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Pursue, keep up with, circle round and round your life as a dog does his masters chaise. Do what you love. Know your own bone. Gnaw at it, bury it, unearth it , and gnaw it still. Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life so. aim above morality. be not simply good- be good for something.-all fables indeed have their morals, but the innocent enjoy the story. let nothing come betewen you and the light... Thoreau. What can i say? im a rare case, a hopeless romantic, a trucker in heels. Six foot two two hundred twenty five pounds, and then i wake up. or someone politely reminds me that im five foot two and not an ultimate fighter...Im easily hurt but not easily fooled. Kind but not stupid, caring, not blind. I give everyone a fair chance but once you cross me watch it. My family is my life and hope to have a big one someday when only i meet my match...Writing is my passion, passion is my pain. Anything in excess and im in. Learning restraint and finding the middle path is something i strive to master...but alas im young in my journey....Telling me im wrong will never stop me from making my own mistakes, and many a mistake i have made. Ive learned in my old age that true connection is a rare gift that one must risk to find no matter what the outcome may be... Sometimes I dream while the other people dance. Sometimes I scream when it shoud be a whisper. Sometimes I howl when it should be a whimper. I usually laugh at the most inappropriate moments and like it... I know somewhere there is someone who gets it and ill run through it all till I find them. "THOSE WITH THOUGHTS OF BLISS DENIED MAKE HAVOC OF THEIR LIFE AND POWERS, LOST IN SOLITARY PRIDE FOR ALL THAT NEVER SHALL BE OURS, BECAUSE WE WILL NOT WORK AND WAIT IN LOVING PATIENCE FOR OUR FATE..." ...where do i begin. Life is an anomalie. A series of randon events, contingent upon other random events and every event prior, causes that beget effects, that beget causes and so on since the dawn of time.... I long to see the world, to watch the sun rise and set above the ocean, to paint , to write, to dream, to create, to explore...for as long as i can remember i've longed to understand what it is that moves me, what makes my blood pulse my heart beat. What draws me to the gaze of a perfect stranger, what it means to be halfway around the world in a place you've never seen and know somehow for certain you have been there before, its familiarity is no coincidence...What it is that connects me to another, the undeniable power that love has to completely enliven or completely destroy my entire being, and believe me it has...What it is that allows me to continue to seek no matter what it is i find or how painful it may be, but the un mistakable joy and fear and curiosity thet lie within the search...I long to heal the world. to ease pain and suffering but know that i must first unlock the enigma that is me. Life is not black or white, its black and white. Two halves of one whole, polar opposites joined by God in perfect union. I believe in shades of grey, I believe that the quest for balance is the biggest challenge to master in life. I believe in the beauty even when its not pretty...and how one must seek to find it always especially in those un deniable moments when all most certainly seems lost. In one life time I have had many, been many, seen many, known many, loved many, lost many, hurt many, healed many, and held many...been loved hated dispised admired betrayed beloved inspired dissappointed elated and full and thats in the span of a second. I've been known to change in an instant but thats the beauty of me, till the day that i die i will never stop searching no matter how many times it may hurt me, or how many times it may lose me...there is always a way to get back to what matters. I'ts the little things that make life what it is. The unavoidable knowledge that every moment brings the possability to fully embrace what ever it is that is....a mystery. One random event, contingent upon another random event with an infinite number of possible outcomes and thats what makes life worth living...