♣Jack of clubs♣

-Mah Poems -

-The Mirror Of My Thoughts-
The world I love and have always known has shattered down around me.
And as each broken shard of life falls down, my mistakes all flash before me.
I watch the pieces fall, in horror, and know that nothing I do,
Can ever fix these pieces that are about my feet all strewn.
I let the pieces lie there a while, hoping that I could fix them.
I tried to piece them back together, I couldn't bear to forget them.
Now I've been cut by the pieces I've left, trying to tip-toe around
It's time to pick the pieces up and clear them from my ground.
The pieces I've lost, I've thrown away, nothing can be done-
To fit those pieces back in the frame, and create a single one.
But the frame still hangs upon my wall waiting for something new,
To fill it's empty shell with pieces and create my memories anew.
When I look into the frame, and see no sound reflection,
I'll find the courage to see it there, my own special expectation.
I'll see reflected all I love, and everything I cherish,
And each day when I look at it, the bad memories will parish.
And so I see it every day, all the things I've brought,
the things I love and keep forever, in the mirror of my thoughts.

-Myspace Whores- There you sit, alone and sad...
And what has happened? What's so bad?
Nothings wrong, you're perfectly fine -
But somehow still you must define
Every terror the world has known.
And create these problems of your own.
And now you think it's in the "scene",
To make your life a tragedy seem.
To tell of cutting yourself and bleeding
As blood runs you feel it leaving -
And then repeating all the sorrows,
Of lost loves and a worse tomorrow.
Things are bad, they'll only get worse,
Until you ride inside your hearse,
To the final place you'll ever lay.
And then there silently you'll pray.
That no one finds you in your box,
And that the keys to all your locks,
Are away and out, gone forever,
So you can sit there to endeavor.
To hold on to your painful thoughts.
And sit there in your little box.
Just like you wanted, and now you've got -
And now you've truly been left to rot…
But wait, what's this?
Not what you wanted?
Well too late darling, your flesh is rotted
Now you can sit, in your darkness,
And be the queen of all your sadness.
No one wants it, no one cares,
Just like you wanted, there's no one there.
So sit there in your little box,
And as your flesh begins to rot,
Feel the worms crawl through your skin,
And maybe then darling,
you'll learn to grin.
Grin at all that ever hurt you,
Anything anyone would do,
And finally realize that all along,
It was you - you that were wrong.
As you sat in your little box,
Hiding the keys to all the locks.
You should've taken the chance you had,
To make things good, and throw out the bad.
Too late now, you can't escape
Your doom, your fate, your resting place.
Good night forever, rest in peace.
One last wish, for you from me-
As you sit there every night,
Just remember -
your bedbugs bite.

Love Poem #1 I feel your lips come close to mine,
is it real, or a dream devine?
You can't be here, you can't be real...
and yet I know it's your touch I feel.
Like a butterfly's wings caressing the air,
you touch my face, and stroke my hair.
Your touch is loving, your touch is soft -
and all my troubles disappear from thought.
The world is perfect, so long as you're in it.
The sky so blue, and the birds that are in it -
they fly without troubles, and I do too,
so long as I know I can be with you.

Love Poem #2-Today I observed a diamond pure,
And thought of a special person.
I looked into the shimmering gem,
And my heartache began to worsen.
How rare to find this diamond pure,
And why it came to me?
I cant imagine the chances of her
Being with someone like me.
Like the diamond I beheld,
Which so many men would treasure
I took her hand in mine,
And valued that beyond any measure.
Diamonds are rare, as men know,
And valued above many things.
My dearest that it close to me,
Only the highest happiness brings.
My dear to me is only one, there isnt any other -
When men hold diamonds and greed in their hearts,
In my heart I'll hold my lover.
In the sky I saw a star,
It fell from somewhere very far.
In that moment of burning light,
My bebe's face came to my sight.
I saw her in my heart tonight,
She smiled at me warmly.
I'll miss her when I sleep tonight
And dream about her smiling.
We'll run through fields of golden grass;
then we'll talk as time we pass.
We'll lay together in the sun,
and think about the things we've done.
We'll lay in silence, words not needed
to express our love, and hope - we feel it.
As we look up at the clouds we see,
our future together - it makes us happy.

