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Julia

Howdy pardener. - Hrundi V. Bakshi

About Me



"Circe Invidiosa" - John William Waterhouse


I am the woman of an ancient master
to whom I swore eternal devotion
I am a woman of coloured glass
through whom passes every changing with colours
I am the woman of No One,
and perhaps I am not even a woman.
Matilde Jonas


I am a singer: I perform in an a capella group called "Cloister" which consists of men and women both. To please the musical director I must of course sing with proper technique. However left to my own devices you will most likely hear me crooning deeply, throatily and huskily, which is just the way I like it.

While the voice is now my instrument of choice, I also play guitar (badly), flute (been years), and piano (again, years although I have a keyboard which is a necessity). I used to be a percussionist in a concert band many years ago (like a small orchestra without strings).

As Nietzsche said ... "Life without music would be a mistake."

I am a dilettante. Sadly. I dabble in photography, drawing, poetry and songwriting. And am proficient at none of them ... a "shadow" artist.

Little known fact: I like to draw up astrological birth charts by hand. Requiring much mathematics. And as any muso with any degree of musicianship knows .. music and mathematics are like peas and carrots! Not that I enjoy mathematics :-)
One thing everyone must know about me - I am random. I am so random it is not even funny. The dictionary definition of 'randomness' that applies to me is: "an act of changing the universe by interspersing seemingly pointless information and action throughout time and space thereby breaking restrictions." Now the key word here is "seemingly". It may appear pointless to other people, but it isn't. There's always a reason. And while I may not change the universe, I do tend to confuse the crap out of people lol!

Wormwood Raindrops - Imogene



"The Kiss" - Max Ernst
I am intrigued by the edgy, unusual, off-beat, avante garde and thought provoking. But I also enjoy solitude, simplicity and serenity.

I am turned on by people who are original, creative, authentic, intelligent, and out there. I am blessed with a small circle of true friends who understand what I am.

I have a really big sense of the ridiculous.

I've been called outgoing (can't figure that one out because I most definitely am not), empathic, caring, intelligent, serious, a worrywort, intense, earthy, quick with a one-liner, sensitive, overly sensitive, honest, deep, funny, weird ... Good and bad. Not everyone understands my sense of humour, which can be in turns off-beat or cynical. Some people are intimidated by my 'differentness'. Yet in reality I am shy, introverted and overly analytical of myself. I acknowledge my flaws, and generally like who I am, who I am becoming, and who I could be.

I dislike superficiality, bullshit, egoists, beetroot, bigotry, arrogance, I and worms scare the absolute shit out of me.

I am a nocturnal mammal in a diurnal world. (Or maybe a crepuscular creature!) Ergo, I am an insomniac.


'Sirens' - Arthur Rackham

My Interests


"Scornful" - Egon Schiele


Music music music. Listening/playing/singing. Film - old, indie, arthouse, foreign. Photography. Art. Literature. Poetry. Ballet (check out my videos in my video section). Creativity. Web-design, wine & cheese, silence, rainy days, good food, dreaming about travel - incessantly, wine & cheese, people with beautiful souls, solitude, good company, coffee, depth, conversations with mature and intelligent people, geek-shit, jewellery-making (wire wrapping), philsophical and esoteric ponderings, metaphysics, spending money at Amazon and iTunes... and did I say wine & cheese?

I have a fondness for vintage poster-art and postcards:



"Race to the Market, Tahiti" - Nicholas Chevalier


I'd like to meet:

People who dance to the beat of a different drum. See above ... creative people, intelligent people, original & authentic people. Music/film/book buffs. Lovers of cheese, red-wine and soul. But the one thing I require is integrity. You don't have it ... dont' come knockin'.


“So much depends on human beings
at this moment finding each other:
though like different worlds they meet,
they should in unity create great things.”
— Rudolf Steiner




"Relativity" - MC Escher



*** On Friend Requests ***

I am interested in meeting like minded people here. I'm NOT interested in friend requests from random people simply because you like my profile pic, want me for your wall'o'whores, want me to boost your numbers (Nobody has 1000 friends), want me to read your blog, or any other reason other that we may have some things in common and might become friends. Hence my small-ish list. I don't accept requests for the sake of it. And I will no longer accept requests if you are set to private and I can't see your profile.




