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About Me


Here lately, I have becoming more Assertive in my way of doing things, my views, my actions... All my life I have been, what one might say, a doormat. I've always been afraid of "stepping on ppl's toes", or saying the wrong thing, or making others mad at me, or hurting their feelings.. I've always accomodated others, putting their needs above my own, letting others have the "first pick, the first say", be higher up than me. I feel like my actions are all falling into place, that I am right where I need to be. I know i must become more assertive in my business dealings, so naturally I will become more assertive in my personal life. To others I may sound or act like a selfish bitch. Fine. Think what you will, I really don't give a shit. I am on my road to recovery, to uncover my true self, and if I have to loose friends along the way, I have to trust that its all for the best. The Best for ME. So maybe I am an Onion... and this is another layer of me peeling away, showing the world who I am, who I'm supposed to be. I am stubborn, mindful, strong-willed, curious, particular. If you don't like those qualities in a woman, then please move on. Because I don't need negativity when I am working on being more positive about myself.
I tend to be very sensitive, kind-hearted, impatient, stubborn as all hell, (I'm a bull and proud of it damnit!), a tad bit vain and also a tad bit o.c.d., selfish, modest, bossy, picky, lazy, too-organized-for-my-own-good, I hate making left-hand turns, hell, i'll make a block or several blocks all to avoid making that left-hand turn! I have poor posture and I am a little overweight. If anything I say or do now disturbs you, or makes you "turn away from me", then fuck off. You're not worth my time. But for those of you that feel like they can tolerate me (HAHA), well then, I tend to spoil the ones I love or care deeply about, friends, loved ones, family, whichever.. But if I at all feel like my generosity is being taken advantage of, I will yank you off my good list and plant you on my shit list, and you will no longer feel any love or generosity from me.
I'm a lover of Nature, of everything GREEN--plants or money or evergreen trees. I love being in the mountain air on a gorgeous, breezy summer day, or swimming in a pool or lake, I hate and I'm scared of Flying, but I really want to para-sail someday. I love to snow-ski and go browse through Antique Stores. I don't like people telling me what to do and how to do it, unless I'm feeling super lazy or extremely confused, and I'd rather someone else do something for me anyways! Yea, and I tend to be a hypocrite.
Life is soo strange and beautiful in my world.. The future fascinates me and makes me anxious, but it can also scare the shit out of me at the same time. I have an Extremely hard time with change, most of the time its "safe" in my fantasy world where everything stays the same. But, from recent experiences, I am, day by day, working on changing With the Wheels of Life, instead of Against them. I can get frustrated and flustered easily, esp. when it comes to computers running slow, or other drivers, or ppl not understanding me or my intentions, or anything to do with Math, or Murphy's Law f*ckin with me yet again... lots more, haha..
Yes, yes, I AM a Drama Queen, I am a very easy-going, sharing, kind, polite, loving kind of person. Though, if I am provoked, or feel like I'm getting taken advantage of, you shall meet the bitch, selfish, snobby, red-eyed nose-flaring stubborn can-be-mean-as-all-hell Bull of me. I will make you feel like shit and I will enjoy every minute of it. Anything I have to do to get my point across, and being a bitch is usually the way to go. (Sorry, but I feel as thought I'm a doormat if I don't do anything anymore.)
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You are a Look Before You Leap, Yellow Light Dater
When it comes to the dating game, you fall in the middle
You aren't going to ask out any cute guy that comes your way
That doesn't mean you're a total wall-flower though.
You'll smile and flirt - for Mr. Almost Perfect.
You're .. dating style?
You're wired to spend time reading profiles carefully
Once you figure out what you want, you'll make a few connections What's Your Dating Speed?
Your Love Element Is Metal
In love, you inspire and respect your partner.
For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.
You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.
Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.
You connect best with: Earth
Avoid: Fire
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My Interests

Changes...whoa whoa whoa Chaa-nges.... Changing myself for the better so that I will love ME....staying alive, taking one day at a time.... popping migrane pills everyday and listening to loud fuckin music....Loving men that have given up on me and do not love me...You know what, what the fuck ever... I stay up until the wee part of the morning, i sleep in until mid afternoon, i get up, i drink my two cups of coffee, i turn on the computer, and away i sit until i get up again...and then i sit somemore. I miss goin out and dancing at clubs to techno or cheesy 80's music, no one ever wants to dance anymore but me... i love coffee houses, but once again, can't find anyone to go sit and contemplate with me... I love men and women, but can't find any gender to play with me... My head and heart is broken right now, but I am working on correcting that problem... Life can be soo mean and cruel, and it seems like I always get the short end of the stick. But keep on swimming i tell myself day after day. Maybe someday I'll finally be at peace with myself.

