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Blonde Assassin

We are.. perfect when we lie....

About Me

25, living in San Antonio TX, ex- squatter turned-mom to a gorgeous 8 month old baby girl Phoenix and her wild but adorable brother Devon (3), love art, music, poetry, reading, walking, movies, punk rock, etc. Currently staying with friends and trying to get my shit together after a long hiatus ;)

My Interests

Movies, music, singing, writing, reading, art museums, parks, street photography, travelling, dreaming of seeing places i have yet to visit, the beach, etc.

I'd like to meet:

Artists, poets, people I can learn from, intellectuals, other moms, other single parents, and anyone else who peaks my interest.

Music:

Against Me!, Lower Class Brats, Depeche Mode, Morrissey, Tori Amos, Billie Holiday, Louie Armstrong, Rancid, Taking Back Sunday, Operation Ivy, Stray Cats, Billy Idol, old school punk, the Oppressed, other stuff

Movies:

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, suburbia (the old one), slc punk, jerry maguire, the wedding singer, riding in cars with boys, requiem for a dream, basquiat

Television:

TV keeps the masses complacent. :p although, i must confess, im too poor for cable anyway. ;)

Books:

mostly anything by Kerouac, "Collected Poems of Anne Sexton", Dostoevsky's " Notes From Underground", "Alice in Wonderland", "The Portrait of Dorian Gray" by Oscar Wilde, Ginsberg's poetry, Sylvia Plath's poetry (and "The Bell Jar" is ok too), "Great Expectations", true crime (especially Ann Rule), mystery and suspense novels, Anais Nin's "Cities of the Interior", anything by Toni Morrison , Margaret Atwood

Heroes:

Jack Kerouac, Anne Sexton, Frida Kahlo, Basquiat, Ani Difranco, Tori Amos, and others who either portray or voice the simple words that i can never say

My Blog

life is so fucking strange....

Life is ... interesting, to say the least.  Bah.  Over the past three weeks Ive lost everything only to gain experience, strength, and the life that I thought I had left behind.  I lost...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Wed, 07 Dec 2005 12:44:00 PST

sometimes i think my eyes dont make enough tears...

today was an all time low for me.. i guess it signifies an end to things, my life for the past year or so, and a beginning of sorts... i lost the one i loved today... he was cheating on me and he sti...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

not a pretty girl, but one who understands....

BORED tonight.. the one thing about being a mom is that you have no life.. unless you have family or a babysitter.. arrgh! Its not fair. Talked to my (ex)? and he acted as if it was normal that ...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

the more you ignore me...

what a rant i could go off on at this very moment.. my daughter's father is a useless prick. He cares more about getting stoned than even holding her for god's sake... he didnt pay shit and lived off...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

One year later....

Well, its been officially a year since i really posted on this thing (other than that stupid last entry which I shuddered to read ;) I know its been a year because once again this is Fiesta week. I...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

new news n stuff

wow, this hasnt been updated in forever.  lol!  so much has happened...   my son is two, im pregnant with my second baby, and im currently a student in college, though i probably w...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Fiesta. Forever

ugh why do i have that song in my head?? oh, it must be because the wonderful San Antonio springtime draw, Fiesta, is over today. I went on Friday, it was great, Will and I bought beer and walked th...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Complications

Ugh.. im so fucking tired. I seem to always be tired! things are okay right now i guess, im just overwhelmed by having SO much to do and either no transportation or no time in which to do it in. I ...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Tired.. So Tired....

Wow. Life has been so exhausting lately! Its been a good sort of exhaustion, with routine and spontaneity thrown in together into a melting pot of fast-paced erosion. I am so exhausted from a lack ...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

On Selfishness and Ignorance

So. Im single again.. whoopee. heh. I anticipated it, so im not freaking out... but ah well. Men are just con artist bastards that never know what they want. Wait, not men, boys. Im through with...
Posted by Blonde Assassin on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST