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♫Nocturnal Mistress Ratajczyk♫

Look down on me, you will see a fool. Look up at me, you will see your Lord. Look straight at me, yo

About Me

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- I AM A SINGLE MOTHER OF A 3 YEAR OLD BOY. I AM VERY OPEN MINDED AND OPINIATED. DONT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT I AM NOT SENTIMENTAL AND TENDERHEARTED. WHEN I LOVE SOMETHING I BELIEVE IN LIKE MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, CAUSES, ANIMALS I LOVE WITH MY ENTIRE BEING. ITS VERY HARD FOR ME TO LET GO OF THINGS. ESPICALLY THE LOVED ONES I HAVE LOST TO DEATH...BE IT PERSONS OR ANIMALS. ITS HARDER FOR ME TO DEAL WITH THE DEATH OF AN ANIMAL I HAVE HAD FOR A PET. WELL, I HAD THOUGHT SO UNTIL MY HUSBAND OF 7 MONTHS PASSED AWAY AT 45 WITH A BLEEDING ULCER. I AM STILL DEALING WITH THAT, BUT GETTING BETTER. I DO PRETTY GOOD AND THEN A CERTAIN SONG HERE AND THERE WILL COME ON AND I WILL NOT BE SO OK WITH IT ANYMORE. ALL OF THOSE MEMORIES AND DREAMS COME RUSHING BACK. KNOWING THOSE DREAMS CAN STILL COME TRUE THROUGH OUR SON DOES PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE. I HATE THE FACT THAT MY SON HAS TO GROW UP WITHOUT HIS DADDY THO. JUST MY MEMORIES OF HIM. WHICH WERENT A WHOLE LOT. WE ONLY KNEW ONE ANOTHER 21 MONTHS. MY BOY IS MY WORLD. MY BOY IS THEE REASON I AM STILL HERE. MY SON IS QUITE THE LITTLE FIGHTER COMING INTO THIS WORLD AT ONLY 1 POUND 10 OUNCES AND AT 23 WEEKS. HE FOUGHT A HARD BATTLE WITH HIS LUNGS WHEN HE FIRST GOT HERE. HE ACTUALLY ONLY HAD A 5% CHANCE TO LIVE. MY SON IS NOW A HEALTHY 3 YEAR OLD LITTLE MONSTER!! AND I SAY THAT WITH ALL OF THE LOVE THAT IS BOILING UP INSIDE OF ME AT THE MOMENT. I LOVE THAT LITTLE BOY WITH ALL OF MY HEART. I OWE HIM ALOT AND I DO THEE VERY BEST THAT I CAN FOR HIM. HE IS BLIND IN HIS RIGHT EYE AND CANT SEE TOO FAR OUT OF HIS LEFT BUT HE CAN SEE. THEY WERE TELLING ME WHEN HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL THE FIRST 7 MONTHS OF HIS LIFE THAT HE MAY NOT SEE EVEN AFTER A VITRICTOMY AND LASIX. BUT I PRAYED THAT MY SON WOULD BE ABLE TO AT LEAST SEE A PICTURE OF WHAT HIS DADDY LOOKS LIKE. AND HE CAN. AND ANOTHER THING ABOUT ME IS I STAND UP FOR ANIMAL RIGHTS. WHAT YOU WILL SEE BELOW WILL HOPEFULLY UPSET YOU AND MAKE YOU SO MAD THAT YOU WANT TO STAND UP FOR THEIR RIGHTS ALSO. WE ARE THE ONLY VOICES THAT ANIMALS HAVE AND WE NEED TO MAKE THIS WORLD ACCORDINGLY FOR ALL OF US...HUMANS, ANIMALS, TREES, THE ENVIRONMENT. THIS IS ALL WE HAVE. ANIMALS ARE HERE FOR US TO ENJOY IN THEIR ELEMENTS AND NOT AS FUR, TORTURE, TESTING ANIMALS...ETC. SORRY IF IT OFFENDS YOU, BUT I AM JUST PUTTING THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER OUT THERE FOR ALL TO SEE THE REALITY OF LIFE FOR SOME OF OUR CREATURES. STOP ANIMAL ABUSE AND BREED PROFILING. NEVER WISH FOR MORE THAN YOU ALREADY HAVE... Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to? Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn. Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow. Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement. Be thankful for each new challenge, because it will build your strength and character. Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons. Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made a difference. It's easy to be thankful for the good things. A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks. Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive. Find a way to be thankful for your troubles, and they can become your blessings. - - - - - - - - - - - (THANKS DEB!!!) -
Aloof and animalistic, you belong to the Gangrel Clan. Closely associated with werewolves, you are the shapeshifting vampire. You prefer nature than to live in the city and prefer the company of animals than of humans. You are more known to keep to yourself then to help others. You are the lone wolf of the decendents of Caine.
What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To? - The Sun Rises, Again As the sun rises each day, A new beginning can be seen, Newness is created with the light, Revealing a beautiful image, pristine.So it is with our friends, With each new birth, a dawning, And when the sun has set for our older friends, Their spirit, we are mourning.But, the promise of a new day, Will come to cheer us all, Ushering in a brand new hope, To comfort, daylight’s fall.We never forget the many days, That, our friends, did shine, All the happiness that they did bring, To us, in their lifetime.The sun rises, again, The memories unfold, The sadness is slowly eased, By the promise, we’ve been told.The promise is a simple one, Given in love by our friends, That their spirit is renewed in us, Each time, the sun rises, again.

