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n-tro-p//chaos

the mind is a beautiful place to be

About Me


I made this widget at MyFlashFetish.com .

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my aspiration:
to work for the FBI
...as a criminal analyst ("profiler") - but don't be scared...if anything, be relieved - you never know, you might be thankful one day to have me as a friend!
something I love that freaks people out: GUNS
My ideal ride: A gsxr or a mercedes
BASICALLY, I'm not your avg. chick. I actually DON'T LIKE girly shit, hanging out with girls (except a few), and I like to think I have more "balls" than most other chicks. I am not a tomboy and I don't look like a boy, but I can be a bitch and if anyone doesn't like it, then that's your f***ing problem!

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My Interests

i might be
f**king crazy

I made this music player at MyFlashFetish .com.
guns (especially UZI's and 50 cal. sniper rifles), computers (fixing, building, spending lots of hours on ( my new tech blog )painting (i have been known to paint anything & everything), daydreaming, drawing tattoo art, making jewelry, loud music, fucked up movies, strategic & selective manipulation, human observation, existing in the outside world from inside my "bubble" without sacrificing awareness

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I'd like to meet:

are you
worth my time?
someone who: would never be a savior, doesn't follow the pattern, isn't demanding (and says "please" and "thank you"), has no preconceived notions of things that don't exist, would rather relinquish control instead of taking it, doesn't start debates about topics they know nothing of, and is humble yet confident.
if you are that person, reveal yourself.

Music:


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hardcore
shit
some songs u can listen to via my fileden page

mobb deep, sevendust, HIM, cold, bullet for my valentine, lo pro, killswitch engage, audioslave, dry kill logic, sia, travis, a perfect circle, tori amos, coldplay, filter, seether, rob zombie, pj harvey, outkast, skinny puppy, chevelle, staind, POD, 50 cent, deftones, beastie boys, jay-z, flyleaf, front line assembly, faithless, ill nino, massive attack, radiohead, crystal method, revis, godhead, the white stripes, audiovent, red, kmfdm, muse, thornley, depeche mode, god lives underwater, young buck, akon, tricky, underworld, sneaker pimps, danzig, moby, smile empty soul, pete yorn, red hot chili peppers, NIN, lo fidelity all stars, kasabian, brandi carlile, charlotte martin, trust comapny, tool, linkin park, fort minor, three days grace, black light burns, crossfade, chevelle, 10 years, the vines, incubus, breaking benjamin, velvet revolver, trapt, team sleep, nonpoint, dark new day, static x, stereophonics, yeah yeah yeahs, dredg, hinder, fluke, anberlin, gravity kills, vast, theory of a deadman, submersed, taproot, primer 55, socialburn, sense field, snowpatrol, megan mccauley, mudvayne, my chemical romance, the prom kings, hoobastank, keane, hard-fi, ministry, 30 seconds to mars, A dark halo...

Movies:

another
reality
Northfork, The Salton Sea, Memento, Requiem for a Dream, Bandits, The Ring, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Garden State, The Terminal, Pitch Black/the chronicles of riddick, Gia, Constantine, Wonderland, House of Flying Daggers, Saw & Saw II, Prozac Nation, Suspect Zero, The Island, The Skeleton Key, Runaway Jury, Soul Survivors, and there's just too many to list them all...

Television:

fuck
tv
Without a Trace, Medium, CSI, South Park, and all those crime stories on court tv.

Books:

read
this
ASK THE DUST (John Fante - Charles Bukowski's muse), White Oleander, Open All Night (and pretty much all of Charles Bukowski's books), Catch22, Conversations with God, What God Wants, Siddartha, Notes from Underground (Dostoyevsky), The Lobotomist

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buy my books

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CONCRETE & FLESH!

BUY
ABSTRACTIONS IN MATURITY!

THEN once you do, please E-MAIL ME so I can personally THANK YOU! **note: not my personal email address, so don't try to be slick**

Heroes:

heroes
don't exist

anyone who truly knows what it means to be human.
Humanity's
Team

My Blog

the universe can be so damn cruel

it sucks...emil is still stuck in jail when all his buddies got released today.  he was supposed to be set up to see a judge tomorrow (which would have meant he would have been released)  bu...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Mon, 03 Mar 2008 07:36:00 PST

tomorrow

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Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Thu, 28 Feb 2008 07:22:00 PST

L-I-M-B-O

this is what it means, analyze however you want...but just know that my opinion is that no matter how you look at it, it sucks!limĀ·bo  /--l?mbo?/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[li...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Mon, 25 Feb 2008 04:02:00 PST

letters from jail

he doesn't have much longer!  he's done w/alpha and graduated, now he's working at intake until the beginning of march.  all the other time he has to kill he kills by writing me letters and ...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Sat, 16 Feb 2008 09:03:00 PST

a little piece of me caught in father lucifer

i was downloading music for my ipod that i got...and i downloaded "father lucifer" by tori amos...but i didn't realize i actually downloaded the live version she played when george and i went to see h...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 05:53:00 PST

i cannot handle this...

my dad is almost 80 years old...and i just read an email from my mom informing me that the doctors (who have been doing tests on him because he was having thyroid problems) found cancer...but not of t...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Sat, 02 Feb 2008 12:54:00 PST

just another day before tomorrow

i don't have much to write about...i'm taking my psychology final exam tomorrow though...that's exciting for me.  my next semester is going to be difficult but i like a challenge.  psycholog...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Sat, 02 Feb 2008 07:22:00 PST

guess who just made it to the top of my (s)hit list!

i am trying to finish my psychology assignment and the damn puerto ricans downstairs are having yet another loud, obnoxious party and they are outside on their patio YELLING at each other in spanish.&...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Sun, 27 Jan 2008 07:22:00 PST

adjusting to a small degree of normalcy

I just don't get on myspace that much anymore...i don't even check my email that much.  I have been (well, still am) working on my last psychology assignment and final exam debate for psychology ...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Fri, 25 Jan 2008 08:25:00 PST

i will not give up before i even start dammit, i’m determined!

i think some of you know i want to work for the FBI in their National Center for the Analysis of Violent Crime (NCAVC) as a crime analyst (equivalent to what we all call a "profiler").  and if u ...
Posted by n-tro-p//chaos on Mon, 14 Jan 2008 04:06:00 PST