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What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You
You are a very considerate person, but that doesn't mean you let people walk all over you.

Your idea of fashion is jeans and a t-shirt. Clean, if you're lucky.

You are a very outgoing person. You are true to yourself, and you never hold back.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return. What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?
What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to.

You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities.

You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself.

Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust. Inside the Room of Your SoulGet Your Own! | View Slideshow Which Rocky Horror character are you?
You are Riff-Raff. You have some freaky astro-boy hair later on in this movie!
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I'd like to meet:

People who aren't afraid to attune themselves with God, Mother Earth, to be able to sit calmly and meditate in Nature... laid back ppl, like me, who can be an earthly homebody, just chillin and playing video games, watchin tv or movies, or a occasional social butterfly, venturing outside of their norm, dancing or bowling or shooting pool at the local bars or clubs..

Someone who can understand my quiet, untalkative, introverted moments, and who can appreciate my off the wall, perverted, silly and crazy moments! I'd really like to meet someone who isn't superficial. Someone who will like/love me for who I am, and what I look like. Not just one or the other. I should be #1 in your eye, at all times! I must have emphatic, sympathic, kind, intelligent, easy-going, animal loving kind of people in my little world. Honesty is always great, but honest with TACT is even Better. People in DFW area with similar interests and taste. Looking for someone with touchy-feely attitude and seeking a fun, beneficial, short-term relationship, or a fun and flirty "F.w/B.". With self-motivation and the ability for forgiveness. I want someone who is willing to manage their own money well, and be able to spoil me with gifts and affection.. Someone that I can care for. Honesty, Compassion, and Empathy rate high on my list. If you like to cuddle and chill out most of the time, we could get along very well. And I love freckles, sideburns, average-skinny, long hair, mysterious eyes, and if you're great in bed, then we should get together and talk..hehe

My past life self, so that I may get insights on what was once. The ghosts that hang around me sometimes. My older sister, for I feel that since the tradegy, I know longer know her.. The old woman of me, so i can see if she is indeed, truely happy, or do her worries and fears still plague her...
Who I DON'T Prefer, but might with proper persuasion or Compromise:
*people who expect me to change just because they're not satisfied with the way I look
*people who don't like animals, esp. doggies and kitties
*people who think Snakes or Taranultas are Cool
*close-minded people or big gossip heads!
*Dishonest people.-There's enuff dishonesty in the world(i should know)
*Severe Impractical People as far as money and material possessions. My motto is "save a penny(or a ton of) for a rainy day!"
*Reckless fools.Please! no severe cases of dangerous road rage! LOL

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Music:


The Bravery, Tom Petty, CCR, Duran Duran, Engima, Blink 182, Linkin Park
The Flaming Lips, Pixies, Mazzy Star, Dido, Fleetwood Mac
Foo Fighters, Madonna, Lorrenna McKennitt, Primal Scream, BT, Paul Oakenfold, Orbital, Bucketheads, The Moody Blues
I'll usually listen to anything, as long as its not "bounce the booty rap/hip hop"!!
whatever is on the radio, alternative, 90's alternative rock, classic rock, techno,jazz, classical, big band, blues,celtic..my car dials are always set to The Edge, JackFM, K-Love, TheBone,etc..

