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kwaidan

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About Me

What about me.....


creature for awhileive always said golf was gaythis one actually connected.is there a dick sr.?

Food for Thoughts.-=z

I am the fly on the wall constently seeing, observing. I know you, i know everything about you what pornos you like to wack off to. i know what you had for breakfast I know cause i took a huge dump on it. but still you wont know that i exhist. in twenty four hours ill be gone and ill know everything about you but you wont know that ill be dead. but thats life. the next shift will take over. another dump another day another fly with a different say another domino dropped in your way. one day youll feel my effect but still you wont know, just a twist of fate just another bad breakfast. fuck it, fuck you, it doesnt matter in a day ill be gone and in a hundred years no one will care about you.
we are haunted by fears unseen. we hide in details, ensureing we miss the big picture. faster we run into the arms of oblivion, seeking more and more distractions. we hold on and stagnate leaving trails of regret and sorrow. deeper into the box we retreat finding solice within the third dimension. drowning slowly choking on maddness falling further into the blue. i say fuck it. i say let go. the wheels are in motion turning events into reality. i say push it quicken the pace faster to our salvation or exploding burning to our doom.
Its so hard to see the insignificant with the world constantly pitching and rolling. Especially when we are the insignificant.
What do you want? I cant think of an easier question and yet how many of us hesitate looking for an answer. Even those with no hesitation dont know. for how do you define happiness or love even money is just a means for an end. questions Questions questions yet no answers to be found.
Does anyone else feel that, for some reason our time here is almost at an end?
a strange feeling it is, one of paranoia, fear and loathing, and empty sorrow. a mixture of all those dark and dank feelings kept hidden from the waking world. Its as if we are stuck in some recipricating virtual relm doomed to repeat an infinite loop of peaks and depressions. the feeling is one of bitter realization
A realization that all things must adapt and ultimetly change in order to survive.
So,... do we change? or do we stagnate? Allowing the parasites to congregate and ripen. Perhaps we should look to the past to Create a wider scoope so that we may look into the present with larger eyes. able to see things that were to close and to blurry.
Forever changing,... our view.

My Interests

Reading, writing, playing music, creating music, in depth conversations about anything and everything. drinking to much smoking to much video games and kick ass shows.

I'd like to meet:

a leg of lamb, a jug of wine and thoust beside me. whistling in the dark."

all who teach and all who learn.

what is... cannot be, unless it can first be conceived

in the morning i awoke, mind trip secrets dreams involke. knowledgeable peers disapear, day sceens dissapate scattered dreams make believe thinks daylight stings.chinese proverb "you cannot staighten a snake by pulling it through a bamboo pole" the same goes for politicians.knock knock. whos there? existentialism. existentialism who? a fish. my brain on drugs

Music:

Deftones, 311, tool, Robert Johnson, the Doors, Stones, Estero, Phillis dillon, the ethiopians, Alton ellis, The gladiators, Bob marley, Go jimmiy go, Okla the moc, Bad brains, the Cure, Rancid, NOFX, Drop kick murphys, old megadeth and metallica, old korn, Hepcat, pretty much any trojan box set, Ministry, Good Enough... (sometimes), the Pillows, Pennywise, sublime (i guess), Bad religion, Chris murray, Fever boner, Tantra monsters, Down by law, Face to face, the Vandals, Motley crue, Guns n' fukin roses (untill axel got all weird and shit), Skid row, the gaylads, the Gaylettes, Nirvana, Pearl jam (only the first two albums), the Pixies, Bjork (sometimes), Pharcyde, Thin lizzy, Led zepplin, Motorhead, (for some reason) Norah jones, Billie Holiday, Elvis (before he got big), the Stray cats, Brian Setzer, Social Destortion, Mike ness, Code 8, royal crown revue, Primus, Jimi Hendrix, B.B. King, B.B. Shawn (I went to high school with that guy I wonder if he still remembers muhamed), Puya, Ken Booth, and a whole shit load more.

