66%) you appear to have a progressive and openminded outlook on life unbeholden to regressive forces like traditional authority and convention.
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 56%
Stability |||||| 23%
Orderliness |||||||||||||| 56%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 43%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Mystical |||||||||| 36%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Materialism |||||| 30%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 43%
Adventurousness |||||| 23%
Work ethic |||||||||||||| 56%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 70%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56%
Romantic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 43%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth || 10%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63%
Change averse |||||||||||| 50%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Peter pan complex |||||||||| 36%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical Fitness |||||| 24%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 43%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 63% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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Books:

Burroughs, Dostoevsky, Kafka, Heidegger, Sartre, Camus, Ginsberg, Joyce, Genet, Gide, Freud, Lacan, Kierkegaard, Goethe, Shakespeare, Sophocles, Sade, Rimbaud, Baudelaire, Tolstoy, Nietzsche, Voltaire, Celine, Ovid, Kristeva, Deleuze, Guattari, Derrida...

Heroes:

"riverrun, past Eve and Adam's, from swerve of shore to bend of bay, brings us by a commodius vicus of recirculation back to Howth Castle and Environs."

My Blog

things i don't need

Zoloftempty spacessalt deposits on my pillowlorazepamclonazepamdiphendyramineinsomniadaytime televisionprime time televisionlate night televisiontwilight infomercialsdead timea bed made for two bodies...
Posted by AutomaTom on Thu, 07 Jun 2007 09:33:00 PST

more things i need

ordersecurityvitamin Bhugsreassuranceskin that healsmy mother my mother my motherZoloftanother body in my beda face to see as i wakeyour approvalmy approvaloccupationdirectiona day without tearsa nigh...
Posted by AutomaTom on Sat, 02 Jun 2007 01:16:00 PST

anxiety

Personality factors that contribute to anxiety:-high level of imagination or creativity-rigid thinking-excessive need for approval-extremely high expectations of self-perfectionism-excessive need to b...
Posted by AutomaTom on Wed, 30 May 2007 05:11:00 PST

things i need

soapproductivitysmall notebookinspirationindividualitystapleranswersscrub brushthings to fill gapsanother bookshelfher lovecertaintysanitysleepanother glass of red winea walk in a parka shoulder to cr...
Posted by AutomaTom on Sun, 20 May 2007 10:44:00 PST

signified?

I'm sitting in my literary theory class this morning, listening to a lecture on post-structuralist/post-modernist conceptions of signification--basically, all objects in the world are texts that can b...
Posted by AutomaTom on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 09:43:00 PST

old man fight

Have you ever randomly met someone who conveniently tells you exactly what you need to hear?  I was sitting at an outdoor cafe the other day when a man (let's call him David) ...
Posted by AutomaTom on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 12:35:00 PST

anxiety dream

Dream: I'm a foreign exchange student in an unknown country.  I'm staying with a host family--a mother, father, and their teenage daughter--and another exchange student from an African country.&n...
Posted by AutomaTom on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 08:22:00 PST

mommy dream

Dream:I'm at my father's house in NY.  My father's good friend Tony shows up to the house with a shotgun and is very angry.  I run inside the house with my dad and brother and call the polic...
Posted by AutomaTom on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 07:15:00 PST

is this it? yes, it is

Damn I decided to do this whole Myspace thing because I've been feeling less than creative lately...either that or I'm just distracting myself again.   I woke up in a shitty mood today, whic...
Posted by AutomaTom on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 08:46:00 PST