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Movies:

The Princess Bride, SpiderMan, National Treasure, Cirque de Solei, Aeon Flux, Star Wars, Never Been Kissed, Charlie's Angels, 50 First Dates, What A Girl Wants, Sin City, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, E.T., Poison Ivy, Firestarter, Bring It On, Cocktail, Top Gun, Waterboy, Bruce Almighty, Twister, The Matrix,
the poltergist movies, the Nightmare on Elm St. movies, Stephen King movies, Dawn of the Dead, The Amitiville Horror movies, Tales From The Darkside, House of Wax, Stir of Echoes, Cabin by the Lake, House of the Damned, Waxwork, etc..
War of the Worlds, Twighlight Zone, choatic death and destruction type movies,
David Spade movies, Lady and the Tramp, a bunch of other disney movies...
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Television:

GREY'S ANATOMY, MEDIUM, SCRUBS, HEREOS, HOUSE, GHOST HUNTERS, 4400
LATE NIGHT WITH CONAN O'BRIEN, THE ELLEN SHOW
Reruns: Cheers, Firefly, Xena, LHONP, Kingdom Hospital, X-Files, oh and sometimes I enjoy watching G4, HGTV, NGEO, and Animal Planet. all other faves are below:

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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Sharla
Birthday: May 1, 1977
Birthplace: Wichita Falls, TX (nearly in an elevator)
Current Location: Somewhere in my head, fort worth texas
Eye Color: hazel
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'6 1/2"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right, but I do things just about as equally as I do with my Left Hand, my 1st cousin is left-handed, so ya neva know...
Your Heritage: German, Polish, Irish, and probably some Native American
The Shoes You Wore Today: haven't made it that far yet, but i'm wearing my furry slipper socks
Your Weakness: life, men, being able to cope with change as it comes, having something remind me of a dead relative, not having the ability to pretend like everything is peachy when its really shitty
Your Fears: more heartbreak, mean ppl, recklessness, dishonesty, liars, manipulators, snakes, tarantulas, recognizing the truth for what it is, loosing my parents to the enviteable death, being alone, not ever finding someone who will truely value and love ME...but hey, all i want right now is BangBangBang....
Your Perfect Pizza: lean cuisine frenchbread pizza and Amy's cheese pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to live and not give in to death
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: ttyl or lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: i should just lie here and wait to fall back asleep, or call a random guy to have sex....but wait, i'm hungry and i want coffee, so fuck it, i guess i have to leave my bedroom
Your Best Physical Feature: my eyes, because if i don't like what i see, i can just close them and make it all go away
Your Bedtime: i have insomnia... stress related....my "bedtime" is fuckin whenever i fall asleep
Your Most Missed Memory: being blissfully unwareingly happy
Pepsi or Coke: neither, i drink sprite or diet DP
MacDonalds or Burger King: neither, schlotzchy's or subway
Single or Group Dates: neither, i just wanna fuck
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton peach tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: both
Do you Smoke: yes, and even tho i've cut down alot, it is now giving me asthma
Do you Sing: in the shower, in the car
Do you Shower Daily: no, 2 or 3 times a week--if i start getting laid more often, then yea, i'll shower more..LOL
&..39;Have you Been in Love:' too many times... i hate love...love can fuckin bite it...it doesn't fuckin exist...not in my world anyways
Do you want to go to College: been there, haven't finished that
Do you want to get Married: used to, but no, not anymore.... besides, can't find anyone who not only loves the fact that i'm fantastic in bed, but that also loves my personality, my body, my thoughts, ideas, and opinions.....
Do you belive in yourself: i believe that if i have lived another day, then they haven't won...yet...
Do you get Motion Sickness: I do now as an adult, yes
Do you think you are Attractive: i do now that i'm loosing weight, but everything thinks i'm crazy, so what does it matter? crazy is as crazy does
Are you a Health Freak: no, well, sort of
Do you get along with your Parents: yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: i'm the one out there video taping it and having organisms every time the lightening strikes....
Do you play an Instrument: used to play clairinet in high school... and attended some drum circles with my lil drum in the early college days...
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no, but have thought about it
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: yes, i get dumped every day
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: yes, i steal the thoughts of what others are really thinking of me
Ever been Drunk: yes, too many times to count
Ever been called a Tease: yes
Ever been Beaten up: no, never been in a fight with a person, but with a wall, that's another story...but i'm great in bed! LOL
Ever Shoplifted: yes
How do you want to Die: soon
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: happy
What country would you most like to Visit: Its a toss up between Germany or Ireland
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue
Favourite Hair Color: any
Short or Long Hair: either
Height: not too much taller than me, not too much shorter than me
Weight: average weight, a little under or alittle more would be fine too
Best Clothing Style: as long as they're comfy, it doesn't matter, although, i'm a t-shirt&jeans kind of girl, so i would feel more comfortable around the same thing
Number of Drugs I have taken: too many to count!! i want more tho
Number of CDs I own: too many to count
Number of Piercings: none, I'm allergic to steel and nickel, plus never felt a real need for piercings.. fine for others, just not for me
Number of Tattoos: none, i'm a little chicken to get a permanent one, i'm much too indecisive!
Number of things in my Past I Regret: a bunch of fuckin shit.... way too many.... my most recent one would probably go something like, trying to better myself infront of those who really don't give a shit, because once i tred to better myself, to speak up, to stand up for myself, they all started calling me crazy and hate me now... i should have just kept my fuckin mouth shut
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Books:

