Airman Best-Langston

I'm Out Of Here Nov. 13 2007 Babi! found this polka layout at HOT FreeLayouts.com Randomness TIRED i'm getting nervous...cus nov 13 i leave. but so happy cus i'm so tired of this bitches in ct. time for a new start, fresh start actually, new life...new me. i'm tired of always wanting for something so strong that's not going to happen. if you happen to read this...you ain't got to answer me...cus if it's taking you this long i already know the answer...it's peace iono damn i thought it was hard enough dealing with the death of my grandpee...and i'm still dealing with it...but my aunt too. she isn't dead but she's dying...i'm strong but i'm not this strong. i'm trying but i don't have it left in me anymore... DONE there's a point and time in life when you get tired of being that only one who's stressing...who's worried...who's giving a fuck and you know what...i'm tired of being in this alone. damn i had the feeling that she ain't really give a fuck no more...but now i know. i'm done. i sit here and pour my fucking heart and soul out..ask is there anything you want to tell me...and it's no. put it all out there...and i never get shit back. i'm tired of trying...i'm so fucking tired for trying for a love that i'm only caring about. FUCK IT. Don't ever have to worry about that girl named shanell and what we had...cus i think that's truly what you want...and baby your wish is granted. i don't think you realize how you come off...but i'm bout to show the response to your actions strong. but i know you, so i know it won't bother you cus clearly you stopped giving a fuck. i'm gone...nellz TORN i'm leaving soon and i should be happy. she's leaving soon and i'm happy for her. i hate that i'm leaving and she's leaving cus we are leaving each other. i have so much inside of me to say but i'm not gonna put my business out there...shit the song speaks for itself and says more than i could ever say...just listen to the song...and you know where i'm at right now DRAINED PART 2 i swear i can't stand stubborn ass people. damn get it thru your heads that your way ain't always it all the time. stop staying stuck to what the fuck you want to believe cus you always taking something the wrong way...damn...i can't deal with this shit. DRAINED LIKE A MUTHA FUCKER in life you can't help but to like and love who you are destined to like and love. and when you find that ONE it's hard to let go of. Especially when there is still love there on both parts. This is why relationships don't last and love dies...if love is true it never dies believe that. So for those who have something to say about NELLZ AND NISHA...N&N SUCK MY DICK WORD. yup we still here. we may not be together but @ the end of the day nisha is MY WIFE and i am HERS. and it will remain that way. i've been thru hell and back...there again and back with this girl...and built so much you really think we letting go of that just yet completely. Like nisha said "they don't kno shit about us, our history, n what we mean 2 eachother...so instead of comin out they mouth...they need 2 just leave it alone"...TAKE THE ADVICE. That's my best friend and wife. Just know that the next and after the next to come into her life will never amount up to me...you are gonna have some serious shoes to fill...WORD. July 28-29, 2007 i can say one of the best days of my life. i had mega fun...made a new nigga. chilled got fucked up and did my thing. life is good right now. it is what it is. i wish i knew more in detail but i'm good for now...hopefully before i go to boot camp i'll know...lata guys...I LOVE YOU BAE July 24, 2007 the kid made it thru MEPS. now all i have to do is wait til around the 8th so i will know when i'm leaving for basic training and know my job. i'm happy in life right now. could be a little happier but i'm satisfied. damn i can't believe it's happening though. wishes me good luck guys july 21 2007 i'm sitting here with so many thoughts going thru me to where it's not even funny. first of all i kno i stole this from rita...but its a good concept...LOVE YA!!! first of all i still don't kno how can i be happy and uhappy at the the same time. how can i still want still love still everything but then reality sets in and i go back to understanding that its dead. just too much to little time to deal with it...boot camp here i come soon....new life...hopefully with YOU again. lata guys SHOUTOUTS AIRMAN DEWITT-SMITH..hope i spelled it right yo i love you so much. i wanna be just like you when i grow up...lol. naw but on sum real you are like one of the best friends someone could or can have. damn...i'm glad we remained cool and friends and grew to what we are now. BABES you are like my little sister. girl i fight with you but i'll bang with you to the end. you my nigga for life. we've been thru it solo and together. we ride together like it's nothing and i love you to death. babes for life LEX MY SISTER iiiiiiiiiiii llllllooooooovvvvvvveeeeee you. you've been here and there and around the corner for me. i appreciate everything you do for me and i will never forget about you when i become rich and famous...lol. loves you. CHARITA you went from being the cousin i had to impress to like me..to my cousin in law...to my right hand ace boon coon..my nigga like. i love ya ass to death. i rides with you too. KEMIA the sleepy slut I LOVE YOU TO FUCKING DEATH. damn i remember when i only heard of you cus of josh and my cousin lemar like...and now you my nigga...I LOVE YA ASS TO DEATH KEMIA...with ya non gay ass but can bag all the bitches if you wanted too...LOL D.R.L. damn i kno erryone like "NO SHE AINT SHOUTING HER OUT" oh but i am. see i'm grown and i don't live my life for erryone else just me. i love you to death wether or not we are the best or the worst. the day i told you i loved you i ment it. the day i got my tat it was for forever and so is my love for you. i wish you the best in life. hopefully i can regain my best friend back. you and i both know what good you've done for me in my life and i thank you for it and appreciate it. and honestly i don't give a fuck cus it's on me for life...N&N forever and a day. even if i'm the only soul still screaming it. at least it's not fully forgotten.AIRMAN BEST-LANGSTON RESIDING you wanna know about me...this section is not enough in the world to get to know the real "NELLZ". the basics...i'm 20, lesbian and enlisted in the United States Airforce. My life and me can not and i will not put it into this section. I am who i am...a sister, a lover, a wife, a heartbreak, a broken heart. i'm everything i will be and more and what you didn't expect me to become. I am authentic and one of a kind...i fall short to none. I am who i was born to be...SHANELL.it is what it is Girlfriend is a title that a female gives herself when she decides to be with you. Wife is the upmost title that someone gives you when you deserve the best in life and all of what they have to offer you. When someone truly loves you...A Proposal is the blessing that your wife gives to you when her life is nothing without you. And is ready for the world with you by her side. Acceptance and Rejection are the 2 things that are left to give back... -nellz