She's Lost Control |we got the same disorder|

About Me

Condemnation
Tried
Here on the stand
With the book in my hand
And truth on my side
Accusations
Lies
Hand me my sentence
I'll show no repentance
I'll suffer with pride
If for honesty
You want apologies
I don't sympathize
If for kindness
You substitute blindness
Please open your eyes
Condemnation
Why
Because my duty
Was always to beauty
And that was my crime
Feel elation
High
To know I can trust this
Fix of injustice
Time after time
If you see purity
As immaturity
Well it's no surprise
If for kindness
You substitute blindness
Please open your eyes

This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality.
Embrace this moment. Remember. we are eternal.
all this pain is an illusion.

We're damaged people
Drawn together
By subtleties that we are not aware of
Disturbed souls
Playing out forever
These games that we once thought we would be scared of
When you're in my arms
The world makes sense
There is no pretense
And you're crying
When you're by my side
There is no defense
I forget to sense
I'm dying
We're damaged people
Praying for something
That doesn't come from somewhere deep inside us
Depraved souls
Trusting in the one thing
The one thing that this life has not denied us
When I feel the warmth
Of your very soul
I forget I'm cold
And crying
When your lips touch mine
And I lose control
I forget I'm old
And dying
Oh you sad one
Playing the Angel
Isn't so easy where you're from
Oh you wild one
Devil's companion
You won't stay satisfied for long
I don't want you to change
Anything you do
I don't want you to be
Something else for me
Oh you dark one
Eternal outsider
Caught in the spider's web you've spun
Oh you blind one
Gentle and kind one
Seeing the world as a loaded gun
I don't want you to change
Anything you do
I don't want you to be
Someone else for me
Stay as you are
The Darkest Star
Shining for me
Majestically
If I could just hide
The sinner inside
And keep him denied
How sweet life would be
If I could be free
From the sinner in me
I'll never be a saint
That's not a picture that your memory paints
Not renowned for my patience
I'm not renowned for my restraint
But you're always around
You can always be found
To pick me up when I'm on the ground
If I could just hide
The sinner inside
And keep him denied
How sweet life would be
If I could be free
From the sinner in me
I'm still recovering
Still getting over all the suffering
More known for my anger
Than for any other thing
But you've always tried
To be by my side
And catch my fall when I start to slide
If I could just hide
The sinner inside
And keep him denied
How sweet life would be
If I could be free
From the sinner in me
LeT'S hAVe A bLaCk CelEBRatiION
Wings for marie (part 1)
You...
You believed ...
You believed in movements none could see.
You believed in me
A passionate spirit
Uncompromised
Boundless and open
A light in your eyes
Then immobilized.
Broken
Fell at the hands of those movements that I wouldn't see
Yet it was you who prayed for me.
So what have I done
To be a son to an angel?
What have I done
To be worthy?
Daylight dims leaving cold fluorescents
Difficult to see you in this light
Please forgive this selfish question, but
What am I to say to all these ghouls tonight?
"She never told a lie,
... well might have told a lie,
But never lived one.
Didn't have a life,
Didn't have a life,
But surely saved one."
See? I'm alright
Now it's time for us to let you go.
10,000 days (wings pt. 2)
Listen to the tales and romanticize,
How we'd follow the path of the hero.
Boast about the day when the rivers overrun.
How we rise to the height of our halo.
Listen to the tales as we all rationalize
Our way into the arms of the savior,
Feigning all the trials and the tribulations;
None of us have actually been there.
Not like you.
Ignorant siblings in the congregation
Gather around spewing sympathy,
Spare me.
None of them can even hold a candle up to you.
Blinded by choice, these hypocrites won't see.
But, enough about the collective Judas.
Who could deny you were the one who
Illuminated your little piece of the divine?
And this little light of mine, a gift you passed on to me;
I'm gonna let it shine to guide you safely on your way,
Your way home ...
Oh, what are they going to do when the lights go down
Without you to guide them all to Zion?
What are they going to do when the rivers overrun
Other than tremble incessantly?
High is the way, but all eyes are upon the ground.
You were the light and the way they'll only read about.
I only pray, Heaven knows when to lift you out.
Ten thousand days in the fire is long enough;
You're going home.
You're the only one who can hold your head up high,
Shake your fists at the gates saying:
"I've come home now!
Fetch me the spirit, the son, and the father.
Tell them their pillar of faith has ascended.
It's time now!
My time now!
Give me my, give me my wings!"
You are the light and way that they will only read about.
Set as I am in my ways and my arrogance,
(With the) burden of proof tossed upon the believers.
You were my witness, my eyes, my evidence,
Judith Marie, unconditional one.
Daylight dims leaving cold fluorescents.
Difficult to see you in this light.
Please forgive this bold suggestion, but
Should you see your Maker's face tonight,
Look Him in the eye, look Him in the eye, and tell Him:
"I never lived a lie, never took a life,
but surely saved one.
Hallelujah, it's time for you to bring me home."
See,I think drugs have done some good things
for us,
I really do,
and if you don't believe drugs have done
good things for us
do me a favor.
Go home tonight and take all your albums,
all your tapes,
and all your CDs and burn 'em.
Cause you know what?
The musicians who made all that great music
that's enhanced your lives
throughout the years?