Movies:

Fear and lothing in las vegas, Pulp fiction, the usual suspects, LA confidential, most films by akira kurosawa, Fist of legend, taichi master, any bruce lee movie, sleepy hollow, night of the creeps, a life less ordinary, true romance, country man, rockers, dazed and confused, half baked, lost highway, swingers, old school and road trip (I got the double pack), the creep show, cats eye (i think thats the title), rounders, the doors the movie, spinal tap, the patriot, brave heart, hell raiser, nightmare on elm st. the first one only (oh and freddy vs jason i never laughed so hard in my life i loved it), toy story 1 and 2, cowboy bebob the movie, vampire hunter d 1 and 2, ghost in the shell (the story kinda dragged on but the art was b e a utiful), Akira (of course), saving private ryan, hamberger hill, full metal jacket, menace 2 society and boyz in the hood, nosferatu (it kinda was boring but it got interesting), the long walk home (i had to see it with my aunt but i ended up liking it), the last emperor, almost all jackie chan movies, from hell, 12 monkeys, well pretty much any movie that doesnt suck.

Television:

the Simpsons, Futurama, Family guy, furi kuri, actually most of the adult swim line up. the discover channel, the learning channel, A&E, and the history channel actual anything thats nota reality show (i hate reality. i like abstract). the chappelle show, well thats pretty much it, tv kinda suxs.

Books:

chuk palanuik, steven king, michael crichton, frederick nietzsche, socrates, plato, anne rice, eric van lustbader, j.r.r. tolkien, j.d. salinger, shel silverstien, dr. sues, sun tszu, miyamoto musashi, brian greene, kurt vonnegut, bruce lee, poe, machio kaku, mian mian, jack kerouac, susan kay, bill waterson, and many more just cant think right now

Heroes:

all those who gave with out end who loved with out boundry who wanted nothing and received nothing, those who did this all in anonymity. and sidartha.

My Blog

preta

letters from hell i arrive in absolute darkness. i see nothing. i feel nothing. i am nothing, yet i exist. why is this? what has conspired against me. i am so hungry, so empty i start to ache. i feel ...
Posted by kwaidan on Thu, 15 May 2008 04:04:00 PST

how i discribed myself on a dating website

My Discription I awake each morning with green stardust caked over my eyes i shake it off into a glass bowl, light it and blow prism smoke rings into the void as butter flys rape tree huggers and v ga...
Posted by kwaidan on Tue, 08 Jan 2008 01:43:00 PST

(O_O) ^l^^

Preta: the hungry Prologue  the fluorescent light flickered as he walked shivering down the empty hallway. he could only barely make out what he thought was a couch along the wall.a soft cold bre...
Posted by kwaidan on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 06:08:00 PST

!ii!i! <^\^>

Visions of a Dream my day started out like everyday of my life well as far as i can remember. with a reluctant yawn uncertain yet willing. day dreaming somewhere and sleeping miles away. cursing over ...
Posted by kwaidan on Thu, 15 Nov 2007 07:36:00 PST

(-*-) lllll

Views from Mt. Hozomeen  From the mount I look down upon the world, I see so many dark and beautiful things. Red things with butter fly wings breathing death yet consummating the land seeding it ...
Posted by kwaidan on Sat, 03 Nov 2007 04:07:00 PST

ert. qwack

the earth trembled as the sun beganit was unbearably hot down went my fanno longer safe i feel back asleep if i were to die then in dreams i shall. I awoke alive to my disapointment same o'le self bu...
Posted by kwaidan on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 09:33:00 PST

shit

and the lord said "be as you are, become as you will. fret not and be merry." as tears of blood streamed down his side. pooling at his feet. he started in motion leaving a trail of red prints for me t...
Posted by kwaidan on Sun, 06 May 2007 07:50:00 PST

[-_-} II!i:l

starlight a star, lonely and silent.lies in the emptiness of space. revolving around nothing.it burns bright. slowly sliding sublimly through time.dying, decaying, permeating through dimensional lines...
Posted by kwaidan on Thu, 03 May 2007 07:19:00 PST

(_<) !!llll

the book of poe20:12the clock struck down the hour past.the day retreated and night amassed.starlight twinkled illuminating the empty bluish vast.and i pass.out of the black and into the blue.searchin...
Posted by kwaidan on Fri, 20 Apr 2007 05:23:00 PST

dont read this it sucks. shtolic

the diary of the mandranmine that wanted to become a tramaffeldorfian.   i've lost something today. i cant quite discribe what it is.the pages cease to flip. thoughts falter. words silenced,...
Posted by kwaidan on Wed, 18 Apr 2007 09:02:00 PST