Love Poem #3-I'd give my life and all my possessions,
To be just for a day, someone you mention.
Someone you talk to about how you feel,
Someone who shows you that life is real,
That life is worth living, so long as I'm here,
That all your troubles can just disappear.
So long as you love me, and I love you too,
There isn't anything that we cannot do.
I'd give every day, and each moonlit night,
To have you near me, and within my sight.
So I can enjoy your presence, your beauty and grace,
so I can see every smile on your little face.
The world can stop spinning, the sky can fall down,
None of it matters, so long as you're 'round.
I'd give anything, to be with you
Forever and always, I'll always love you.

-What I ♥-

-I ♥ holding hands
-I ♥ movies
-I ♥ sunsets
-I ♥ running through sprinklers in the middle of winter
-I ♥ running through sprinklers any time
-I ♥ just laying around watching the clouds
-I ♥ music
-I ♥ a girl with soft hair because
-I ♥ playing with hair
-I ♥ walking and talking
-I ♥ snuggling up close to a scary movie
-I ♥ kisses
-I ♥ eye contact with meaning
-I ♥ running
-I ♥ hiking
-I ♥ exploring
-I ♥ driving late at night
-I ♥ headlights in the rain
-I ♥ running in the rain
-I ♥ kissing in the rain like nothing else matters (though I never have)
-I ♥ Shasta Cream Soda
-I ♥ hazel eyes
-I ♥ hugging while wearing a jacket... so soft
-I ♥ late nights in public places
-I ♥ Starcraft!
-I ♥ just talking sometimes
-I ♥ compliments
-I ♥ -
-I ♥ -
-I ♥ my phone
-I ♥ -
-I ♥ starry, cloudless, moonless nights
-I ♥ love songs
-I ♥ Mah Jimmy!!!
-I ♥ mahself
-I ♥ paper
-I ♥ my computers (all 12)
-I ♥ reading random facts about somoene I care about
-I ♥ telling dramatic stories
-I ♥ cotton balls
-I ♥ my Xbox, Game Cube, Nintendo 64, and Play Station
-I ♥ girls

-I ♥ fishies
-I ♥ cats
-I ♥ dogs
-I ♥ electricity
-I ♥ fire!
-I ♥ memories
-I ♥ mah bed
-I ♥ -
-I ♥ my movie collection
-I ♥ my TV
-I ♥ my ability to walk
-I ♥ my addictions
-I ♥ my flaws
-I ♥ -
-I ♥ My sis! She's been my best friend all my life... but she's leaving mid-October!
-I ♥ my friends (but they're leaving January!)

-Mah Riddles-
#1
I reach for the sky,
Looking up overhead,
Reaching still,
Even when I am dead.

#2
You see my face,
And know my name.
Four names I have,
A playing game.

#3
Fearless steed, strong and steady.
Standing still, at the ready.
When my work is up and done,
I prepare for another run.

#4
In the dark I make my flight,
Flying on ‘till dawns first light.
I have no bones, my blood an illusion,
In ancient times, a thing of confusion.
I ride the waters, a ghostly white picture,
What am I? Can you figure?

#5
I am so fragile, you say my name,
And “I am broken” will I proclaim.

#6
Flame and smoke, a ringing blast.
Released only once, lightening fast.

#7
I am always hungry, I must always eat.
I am never thirsty, this would be my defeat.

#8
Pure as diamonds, shining gold.
Brave and noble, freezing cold.
Black as night, shining light.
Full of love, or full of spite?

#9 (my fave)
I have no eyes with which to see,
Seeing only what sees me.
Without ears I listen close,
Hearing things that none do know.
I ask you questions, deep and true.
For some many, for many few.
I question belief in anything,
Until your heart an answer brings.