"Creación de las Aves" - Remedios Varo




"La Tentación de San Antonio" - Salvador Dali

Music:

Myspace finds Imogene, Montoya, Belle Atmos. Yo La Tengo, Belle & Sebastian, Velvet Underground, Pink Floyd, The Moody Blues, The Doors, Donovan, The Beatles, Cat Stevens, Midnight Oil, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Clash, The Stranglers, The Living End, Buzzcocks, The Stooges, Siouxsie & the Banshees, The Cure, Public Image Ltd, Les Claypool, Ween, Sonic Youth, Pixies, Frank Black & the Catholics, Radiohead, Portishead, Bjork, Lamb, Air, Oslo, Interpol, Editors, Cat Power, Emiliana Torrini, PJ Harvey, Fiona Apple, Liz Phair, Lou Rhodes, Sia, Lelia Broussard, Frou Frou, Groove Amarda, Hans Zimmer, Lou Reed, Herbie Hancock, Jeff Buckley, Nick Drake, Elliot Smith (what is it with the beautiful tortured departed souls??), Debussy, Ravel, Tchaikovsky, Rachmaninoff, Mazzy Star, Nina Simone, Penguin Cafe Orchestra, Ravi Shankar, Gustavo Santaolalla, Thievery Corporation, trip-hop occasionally, you want more????


Peter Max posters



"Tritons" - Rupert Bunny


Movies:

Jim Jarmusch, Spike Lee, Fellini, Bertolucci, Robert Altman, the Coen Bros, Scorsese, Wim Wenders, Francis Ford Coppola, David Lynch, Monty Python, Akira Kuwosara's Dreams, A Woman Under the Influence, Blue in the Face (Paul Auster & Wayne Wang), Crash, 21 Grams, Hideous Kinky, The Piano, Basquiat, Downtown 81, Being John Malkovich, Groundhog Day, The Lord of the Rings trilogy, Donnie Darko, Amadeus, Excalibur, Kundun, Baraka, Iranian movies, Bollywood movies, Amores Perros, Monsoon Wedding, Salaam Bombay!, The Motorcycle Diaries, Like Water for Chocolate, Amelie, Y tu mamá también, funny old B-movies (eg Faster Pussycat Kill! Kill! and Forbidden Planet), Blacula, Picnic at Hanging Rock, Walkabout, My Brilliant Career, Sirens, Ten Canoes, Muriel's Wedding, A Passage to India, My Fair Lady, Cat on a Hot Tin Roof, Breakfast at Tiffanys, An Affair to Remember, The Party, I Love You Alice B. Toklas!, American Graffiti, Harold & Maude and a million more I can't think of at this second.


'The Icebergs' - Frederic Edwin Church


"It's All Right By Me" - Tom Waits, directed by Jim Jarmusch. From the "Down by Law" Critierion Collection dvd.

It's All Right With Me

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"Pan" - Sydney Long

Television:

is something you plug a dvd player into. Oh okay, I admit ... I do turn it on ... but!! primarily to watch only TCM, Fox Classics and World Movies. The only appointment tv for me is the British series Most Haunted. I do miss: Northern Exposure, Star Trek, Seachange, Friday Night Creature Features, The Twilight Zone, Tales from the Crypt, Alfred Hitchcock Presents, Sex & the City, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Catweasel, The Goodies.

Books:

I unashamedly love books. I particularly love old books - the older the better. I can actually get high on the smell of them. There is nothing like having an old, smelly book in your hands :-) Bliss. Reading is not just about your eyes. It's about the smell of the book, and the feel of the pages ... and language. I love language. Ever wondered why a lot of opera singers are fat? Because singing is a sensual oral experience ... like the sensual experience of food. Same with language for me ... good language rolls around in your mouth. Reading The God of Small Things is like eating ripe juicy mangoes.

Faves: The Awakening - Kate Chopin. The Diary of Anais Nin. Siddhartha - Hermann Hesse, The God of Small Things - Arundhati Roy, 100 Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Life of Pi - Yann Martel, House of Leaves - Mark Z Danielewski, The History of Love - Nicole Krauss, The Inheritance of Loss - Kiran Desai, Australian authors Thea Astley, Tim Winton, Kate Grenville, Peter Carey. Carlos Castaneda & JRR Tolkein (lumped together because I first read LOTR and the first 5 Castaneda books when I was 13 - can you imagine how that blew a 13yo mind? lol), Hunter S. Thompson, Jack Kerouac, Nietzsche, The Poisonwood Bible - Barbara Kingsolver, Jane Austen, Goethe, Edgar Allan Poe, Sylvia Plath, Pablo Neruda, The Oxford Book of Gothic Tales, The Oxford Book of Ghost Stories, John Steinbeck, Eric Maisel's coaching books on creativity, Original Self: Living with paradox and originality - Thomas Moore, Rudolf Steiner (occasionally - he is very heavy going), Stephen King's older works, basically anything that catches my fancy. Oh ... and (blush) I collect old 'pony' books. Young girls books from the 30s, 40s, 50s and 60s about ponies and horses. A leftover from my childhood. As is the penchant for ghost stories.



