About Me
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Last updated Thursday, 11-15-07.
Hello! My name is Nikki, and it is a pleasure to meet you.
First of all, I truly believe with all of my heart that everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I try not to force my opinions on other people (altough I am not always successful). It's a very hard thing to do, to respect opinions that are different from mine, but I try as hard as I can.
The best way for me to explain this is the fact that I have a hatred of Pastor Fred Phelps. If you do not know who he is, basically, he is the Pastor of Westboro Basptist Church. He and his "congregation" are known for their protests of the gay lifestyle. They hold up signs in the streets saying "God Hates Fags," "Thank God for 9/11," "You're Going To Hell," and things of that nature. They protest the funerals of soldiers and gay events to my knowledge. Despite my hatred of him and his "church" and wish that they would never again speak, I believe he is completely entitled to his opinion if it is truly what he believes, and that he is every right to say such things. This is my dedication to my belief.
I consider myself asexual, nonsexual, or antisexual. All are proper terms. The best way to define asexual is a lack of sexual desire. (I have written a more extensive blog about asexuality here . This is not a perfect description for me, for there are lots of things that vary amongst people who are asexual. For one, I do experience sexual arousal, but I do not desire to have a sexual partner.
Also, I ONLY find females sexually attractive. I am not a lesbian though; if anything, I am bisexual. I have fallen in love with both males and females, but I do not like to describe myself as bisexual. Currently, I am both in love and involved with an amazing boy named Zach. He is an exception to what I have said above. I love him with all of my heart, and I plan on spending the rest of my life with him. However, he lives almost 2,000 miles away from me, so I am trying to think of a way that we could be together in real life.
I'm not entirely sure if I believe in "God," but I do believe in something. I'm just... not sure what. My beliefs would be considered Pagan, so I call myself a Eclectic Pagan, for I do not follow any particular religion, but I take things I learn from all religions and have my own beliefs. I'm considering following the Wiccan religion, but I have not made my choice yet.
Sadly, I don't know as much about politics as I wish I did, but I work towards learning more, for it is important to me to have well-informed opinions of my own. My political beliefs would be liberal, I suppose. I support gay marriage, I support stem-cell reasearch although I am neutral about abortion, I am unhappy with illegal immigration, I do not support the war in the middle east, I support free healthcare (although I do NOT support and drug and medical industry), I support protecting the enviornment... I think enough has been said. I already know that I plan to vote for Ralph Nader in the 2008 election if he runs. I greatly support Ralph Nader. In the end I say this: My country's government is very corrupt, and I want it to be fixed.I hate the FDA, the FTC, and the fast food industry (especially McDonald's) with a GREAT passion. I can not begin to describe my hatred, disgust, and distrust. I'm not a huge conspiracy theorist, but I do believe in a conspiracy by the aforemention to destroy our health and earn money for it. Again, I can not even begin to get into it, so I think it would be very good for you to learn on your own. I reccomend reading the books "Fast Food Nation" and "Don't Eat This Book" very highly. "Don't Eat This Book" is probably funny enough that most people could read a good deal of it, even if they do not like to read. I also reccommend reading "Natural Cures 'They' Don't Want You to Know About."
What I DON'T like: Homophobia, animal cruelty, drugs, the FDA, people that are "close-minded," people that are selfish and mean, people that judge me before they know anything about me, when people spell my last name with a "z," monkeys, sports, typos, science, atheists, rap, most meat, casual sex, heterosexual sex, extremists. Etc.
What I DO like: People that are always kind and generous, animals that are not monkeys, gothic lolita, J-Rock, foreign music, techno, stuffed animals, irony, culture, math, history, learning, books, gays/lesbians, transgendered people because in my opinion there are no people braver than them, piercings, chocolate and other desserts, fruit, anime, nature, my friends and family. Etc.
I am very insecure. I hate admitting it, but I worry about what other people think. Just... not in the same way that others do. I do not take criticism well. I'm one huge, walking contradiction.
I love the way I look, yet I hate it. I can't stand violence, yet I have a very violent nature. I love making people feel happy, yet I'm rude and hateful. I'm in tune with my emotions, yet get stuck in apathy far too often. I like being happy, yet I like being sad. I am a lonely person, yet I can't stand being around people. In the same way, I love meeting new people, yet am terrified of it at the same time. I'm very shy and quiet, yet I'm loud and obnoxious.
The list goes on and on... I try not to classify myself, but whatever. It's all the same to me. (Though I do call myself an INFP.)I am just me, and that's all I can ever be.
My entire purpose in life is bring others happiness. No matter how mean I can be, I love people, and never mean to hurt anyone. My dream job is to run a homeless shelter. My heart goes out to those people. All I want to do is be that shining light in someone.'s life, or just someone's day. I want to be that stranger that smiles at you while walking down the sidewalk and makes your day just a little bit better. I believe I am too weak right now to do these things as I wish I could... but I believe that I can help many people and even change the world. I really am a caring person... sometimes it's just hard to find that part of me.
I admit that I am a very lonely person. I very, very much long for someone who will be there for me no matter what, who will drop everything if I need them, who will pick up the phone if I call them in the middle of the night and will ask "What took you so long?". I don't neccissarily mean a lover, either, although falling in love sounds nice. I would love to have one friend who can be there for me in every way, and will not push me away when they are troubled. I long for a sibling... I am an only child, and wish, almost more then anything, that I had a brother or sister. Especially a twin, as I am extremely envious of the bond formed between twins.
I suppose this is all for now.
PhantomKingEpros: CRAP
PhantomKingEpros: I forgot what else I was gonna write..
revatoe123: . hmm.... did you include "totally awesome friend, one that anyone would be extremely privileged to have"?
PhantomKingEpros: xD *adds that*
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