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Julie Jordan Scott

Sell Your Cleverness and Buy Bewilderment Rumi

About Me

Katherine once said... it was several years ago... "You just have to admit it, Bakersfield is beautiful...." when I see photos like this one, I would have to agree...

My son, Samuel - that cutie in the Lightning McQueen shirt, has been diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome. He is going to be just fine, he IS just fine.

Just unique and quirky, like me.

'Tis the Season for that one!


/ I love self portraits. Here are some recent ones I especially like.





So, that's it for the new things here. Just trying to stay even tempered and authentic, honest and fruitful. Even though my main computer just died.

My life goes on.


This makes me laugh so much!!

My life in a nutshell? Lately?

Sometimes it feels like I am at constant battle with circumstance.

This past year my brother died, My Mom was diagnosed with cancer (she is doing ok, now, thankfully) and then my son was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome - not sure, actually, from my seat that it is Asperger's, but I do know it is something on the Autism Spectrum.

He went through hell last year in Kindergarten... smarter than anything so I didn't suspect a Developmental Disability... argh.. so now I am fighting for his education and have been homeschooling him for the past 83 days but who is counting?!

There were other losses along the way... but for now, I want to focus on what is working, what is right, what I want to create....

I want to do more poetry performance. Check out this photo of a recent performance at Burn the Witch... and thanks to my friend, Todd Powers for the photo...


I am not sure who took this one, but I love it!!


I want more space for my writing... both the process and the publishing...


and more time just hanging out with friends.



I want more time to snuggle...


My Interests

My Interests?

Writing, Poetry, Music, Singing, Parenting inspired and aware children, deep conversations, Conscious People, Theatre, laughing, walking, making profound discoveries, the transcendentalists, spirituality, reading, learning, growing.

Now why am I interested in Writing, Poetry, Music, Raising Consciousness, Spirituality, Learning and Growing?

Three names, especially.

Samuel

Emma

and Katherine.

If you want to love me, first you have to understand my deep love for my children.

(An oddly frightening thing is - I am wanting to have another one. I think, though, having a man I love from the depths of my soul needs to come first this time.)

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet people who understand this poem:

The sun is rising so clear today
A textbook beautiful
Technically adept sunrise
I wanted it to be a sloppy
A clanging “You must be joking!”
Cluttered sunrise today.

But sometimes we don’t get what
We think we want –
We think we want clanging chaos,
“More cacophony!” We shout, banging
Our chests like a confused Tarzan choir –

And what we receive instead is a
Quiet, hissing whisper, air releasing
Air filling… slowly… intentionally…
Ever-so-sure-and-deliberate

So we pause, shock denial anger back to
“a-ha” shock and step into the question
The curvy loop,
Itself a fascination…..

We, no… I…. miss so much through stubborn insistence
When the treasure waits, peacefully, gracefully

So I said “Good morning” aloud, across the miles
And pointed my heart towards you…….

I receive an internal snuggle in return
And I smiled
Inside
Out

My friend, Ginn Williams, has a book coming out - check out her links -



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I am also happy whenever I meet open-minded, open-hearted souls who are artists-in-life.

Every day I meet Rainer Rilke, in his words. Listen now to some of them....

"Being an artist means: not numbering and counting, but ripening like a tree, which doesn't force its sap, and stands confidently in the storms of spring, not afraid that afterward summer may not come. It does come. But it comes only to those who are patient, who are there as if eternity lay before them, so unconcernedly silent and vast."

I would also like to meet subscribers for my ezines, including Daily Passion Activator.

Subscribe now, there is noo fee...


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Music:

I love singing.

“Singing is like praying twice”

The “Real” Maria Von Trapp

There is something sacred in experiencing the lush sweetness of a heart-filled voice traveling up and down a string of pearl-like-notes, simultaneously filling the body and being birthed from the body.

When we sing, we take the words and notes of a scribe and fill the words with our soul..

Maria Von Trapp got it right. Singing IS like praying twice.

It is like communion, it is like love-making, it is like a couple, dancing across the stage as they effortlessly connect on a soul level. Singing is like the delicate awakening of chiarascuoro of the heart.

Yes, “Singing is like praying twice.”

When we sing we breathe in, deeply – and when we are conscious singers – our breath is deliberate, treated with utmost care. What happens to your body when you take a deep breath?

It expands – it fills – it signifies plenty.