"Flamingos" - Sydney Long

Heroes:

My creative web - my writer friends, my musician friends, my artist friends - who all inspire me. Truth-tellers, soul-lovers, deep-thinkers and people with integrity of self--most importantly.



"Mystery and Melancholy of a Street" - de Chirico


"Sex Without Love"
- Sharon Olds

How do they do it, the ones who make love
without love? Beautiful as dancers,
gliding over each other like ice-skaters
over the ice, fingers hooked
inside each other's bodies, faces
red as steak, wine, wet as the
children at birth whose mothers are going to
give them away. How do they come to the
come to the come to the God come to the
still waters, and not love
the one who came there with them, light
rising slowly as steam off their joined
skin? These are the true religious,
the purists, the pros, the ones who will not
accept a false Messiah, love the
priest instead of the God. They do not
mistake the lover for their own pleasure,
they are like great runners: they know they are alone
with the road surface, the cold, the wind,
the fit of their shoes, their over-all cardio-
vascular health--just factors, like the partner
in the bed, and not the truth, which is the
single body alone in the universe
against its own best time.



Medicine (Hygieia) - Gustav Klimt



"Elle Loge La Folie" - Robert Matta



Premonicion - Remedios Varo


My Blog

The first step to new beginnings

Irony. I sit here looking at the blank screen not knowing how to begin.Yesterday I took the first definitive step in what is the beginning of my new life. How incredibly trite and cliched that sounds....
Posted by Julia on Thu, 06 Sep 2007 10:45:00 PST

Cutting the apron strings one thread more

I'm a big proponent of coffee and chocolate as therapy. And I'm indulging my little fit of sadness right now.Today, for a couple of hours, is a reflective - teensy bit sad day. One step closer to my l...
Posted by Julia on Thu, 06 Sep 2007 05:08:00 PST

A date with an artist (with photos to prove it!)

Yes ... today I had an 'artists date' with myself (a la Julia Cameron's "The Artists Way"). It came over deliciously cloudy this afternoon and start to rain a little, so I took myself off to that ceme...
Posted by Julia on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 08:06:00 PST

I DETEST Humbert Humbert with a passion

A little while ago I saw Stanley Kubrick's "Lolita" on TCM. I haven't seen the remake - I don't want to see the remake. Why is there a need to remake something anyway when it has been so well done bef...
Posted by Julia on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 01:17:00 PST

Thoughts on a funeral

Yesterday I had to attend the funeral of Liam's great grandmother on his paternal side. It was only a graveside service as the family is not religious (or spiritual) in the slightest, nothing like the...
Posted by Julia on Sat, 01 Sep 2007 11:30:00 PST

The souls first need is poetic madness.

A chapter from one of my favourite books that helps in times of turmoil. ("Original Self. Living with Paradox and Authenticity" - Thomas Moore.)The soul is not nearly as rational as the egoThe soul is...
Posted by Julia on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 11:30:00 PST

Mad Girls Love Song

Mad Girl's Love Song - Sylvia Plath      I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;I lift my lids and all is born again.(I think I made you up inside my head.)The stars go waltzi...
Posted by Julia on Sat, 25 Aug 2007 06:05:00 PST

good things

Last night I won something on ebay which totally made me squee. An unusual and beautiful thing--a perfect present for someone. Something that should have cost four or five times the amount it did. I'm...
Posted by Julia on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 07:40:00 PST

I am but a silky fragment of a woman

Because I am feeling edgy and cynical ... another lazy post of Anais Nin extracts that speak to me personally. One where I do none of the writing. Because if I write I'll just be dark. Damn the traito...
Posted by Julia on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 08:50:00 PST

Tidal waves, evil houses and kinky sex games

Nothing is as revealing of the darkest recesses of a persons psyche than their dreams and here I guess I'm going to be brave (or incredibly stupid) and expose some of my recesses.Recurring dreams in p...
Posted by Julia on Mon, 20 Aug 2007 07:28:00 PST