My Interests

BIKER'S PRAYER May the sun rise in front of you, may the rain fall behind you and the wind follow you. May the angels of your brothers and sisters who have gone before you guard your travels, for they know the perils of the road ahead of you. Keep safe through the rough city streets on your way to the land of the swirling turns and rolling hills. Let the turning colors of fall keep you warm. Let the eagle guide you to the mountain tops. Let the Moon's light guide you through the night. May your tires not fail you, nor your engine grow old. May your bike draw life from the streams you pass. Keep your seat soft and your mind sharp. Let the air of spring breathe life into your soul, to journey to another adventure beside your brothers and sisters. Keep the rubber on the road! - You can shed tears that they have gone or you can smile because they lived. You can close your eyes and pray that they'll come back or you can open your eyes and see all theyve left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see them or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember them and only that theyve gone or you can cherish their memory and let it live on. You can cry and lose your mind, be empty and turn your back or you can do what they'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on. - CURRENT MOON moon phase info - - - - - - - -

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Add to My Profile | More Videos - - - - DENY THE SUN - JOE (BABY) & GENNA BRUTTO - SAM BRUTTO...HES SO ADORABLE!! - MY GOOD FRIEND FROM CANADA...JAMIE. MUCH LOVE!! - MY FRIEND BRANDON! ADORABLE. - - - JOE HOLLOW & NIK BLOODSTORM. BROTHERS DEEP IN BLOOD.

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DRAVEN AIRBRUSH by RANDY PRAUSE TATTOOIST AT PERMANENT BUZZ TATTOO in DENVILLE, NJ. - - LOST BOYS - LET IT GOThere are people who will walk away from you. Or hurt you. Or not love you. Or not 'see' you. And hear me when I tell you this - when people try to walk away from you: let them go. Don't try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone if you need to. When people turn from you, let them go. They're on their way to somewhere or something else: somewhere or something that does not include you and let me tell why that is okay...Your destiny is never tied to anybody or anything that left. People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, it's best they do not stay. Let them go. And it only means their part in your story is over. And it's good to know when people's part is over so you don't keep trying to push something that doesn't need to be. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, and I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever I need, I will have available to me, without convincing it to be a part of my life.LET IT GO. If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong and is not good for you, then you need to.....LET IT GO.

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I SUPPORT THE FOLLOWING: - - - - - - - - THIS INFANT DIED AT THE HANDS OF A HUMAN. MOST LIKELY, AS WITH MOST CASES, PROBABLY AT THE HANDS OF A PARENT OR OTHER FAMILY MEMBER. EVEN A BABYSITTER IS CAPABLE OF THIS SORT OF MURDER. - - - - - - - - - - - - - DO NOT KILL FOR THEIR FUR...THEY LOOK BETTER IN IT THAN YOU WOULD ANYWAY.

Books:

ARTS EPITAPH USED WITH PERMISSION BY MAKER POISON SNAKESCANDY. DO NOT RIP FROM MY PAGE. - Vampire dreams, dark and sinister
Vampire kiss, sweet and bloody." " A GIFT FROM RICK. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I FOUND THIS AND I THINK IT IS THEE MOST PRECIOUS MOMENT. SOLITUDE WITHIN ONES SELF I WOULD CALL IT. AT AWE OF THE BIRD. TO HAVE HELD A REAL ONE IN YOUR LIFE. YOU NEVER FORGET THAT MOMENT. THERE WAS SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL INSIDE OF THAT BIRD AND YOU WANTED TO HELP IT HELP YOU. ANIMALS UNDERSTAND HUMANS MORE THAN WE THINK. ANIMALS ARE NOT STUPID. ANIMALS FEEL. THEY LOVE. THEY ARE HAPPY TO BE THERE AND BE YOUR COMPANION. LOYAL. ITS HARD FOR ME TO SEE ANY OF THIS IN THE WORLD TODAY. EVERYBODY IS OUT FOR THEMSELVES. IM NOT LIKE THAT. IF YOU ARE THATS YOUR THING. I DONT HAVE A PROBLEM. JUST NOT MY THING. I HAVE COME ACROSS SO MANY RELIGIONS HERE IN MYSPACE. THEY ARE ALL SO MUCH ALIKE. I SEE IT AS ALL GODS ARE ONE GOD. WHOMEVER SOMEONE PRAYS TO OR WORSHIPS, THATS THEIR THING. IM NOT HERE FOR YOUR RELIGION. I AM HERE FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIP.
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Heroes:


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MY SWEET LITTLE BEANS. WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT MEWhen tomorrow starts without me, And I am not there to see If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn’t cry The way you did today, While thinking of so many things, We didn’t get to say. I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know You’ll miss me too. But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In Heaven far above, And that I’d have to leave behind All those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye. For all my life, I’d always thought I didn’t want to die. I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays The good ones and bad, I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, I’d say goodbye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. But then, I fully realized That this could never be,For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me. My heart was filled with sorrow. But when I walked through Heaven’s gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne, He said, “This is eternity And all I’ve promised you.” Today your life on earth is past, But here life starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, And since each day’s the same way There’s no longing for the past. You have been so faithful, So trusting and true. Though there were times You did some things You knew you shouldn’t do. But you have been forgiven And now at last you are free. So when tomorrow starts without me, Don’t think we are far apart, For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart. - VAL, ME, MICKEY AND TIM BOWLING IN 2002. I BELIEVE IT WAS FOR MY BIRTHDAY. - THIS IS FUNNY!!! A GIFT FROM BRANDON.

My Blog

DENY THE SUN

THANKS FOR LOOKING INTO THIS BULLETIN. NEXT TO TYPE O NEGATIVE IN MY BOOK, DENY THE SUN IS A SIN*SATIONAL BAND OUT OF THE ERIE, PA AREA. THEY HAVE BEEN KNOCKED DOWN AND KICKED AROUND BY THE METAL SCEN...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 04:36:00 PST

CHARLIE DANIELS SPEAK OUT ABOUT IMMIGRATION LAWS...

HATS OFF TO CHARLIE DANIELS....AT LEAST HE HAS THE COURAGE TO SPEAK HIS MIND!!! I don't know how everybody else feels about it, but to me I thinkHispanic people in this country, legally or illegally, ...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Sun, 03 Jun 2007 01:55:00 PST

BEFORE YOU ADD ME AS A FRIEND...

I AM NOT HERE FOR BEING A NUMBER ON SOMEONEs PROFILE. I AM LOOKING FOR PEOPLE TO BE FRIENDS ON HERE. I AM NOT LOOKING TO "HOOK UP" WITH ANYONE...SO IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT...TAKE IT ELSEWHERE. I LEAVE ...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Thu, 31 May 2007 01:50:00 PST

LIFE

WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT MEWhen tomorrow starts without me,And I am not there to seeIf the sun should rise and find your eyesAll filled with tears for me;I wish so much you wouldn't cryThe way you...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Thu, 31 May 2007 11:00:00 PST

FOR ANY MOM AND DADDY WHO HAS LOST...

I'm just a little baby who didn't quite make it there; I went straight to be with Jesus but I'm waiting for you here. Don't you fret about me mommy I'm of all God's most blessed I'd have loved to sta...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Thu, 31 May 2007 10:27:00 PST

DARK BETRAYAL

AROUND, ALL AROUND, THE SOMBER MEMORIES GATHER.MY DREAD GROWS AS THE CURSE OF YOUR WORDS FALL AGAINST MY SHATTERED SOUL.IT WOUNDS ME AND MY INFERNAL ESSENCE DRIPS TO THE DESPAIRING LEAVES. IN NUMBNESS...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Sat, 19 May 2007 07:17:00 PST

ETERNAL LOVE

IT IS A NIGHT OF LUSTFUL SORROW, A SONG OF DARK DESIRE.I DELUDE MYSELF WITH DREAMS OF MY VISIONARY LOVE.WOLVES VENT THEIR LONELINESS.THE IMMORTAL ONE WAKENS.ICY WHISPS OF DEATH SHROUDS HIS GAUNT FORM....
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Fri, 18 May 2007 03:21:00 PST

POEM I WROTE FOR MY HUSBAND 5/14/2002 SHORTLY AFTER WE MET.

you walked into my lifelike a leaf in the breeze. you stole my heart with compassion and ease. you have become everything that is precious to me. i love you more with each passing day.i pray that thi...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Fri, 04 May 2007 10:56:00 PST

GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS.

A cold January wind danced around the dead of night in Omaha as the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Mary Wolfe. She was still groggy from surgery. Her husband, Tim, had recently passed a...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Thu, 03 May 2007 12:41:00 PST

HOW IT GOES by SAMMY

how it goes. lips queiver. arms shake. she knows whats at stake. her heart tearing. her body chilling. to the point. her mascara runs. eyeliner floods the bathroom sink. the combination turns it&nbs...
Posted by Nocturnal Mistress on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 10:19:00 PST