Rrrrreal fuckin' high on drugs.

I was alone, Falling free,
Trying my best not to forget
What happened to us,
What happened to me,
What happened as I let it slip.
I was confused by the powers that be,
Forgetting names and places.
Passers by were looking at me
As if they could erase it
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
I was alone,
Staring over the ledge,
Trying my best not to forget
All manner of joy
All manner of glee
And our one heroic pledge
How it mattered to us,
How it mattered to me,
And the consequences
I was confused,
By the birds and the bees
Forgetting if I meant it
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
And the Sex and the drugs and the complications
And the Sex and the drugs and the complications
And the Sex and the drugs and the complications
And the Sex and the drugs and the complications
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
Baby did you forget to take your meds?
I was alone,
Falling free,
Trying my best not to forget
[-open up your eyes-]
Ã¨ una questione di qualitÃ
o una formalitÃ
non ricordo piÃ¹ bene una formalitÃ
come decidere di radersi i capelli
di eliminare il caffÃ¨, le sigarette
di farla finita con qualcuno
o qualcosa, una formalitÃ una formalitÃ
o una questione di qualitÃ
io sto bene io sto bene
io sto male io sto male
io non so io non so
come stare dove stare
non studio non lavoro non guardo la TV
non vado al cinema non faccio sport
io sto bene io sto male io non so
cosa fare non ho arte non ho parte
non ho niente da insegnare
Ã¨ una questione di qualitÃ
o una formalitÃ
non ricordo piÃ¹ bene, una formalitÃ
Do you mean this horny creep
Set upon weary feet
Who looks in need of sleep
That doesn't come
This twisted, tortured mess
This bed of sinfulness
Who's longing for some rest
And feeling numb
What do you expect to be?
What is it you want?
Whatever you've planned for me
I'm not the one
A vicious appetite
It visits me each night
And won't be satisfied
Won't be denied
An unbearable pain
A beating in my brain
That leaves the mark of cain
Right here inside
What am I supposed to do?
When everything that I've done
Is leading me to conclude
I'm not the one
Whatever I've done
I've been staring down the barrel of a gun
Whatever I've done
I've been staring down the barrel of a gun
Whatever I've done (whatever, whatever)
Is there something you need from me?
Are you having your fun?
I never agreed to be
Your Holy One
Whatever I've done
I've been staring down the barrel of a gun
Whatever I've done (whatever, whatever)
I've been staring down the barrel of a gun
Whatever I've done (whatever, whatever)
I've been staring down the barrel of a gun

My Interests

My LiFe Has BeeN sAVed By:

e,ultimi in ordine di arrivo salvifico,LORO:

You are Schism. You are probably a sensitive individual who is very down to earth and open in relationships with others. Communication is your key to success and happiness in just about everything you do.

I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smoldering. Fundamental differing.
Pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication.

I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them tumble down
No fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to
Point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication

The poetry that comes from the squaring off between,
And the circling is worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.

There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away.
Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting
I've done the math enough to know the dangers of our second guessing
Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication.

Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any
Sense of compassion
Between supposed lovers/brothers

__________I gOT FreEdOM anD MY youTH_______

Confusion in her eyes that says it all.
She's lost control.
And she's clinging to the nearest passer by,
She's lost control.
And she gave away the secrets of her past,
And said i've lost control again,
And a voice that told her when and where to act,
She said i've lost control again.

And she turned around and took me by the hand and said,
I've lost control again.
And how i'll never know just why or understand,
She said i've lost control again.
And she screamed out kicking on her side and said,
I've lost control again.
And seized up on the floor, i thought she'd die.
She said i've lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.

Well i had to 'phone her friend to state my case,
And say she's lost control again.
And she showed up all the errors and mistakes,
And said i've lost control again.
But she expressed herself in many different ways,
Until she lost control again.
And walked upon the edge of no escape,
And laughed i've lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.

I could live a little better with the myths and the lies,
When the darkness broke in, i just broke down and
cried.
I could live a little in a wider line,
When the change is gone, when the urge is gone,
To lose control. when here we come.

