Take a look into your fucking heart. You'll see me.
I'm a loc'd out gangsta set trippin' banger ha ha!!
i'm somewhat sensitive, and i hide it for the fear of getting stepped on one more time. it seems that when i show a part of myself that is the least bit vulnerable someone takes advantage of me. one of them steps on me. they mistake kindness for weakness, but i know the difference. i've been the brunt of their weakness for years and strength is something i know a bit about because i had to be strong to keep myself alive. i know myself very well now and i don't trust people, i know them too well. i try to find that special person, someone i can be with, someone i can touch, someone i can talk to, someone i won't feel so strange around. and i found that they don't really exist. i feel closer to people on movie screens. hopefully i've found that special person with christopher james.
?There is a lot to know about myself. I am a unique individual. Different from all others, no better no worse. I look at life as an opportunity and a luxury. I take all situations and incidents good or bad and make them the best if possible. I love to love. I love to hate. I do have hate for things and certain characteristics in people. But I really don't hate people. I'm a happy person. Always smiling, always looking at the great in people and seeing their true selves. I take a deep look into everyone and I don't judge. I in fact hate it. I think you should get to know a person for who they really are and not make assumptions about them. I think if you're going to judge someone you yourself should be perfect. No ones perfect. I love my family and friends, without them I would be nothing at all.
*i have had many special people in my life. but being stepped on is one of the main things that has always ruined my relationships with people. i'm too kind at times and very trusting. fuck everyone who has ever hurt me or the people i love.
There's Chris James my husband hes way better than yours and he's hot. My baby. I love him we have been together for over a year. He gave me life again after losing people I loved and moving out of my home state. I was an empty void. I love you more today then yesterday but not as much as I will tomorrow.
October 2, 2005
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August 28, 2006
*Mr. Alex Fuckin Marquez. i can honestly say you are one of the best people i have ever met in my life. You have always been there for me no matter what. I really appreciate the relationship between us. It's like no others. I consider myself the luckiest person just to be called your friend. I love you so much! You Take care of Carmen, you guys belong together!
*Adriana you're too cute and I love you and everything about you. You're always going to be in my heart and family! You make me laugh and smile. But I miss you and all the old times we used to have in Salida!!! gaaah those were Great! I love you!
**My Brother, yes I consider him one of my best friends. he is great my Kevo. Wow we've gone from taking baths together to beating the hell out of each other. From making forts in our rooms a week before Christmas to becoming the friends we are now. I love you with all my heart and would die for you. He has gotten me out of situations that could have gotten really bad, and have protected me from all those assholes that tried shit with me. I love you! **My parents, they're great people. They support me no matter what I do. If they hate it or not their right by my side and I love them to death. I love my life.
-Dr.St3V3! Ohhh the raddist hXc fucker i know! You were my first and forever favorite guy i met in so cal. you're a great person with such an awesome heart. Thank you for everything you've done and do for me.I love you Stevie! We've had some good times and ill come visit you for sure. You and Heather are adorable together. I love her too!
-I don't like two faced people. Liars or hypocrites. I really don't. I am an honest person, with strong beliefs, principals and politics. Ill never change anything about myself or my opinions for anyone. ill never act one way with someone and another way with someone else. I think its lame to put on a show. Ive got no one to impress. I'm myself and if you don't like me honestly I don't care. I have made some great decisions in my life and I also have made some horrible ones. But I will never regret any of them. I don't believe in regret. I don't see why you would hate or punish yourself over some teaching mistakes and great experiences. Bad or good you made the decision in the first place so live with it.
-I love tattoos. I have way more than seven, not many but ill have more. The feeling is great!
I have fifteen piercings. I did take out my plugs for work but ill re-stretch them again. I plan to get a few more pairing's.
-I love oldies, 50's 60's and 70's. The best times. I love the movies music scene and the general life of the decades.
-I am not Straight Edge. I do what I want when I want, I don't label myself or put myself in a stereotype just to show people I'm a good person. But I don't think its bad to be sXe either I think anyone doing what they believe and feel is right for them then great for them. Just don't preach to me and try to get me to become Straight Edge. Like I said I wont change for anyone or anything. So back the fuck off.
-I don't like it when people call me "scene" because I'm not. I'm nothing. Just me. Love me.
-I can honestly say i hate President Bush.