Harry Potter, The Vampire Lestat, The Vampire Armand, Queen of the Damned, The Lovely Bones, I.O.U., Remember Me, Dark Lullaby, Flowers in the Attic, whatever else piques my interest! I usually enjoy books that revolve around death or ghosts of some sort.
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What kind of home will you live in?
Palital Castle!!!!
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Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating
You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. What's Your Ideal Relationship?
You Are 74% Evil
You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.
Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot. How Evil Are You?

Heroes:

my mom and dad... they've been married for 50 years. FIFTY FUCKING YEARS!!! The longest I've ever been with a guy was four fucking years. They are my hereos, and one of the last of their kind, their generation, where Marriage was taken seriously. Where LOVE was taken seriously. They are what romantic movies are made of. And I love them more than anything.
You Have a Melancholic Temperament
Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult. What Temperment Are You?
You Are An ENFJ
The Giver
You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. What's Your Personality Type? ..

My Blog

Anybody remember that song where the word Ponder was used alot?

Earlier I found myself suddenly talking to my Higher Power, asking him to help me understand my situations that I get myself into, because I am to a point now where I don't know what to do.   Lif...
Posted by SharCzar on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 11:39:00 PST

holy crap... i felt this belonged right here..its like something read my mind and my heart..

Your Five Factor Personality Profile Extroversion:You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.You tend to...
Posted by SharCzar on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 12:32:00 PST

Yea, i know I'm Great---Wanna See? LOL

You scored as Sex God.   You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pu...
Posted by SharCzar on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 10:19:00 PST

*All About Me--well, most of me anyways!*

Taurus - Your Love Profile Your positive traits:You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.Cautious and caref...
Posted by SharCzar on Tue, 09 Jan 2007 04:49:00 PST

New Year Dawns New Difficulties to Deal With

I don't know how many of you managed to see the moon tonight, but DAMN!  Tonight, at oh, i don't really know, about 9pm, well, tonights moon had the biggest damn circle around it that I have not ...
Posted by SharCzar on Wed, 03 Jan 2007 10:41:00 PST

Saying Goodbye to the Old and Saying Hello to the New isn't always Easy...

Well shit, here we are again, another year, another way of all of us feeling like we're aging...  2007.... seems like i've already lived in this year, but really, how could I have?  I must s...
Posted by SharCzar on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 03:57:00 PST

Chaos Floods and rainbows OH MY!!

They said on the news that a scientific awe inspiring event was happening over the state of Colorado..  The Aurora Lights suddenly sparkled in the sky one evening, and for the past week, they hav...
Posted by SharCzar on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 10:39:00 PST

What Planet Are You From?

You Are From Venus..http://images.blogthings.com/whatplanetareyoufromquiz /venus.jpg" height="100" width="100">You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious.A social butterf...
Posted by SharCzar on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 09:00:00 PST

blah

1. I've come to realize that my ex....still has my heart   2. I am listening to....taped girls next door   3. I talk...about random nothingness, all the everythings, anything else that feed...
Posted by SharCzar on Sun, 26 Nov 2006 12:57:00 PST

sand paper

my damned knuckles on my hands keep scraping my arms... i forget from time to time, how utterly DRY my hands get, let alone my whole body, during the winter, cooler/colder months...  sucks man, f...
Posted by SharCzar on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 02:53:00 PST