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good ol southern comfort

with one last breath - i say.....i love her

About Me

found this I AM JUST A DOWN HOME SOUTHERN BELLE - YEAH RIGHT - LOL - JUST A SOUTHERN REDNECK SOME WOULD CALL WHITE TRASH WOMAN. I EMBRACE THAT TITLE BECAUSE ALABAMA IS MY HOME AND I DON'T HIDE THE FACT I LIKE IT! i ENJOY SPENDING TIME WITH MY BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL. SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND I CAN'T IMAGINE ONE SINGLE DAY WITHOUT HER - AND EVEN FIND IT HARD TO THINK OF MY LITTLE GIRL NOT EVER BEING IN MY ARMS. I LOST MY MOM WHEN I WAS 4 MONTHS PREGNANT S0 IN MY OWN LITTLE WAY I WANTED TO HONOR HER. I GAVE MY DAUGHTER HER NAMESAKE - CATHY JOAN. WHEN I CAN MANAGE TO FIND TIME FOR MYSELF - I ENJOY A NICE HOT BUBBLEBATH. I READ AND WRITE ALOT OF POETRY AND LOVE TO SHARE IT WITH OTHERS. I HOPE TO GET TO KNOW MY FRIENDS I HAVE BETTER AND THEM TO KNOW ME ALSO. I CHANGE MY LAYOUT ALOT SO GET READY FOR THE NEVERENDING ROLLERCOASTER RIDE!

My Interests

THIS IS QUITE SIMPLE. I LOVE MY BABY GIRL AND SPENDING TIME WITH HER. I GO TO THE LOCAL PARK HERE AND TO MY SPECIAL PLACE WHICH YOU WILL SEE IN MY PICS AND VIDEO'S.

I'd like to meet:

I HAVE TO BE HONEST REAL PEOPLE SCARE ME. I TEND TO BE A LONER AND NOT LET MANY PEOPLE CLOSE TO ME. I WOULD LOVE TO BE REUNITED WITH MY MOM, BABY BOY, GRANDPA AND GRANDMA WHEN I MAKE IT TO HEAVEN. IF I EVER GET THE CHANCE I WOULD LIKE TO MEET THE ONE'S WHO HAVE STOOD BY ME AND GOT TO KNOW THE DEEP DOWN REAL ME AND ACCEPTED THAT I'M NOT REALLY A MONSTER AFTERALL! I AM NOT REALLY A PEOPLE PERSON - LOL - YEAH RIGHT YA LOVE ME ANYWAY!

Music:

I LOVE ALL TYPES OF MUSIC. I ENJOY LISTENING TO CERTAIN TYPES THAT ARE SUITABLE ACCORDING TO MY MOODS.

Movies:

I AM NOT A MOVIE PERSON BUT TITANIC AND LORD OF THE RINGS REALLY CAUGHT MY ATTENTION.

Television:

I ENJOY WATCHING CSI, LAW AND ORDER, BASICALLY ANYTHING THAT CAN DISTRACT MY MIND.

Books:

I WRITE POETRY AND DO LIKE TO READ A GOOD BOOK ON OCCASION.

Heroes:

IF EVER I DID HAVE A HERO - IT WOULD HAVE TO BE MY MOM!

My Blog

SEEMS TO ALWAYS END UP

RIGHT BACK HERE - RIGHT WHERE I STARTED FROM - A PLACE OF BROKENESS AND PAIN. WITH DISTANT HOPE DANGLING IN THE WIND LIKE A CHILD RELEASING A WOUNDED BIRD BACK INTO THE WILD - WAITING - HOPING THAT ON...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Thu, 14 Jun 2007 07:38:00 PST

CRAWLING INTO A HOLE

all i want to do is crawl inside a hole and die.  i already feel like i'm dead on the inside.  like i have nothing left - just nothing.  i look at my daughter everyday and i feel her sl...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Wed, 13 Jun 2007 07:03:00 PST

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE

i can't take this shit anymore.  i just want to fucking crawl into a hole and die.  my life is shot to hell and i don't even care anymore if i bounce back.  as much as i love my baby gi...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Sun, 03 Jun 2007 12:20:00 PST

breaking the cycle

i'm having a hard time breaking these negative patterns i keep falling in.  i have found myself leaning more and more on bad habits in order to cope.  today my aunt wanted to talk to me abou...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Mon, 28 May 2007 12:45:00 PST

MORE BULLSHIT FROM JEROME

I GOT A COUPLE OF LETTER'S FROM JEROME AND HE WANTS SO DESPERATELY TO HEAR ME SAY I LOVE HIM AND I WANT A LIFE WITH HIM.  THE PROBLEM FOR HIM RIGHT NOW IS - HE HAS NO MORE CONTROL OVER WHAT I SAY...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Wed, 23 May 2007 08:13:00 PST

PERHAPS A NEW BEGINNING

I've been thinking all weekend what can i do to improve my situation and to stop wearing my heart/feelings on my forehead like a blinking light.  How can I cover up all this pain better so that o...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Mon, 21 May 2007 06:59:00 PST

I HURT MYSELF TODAY

I hurt myself today and it seems for no apparent reason.  I don't usually do this unless I am screaming or crying - but I was calm and what seemed to be a decent day was happening around me. ...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Tue, 15 May 2007 04:15:00 PST

MOTHER'S DAY

so it's mother's day and i'm sitting here crying and thinking about my mom.  lil cathy and i went to her grave today.  we put fresh flowers and cleanup up around things.  i also did a v...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Sun, 13 May 2007 09:44:00 PST

WHAT HAPPENS

What happens when the day finally comes that you can't force a smile and you can't fight back the tears?  What happens then?  I feel as if I have finally reached that point in my life. ...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Fri, 11 May 2007 08:42:00 PST

ANGRY ALL THE TIME

it just seems like lately i am staying angry all the time. helpless that i can't change my current situations and feeling frustrated that it will always be this way.  i want a better li...
Posted by good ol southern comfort on Sun, 06 May 2007 04:53:00 PST