America, i have given you all and now i am nothing

"it was easy to become a better human. First, I spoke in a monotone. I could not be excited and could not be upset. I was a visitor from elsewhere, Russia maybe, and found everything amusing, intersting, but only slightly and even then, solely from an anthropogical standpoint. I was not sullen; i was predictable. I walked at a normal human pace. I rode my bicycle at an optimum speed, a practical speed, without standing up on the pedals, because to do so would imply urgency. At school events i would clap when others would clap but i would not cheer or yell. My phone calls were brief and to the point. I set the receiver down gently; i walked the stairs not quickly, not slowly; I brushed my teeth for fifteen minutes because that was what my dentist, who i admit now was not sane, suggested; I kept my head level because tilting seemed to imply too much interest; i did not pass gas or pick my nose; i washed myself thoroughly in the morning and at night. I thought of the least emotional walk i could engineer, and decided that it required minimal arm movement and long even strides" -Dave Eggersme: they refused jesus too him: you ain't him.... width="425" height="350" ..http://www.flickr.com/photos/7449705@N02/