_______My BeLOvED sON_________

I've been waiting for a guide to come
and take me by the hand
Could these sensations make me feel
the pleasures of a normal man
New sensations bear the innocence -
leave them for another day
I've go the spirit, lose the feeling
take the shock away

It's getting faster, moving faster now,
it's getting out of hand
On the tenth floor, down the backstairs
into no-man's land
Lights are flashing,
cars are crashing,
getting frequent now
I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it
out somehow

What means to you,
what means to me -
and we will meet again
I'm watching you, I'm watching her
I take no pity from friends
Who is right and who can tell,
and who gives a damn right now
Until the spirit, new sensation
takes hold - then you know (3)
I've got the spirit, but lose the feeling (2)
Feeling (7)

Where were you when I fell from grace?
A frozen heart an empty space
Something's changed and it's in your eyes
Please don't speak you'll only lie
I found treasure not where I thought
Peace of mind can't be bought
Still I believe

Just hang on
Suffer well
Sometimes it's hard
It's hard to tell

An angel led me when I was blind
I said take me back I've changed my mind
Now I believe
From the blackest room I was torn
You called my name my love was born
So I believe

Just hang on
Suffer well
Sometimes it's hard
It's hard to tell

____________________a n GeR________________________

Here from the king's mountain view
Here from the wild dream come true
Feast like a sultan I do
On treasures and flesh, never few.
But I, I would wish it all away.
If I thought I'd Lose you just one day.

The devil and his had me down,
in love with the dark side I'd found.
Dabble in all the way down
up to my neck soon to drown.

But you changed that all for me.
Lifted me up, turned me round.
So I...
I...
I...
I...
I would
I would
I would
Wish this all away

Prayed like a father dusk to dawn.
Beg like a hooker all night long.

Tempted the devil with my song.
And got what I wanted all along.

But I,
And I would,
If I could,
And I would,
Wish it away,
Wish it away,
Wish it all away,
Wanna wish it all away,
No prize that could hold sway,
Or justify my giving away,
my center.

So if I could I'd wish it all away.
If I thought tomorrow would take you away.
You're my peace of mind, my home, my center.
I'm just trying to hold on,
One more day.

Dim my eyes...
Dim my eyes...
Dim my eyes if they should compromise
our fulcrum what you need divides me then
I might as well be gone.

Shine on forever.
Shine on benevolent son.

Shine down upon the broken.
Shine until the two become one.

Shine on forever.
Shine on benevolent son.

Shine on upon the severed.
Shine until the two become one.

Divided I'm withering away.

Divided and I'm withering away.

Shine on upon the many, light our way
Benevolent son.

Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
So as one survive.
Another day and season.

Silence leech, and save your poison.
Silence leech, and stay out of my way

________j a m b i[is HerOwnAndOnlyOwner]_______

R.I.P.
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
R.I.P.

Rest in peace
Rot in peace
Blue Crumb Truck!
R.I.P.
R-I-P
R.I.P.
R.I.P.

Blue Blue - Crumb - Truck!

R - I - P !!!

R.I.P.
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
Rot with me
Rest in peace
Blue Crumb Truck
R.I.P.
R-I-P
R.I.P.

Rot with me
Rot with me
Blue Blue Blue
Crumb Truck!
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
R.I.P.

________mY cUre_______

Remember how it used to be
When the sun would fill the sky
Remember how we used to feel
Those days would never end
Those days would never end

Remember how it used to be
When the stars would fill the sky
Remember how we used to dream
Those nights would never end
Those nights would never end

It was the sweetness of your skin
It was the hope of all we might have been
That filled me with the hope to wish
Impossible things
To wish impossible things

But now the sun shines cold
And all the sky is grey
The stars are dimmed by clouds and tears
And all I wish
Is gone away
All I wish
Is gone away

All I wish
Is gone away

Who are you to wave your finger?
You must have been outta your head
Eye hole deep in muddy waters
You practically raised the dead
Rob the grave to snow the cradle
Then burn the evidence down
Soapbox house of cards and glass so
Don't go tossin' your stones around

You must have been high

Foot in mouth and head up ass
So whatcha talkin' 'bout?
Difficult to dance 'round this one
'til you pull it out. boy,

You must have been so high

Steal, borrow, refer, save your shady inference
Kangaroo done hung the jury with the innocent

Now you're weeping shades of cozened indigo
(Musta) got lemon juice up in your eye
When you pissed all over my black kettle.

You must have been high!
Who are you to wave your finger?
So full of it
Eye balls deep in muddy waters
Fuckin' hypocrite
Liar, lawyer, mirror, show me. What's the difference?
Kangaroo done hung the guilty with the innocent.

Now you're weeping shades of cozened indigo

(Musta) got lemon juice up in your eye
When you pissed all over my black kettle.

You must've been...
So who are you to wave your finger?
Who are you to wave your fatty fingers at me?
You must have been out your mind
Weepin' shades of indigo
Shed without a reason
Weepin' shades of indigo

Liar, lawyer - mirror, for you what's the difference?
Kangaroo be stoned. He's guilty as the government.

