Whysper's Personal Blogs (Con'd)
That's right, I've set up my personal journal on here, for real blogs/journal entries dating back to 2003. You can view my entire fucked up world, at your discretion, of course. Since my blog's on my space.com are promotional, I thought it'd be different to post my actual journal, with REAL thoughts.
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Everything on this website, and all of my websites, are 100% original. It's rare that I quote ANYbody, other than, well... me. If I do quote another, it's probably because I've found what they've said to be rather profound. And, that doesn't happen much.
Most the world, and the people in it, don't share the same beliefs as I. Never a person to exist that has been so gentle, yet so wickedly rebellious. So loving, yet filled with so much venim. So confident, intelligent, and talented, yet having led a life filled with so many mistakes, bad choices, and drama caused through so much insecurity.
I quote myself. I write. I live. That is what I am here to do. To live, perhaps to lead, to speak, and to be spoken of. I firmly believe in Karma, I believe in good-will, good-faith, and GOD. I believe in Jesus Christ. I BLEED for Jesus Christ.
And, yet, I'm drawn to the darker side, by some unexplainable force. I'm sucked in, and then sucked dry. I fight it, yet live it, and some how frighteningly, seem to love it, yet loathe it.
My life, and it's meaning, though yet, NOT defined-and perhaps never shall be-serve an obvious role, a purpose. My thoughts, they are intense. My will to feel-unbearably empty, yet so unexplainably FULL. I'm an advocate for speaking UP, speaking OUT. For dry humor. The only humor I do endure.
And for the very few who do get inside, -though it happens rarely-I am a human, a women, a sexual being, yet silly, fun, and sometimes even playful. It is few who will ever see that side, as I packed that person up, long ago. I can figure people out within mere minutes of knowing, and having known them. I am quiet, yet loud. A contradiction, or perhaps a twist of fate. I want to know you, learn about you, feel you, be you. And unfortunately most times, in all my madness, in ending....dispose of you. I'm not level headed, yet so far from stupid! Most people who know me to my deepest levels have told me I am the smartest women they have ever known. Though few get that far, the ones who do are intelligent as well, and I trust their thought patterns, immensely.
I succumb to my lover. I am his dark, midnight, goddess. I fall to the feet of those who love me. I am a glutton for true love.
I want to know YOU. Join me in my little screwed UP world, only if you can handle it, of course. I am so far past wanting everybody to love me, hell-even like me! Find me sexy, or having unrealistic expectations. I crave to find more to life. I despise materialism.
Yet my figure is well defined, and although my build is petite, and arms, hands, & feet are frail and tiny, I seem to have an extremely sexual aura.
I am a strong advocate for charity work, I have been since I was small. This is only something that has been self-taught. I find conversation difficult with most. I want something so different, than most others. What it is, I can't quite point out. But, it isn't money. It isn't a beautiful home, or a nice fancy car. It isn't two thousand pairs of shoes, or vacations in France. Though I may have things, and may continue to be given things, it is not these things I crave. I crave depth.
I enjoy helping our homeless citizens.
I've had no work done, though I do not criticize those who do. I am open minded, and honest. I fight to speak my mind. I fight for others to do the same. I love to write. I embrace my title--the starving artist. Money does not fufill me.
I am PROUD to say that temporarily I was an exotic dancer. I strongly believe in survival, and the struggle within to face what we need to do in order to survive. I find sexuality amazing. Especially in its most natural form.
Be proud of who you, WHAT you ARE!
OWN YOURSELF. DO NOT let the world, and all of its civilians own you. SPEAK YOUR MIND. Be free. NEVER cling to anger, embrace jealousy, or spread HATE.
Open the door. And your mind. Let the world IN.
And... So it Begins.
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I will be launching my official website, www.torturedchambers.com®, very soon. The website will display several aspects of my work, including my writing, both poetry, and fiction novels, set to be published this year and next, a gallery of my modeling, with a low monthly fee for those interested in seeing some of my work as a model. The website will also feature a selection of clothing available directly on the site, from our clothing line, and sister website, set to be renovated and back up and running soon. Additionally available will be some of my photography work, and information on my services of photography avialable.
Those interested in my writing should know some interesting facts, and other things about my past, and my future, as a writer. I started writing when I was 10, mainly poetry, but other things, too. Now, I know this may seem strange, perhaps even silly, be that as it may, I had my first poem published in 2005, and it was a piece I wrote when I was 12. I submitted several things I'd written in my 20's, alongside this piece I'd written at 12, and the piece I'd written at 12 was chosen. I think that is a good explanation, especially as to why I am so set on introducing ALL of my work throughout my life, including that of which was written as a child. I was good then, and I'm better now.
For the record, I am looking to publish my first of three poetry books, due out this Spring. I plan to continue writing and publsihing work following these books, however, most of which will then be fiction novels, as I feel my imagination can go on forever, perhaps. I will be writing a lot of suspense in the years to come, and am thrilled to be able to introduce all of you to my books, as they are quite...different, from much of what you are use to in the world of suspense. To all, I'm defining my world, my visions, and my grim dark deep imagination filled with morbid elegance, and mysterious beauty, to the best of my ability.
With the launching of the site, I will have my entire poetry collection on the website, up for review, permanently. However, my books that are set to be published first, will frequently feature new work, and that is why I urge all who shall become fans of my work, to purchase the poetry collection. You will NOT be dissapointed.
True to the fact, I have been labeled a dark, and depressing artist, starved for comfort and nuture, I've included my world, and life through my eyes in ALL of my work, and finally in my 24 years of age--after struggling ridiculously--have set myself to free that work to the world. Sometimes a poet can hide under layers of masks, denying ones work, and pretending to be something else--something perhaps so much "BETTER" to some--yet boring to others. This is where the confusions set in, and it will reflect in my work, my road to and through the depths of my misery, the pain and bearing of anger through my wounded soul. And, again, I am ready to share this. Through much struggling, and a LOT of self assurance, I AM READY TO SHARE THIS WITH THE WORLD. WITH YOU.