As the singer, you can do anything you want with your song – you can make it loud and intense or make your song small and equally intense.. You can make it more airy and filled with pockets of breath or you can fill it with your very essence so that its punch is more powerful than steel.

You may choose to sing-pray when you are delighted and you may choose to sing-pray when you are devastated. You may sing-pray as a beginning or invocation and you may sing-pray as a moment of closure or benediction.

I remember reading of famed opera singer Maria Callas who shared that we sing when words alone, without music, can’t communicate meaning adequately. It needs to be amplified – which is what happens when we sing-pray.

Yes, Yes, Yes.

“Singing is like praying twice”

I enjoy singing almost any sort of music - from campy musicals to classical music to the occasional country tune. I have been known to hang out at this eclectic hole-in-the-wall bar called "The Junction" where I sing rock-n-roll, lots of 80's music, sometimes country and once I even sang "Somewhere Over the Rainbow."

I don't like being put into a box in any category - too much like a coffin.


Television:

ER, Occasionally a Law and Order Episode(I like 'em all... in Law and Order the original I tend to watch just the cop part because I have a huge crush on Jesse Martin)... I also like to watch Project Runway from time to time and makeover shows on Bravo and TLC. I don't always admit it, though.......

Books:

The Sound of Paper, Atlas Shrugged, Writing Down the Bones, Letters to a Young Poet, Mary Oliver poetry, Rumi poetry, Joyce Carol Oates fiction....I love memoir, too. Any memoir. Have enjoyed getting to know the work of Anne Morrow Lindbergh recently.

Heroes:

Martha Graham, Helen Keller, My Mother, My Father, My Children, Rainer Rilke, Mohandas Gandhi, Annie Sullivan, Martin Luther King Jr, Carly Simon, Julia Cameron - etc etc etc

See the pictures of those children up above here?

They are my heroes... and so is he:

Hank keeps me moving, everyday.

My Blog

Some Poetic Leanings Along The Road

I have been writing poetry again - some poetic prose - I notice my writing here hasn't been as voluminous lately... so I thought I would add some of my rambles, here, too. My favorite poem from the l...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Tue, 29 Apr 2008 01:58:00 PST

The Harmonies Surprised Me

The harmonies surprised meIt wasn't a planned visitCarefully concluded priorTo walking through the door It was a consolation prizeA place i landed because I wasDisappointed, before I rememberedThat th...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Wed, 16 Apr 2008 02:34:00 PST

So much to say, no words to say it yet

Keeping busy out here.... hardly any time at the keyboard so my writing is wayyyy behind, my emails are behind, my phone calls are behind. The kidlets are loving my "no rehearsal week" and I still hav...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Wed, 16 Apr 2008 09:56:00 PST

The Joy of Sparkling Stainless Steel and Other Oddities

This morning I awakened to a beautifully clean kitchen counter - one of my odd new daily practices.... and Katherine had made me a pot of coffee. I didn’t ask her to, she just made it for me. Do...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 08:53:00 PST

Remembering on April 3

Today, April 3, is the anniversary of my brother’s death. I have experienced so much loss in my life, I am aware of the significance of days like today yet I had done a damn good job of avoiding...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Thu, 03 Apr 2008 07:11:00 PST

This is what hopeful feels like

Something is happening. This morning as I put Sam’s shoes on he said, "The sad face is for no school." He was so happy to go back to school today. He leaped on the bus and proclaimed, "I have mi...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Tue, 25 Mar 2008 11:21:00 PST

Ay!

Spring break is almost over, thank gawd. I am working on a secret project, I have given myself until April 20 to finish it (which happens to be my mother’s birthday. She will be 76). I have been...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Sun, 23 Mar 2008 09:57:00 PST

Catalina’s Shadow, Again... Yesterday

Last Summer I sat in a circle offriends and said, "It’s still hard. I don’tthink people realize how long it is thatit stays so hard." Now, as the anniversary dates are stackingup so close ...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 07:41:00 PST

On the Edge....

Yes, I know... me and my edge are pretty darn tight these days. I can’t help it, when I am haunted by a topic, I take it all the way. I don’t live around the theme of passion for no reason...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Mon, 17 Mar 2008 11:20:00 PST

Natalie Goldberg Goes for the Jugular

She goes for the jugular, that Natalie Goldberg. I sit in a Bakersfield Laundromat because of incomplete plumbing repairs watching a fifteen-month-old girl with enormous eyes and one hoop earring repe...
Posted by Julie Jordan Scott on Sat, 15 Mar 2008 01:42:00 PST