Now you're weeping shades of cozened indigo
(Musta) got lemon juice up in your eye
Now when you pissed all over my black kettle.

You must've been high!

Eyeballs deep in muddy waters
Eyeballs deep in muddy waters
Ganja? P-lease!
You must have been out your mind

_____WHathEVer YOU plANnED foR Me I'M noT the ONE_____

In fear every day, every evening
He calls her aloud from above
Carefully watched for a reason
Painstaking devotion and love
Surrendered to self-preservation
From others who care for themselves
A blindness that touches perfection
But hurts just like anything else
Isolation, isolation, isolation.

Mother I tried, please believe me
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm ashamed of the things I've been put through
I'm ashamed of the person I am
Isolation, isolation, isolation.

But if you could just see the beauty
These things I could never describe
These pleasures a wayward distraction
Is this my one lucky prize?
Isolation, isolation, isolation.

___dANGER:aLSO hiGHly INFlaMMabLE___

I got my head, but my head is unraveling
Can't keep control, cant keep track of
where it's traveling
I got my heart but my heart is no good
And you're the only one that's understood
I come along but I don't know where you're taking me
I shouldn't go but you're reaching back and shaking me
Turn off the sun, pull the stars from the sky
The more I give to you, the more I die

And I want you
And I want you
And I want you
And I want you

You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug

You make me hard, when I'm all soft inside
I see the truth, when I'm all stupid eyed
The arrow goes straight through my heart
Without you everything just falls apart

My blood wants to say hello to you
My feelings want to get inside of you
My soul is so afraid to realize
Every little word is a lack of me

And I want you
And I want you
And I want you
And I want you

You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
(whispering)
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug,
the perfect drug
You are the perfect drug, the drug,
the perfect drug

Take me, with you
Take me, with you
Take me, with you
(continues in backround)
Without you,without you everything falls apart
Without you,its not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Without you,without you everything falls apart
Without you,its not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Its not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Its not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Without you,without you everything falls apart
Without you,its not as much fun to pick up the pieces

__But YOu KnoW you Wouldn't WAnt mE anY other WAy__

I'd like to meet:

--robert,
the man who saved my life

--none of us have actually been there..not like you
[we'll meet again]

[I already have the best friends ever]

Music:

Movies:

The Hole[TSAI MING LIANG] - Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind - Il favoloso mondo di AmeliÃ¨ - Volver - Il grande Lebowsky - Le Conseguenze Dell'Amore - Vive l'amour - Crash - Lost in Translation - Tutto su mia Madre - 21 grammi - Transamerica - American History X - Fucking Amal - Ladri di Biciclette - Vincent - La Parola Amore Esiste - Donnie Darko - Parla con lei - Dolls - Me and You(and everyone we know)- American Beauty - Magnolia - Truman Show - I Cento Passi - Little Miss Sunshine

Joel: I still thought you were gonna save my life... even after that.
Clementine: Ohhh... I know.
Joel: It would be different, if we could just give it another go-round.
Clementine: Remember me. Try your best; maybe we can.

Clementine: I'm gonna marry you... I know it!
Joel: Ummm... okay...

Television:

The Closer - i Griffin - American Dad - Will&Grace - La vita secondo Jim (io quell'uomo lo amo XD) - Il Commissario Montalbano (amo pure lui
E ovviamente

IL NOSTRO REALITY XD

Books:

Italo Svevo-Flaubert-D.H Lawrence-Gabriel GarÃ§ia Marquez-David Peace-A.C.Doyle-Patricia Cornwell-A.Baricco-Primo Levi[il sistema periodico]-J.D. Salinger-Guy De Maupassant-G.Leroux-Barbey d'Aurevilly[Le Diaboliche]-J. Keats-E.Bronte-N.Hawthorne

Heroes:

"We're about a lot of things; unity, evolving thoughts and ideas, choosing compassion over fear, emotional, and, uh, anger. Which is ok. Anger is constructive, unlike hate - that is destructive"
Maynard James Keenan

questa donna:

"Una parte di me Ã¨ arrabbiata... ma un'altra Ã¨ contenta... il resto Ã¨ soltanto ubriaca!!"
" La A.A. (alcolisti anonimi) vÃ contro tutto ciÃ² che credo sia giusto e puro "
Karen:"Visto che dobbiamo aspettare perchÃ¨ non prendere una bottiglia di champagne?!"
Will:"Ottima idea.."
Karen:"...voi cosa prendete?!"
"Tesoro... sii gentile e da' un senso alla tua squallida vita riempiendomi di Tequila questo bicchiere..."

Ringhio

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sonno vieni a me...

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suicidatemi,una donna incinta sto periodo è meno emotiva di me -_-

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it's up to me now TuRn ON thE bRiGHt LiGHts

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