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If pain is what it takes to live then so be it. But if its love that it takes to kill then kill me n

About Me

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If you wanna know more about me I will write a blog about me and everyone can read it. But most of you should know how I am by know if you don't you need to get a cat scan and see if part of your brain is missing because I am not all that hard to figure out. Der!!!By the way Jan 2nd 2008 I had my daughter Kayume Lyn. I am very happy to finally hold my daughter. She is so precious to me just like my son is. I have waited longer than 9 months to hold her. And now I have her. She weighed in at 6 pounds 6 ounces 21 inches long and 13 1/8 cm for her head. Right now she has blueish gray eyes and alot of hair. When I held her for the first time I was breathless and everything that I was worried about fled my mind. She is beautiful and I love her and my son equally and so much. With out them I wouldn't be who I am today. Kayume is soo gorgeous she touches everyones heart just like david did when he was born. There were some people in my family that think because my grandfather died in December that I should put his name in with hers. But Lenny and I already had a name picked out even before she was conceived. It took me six months to get Lenny to agree with a middle name. And finally he and I agreed to Lyn. I have to say that I like my other family members will miss my grandfather but I know that he still lives on in us. And I am sure that he didn't mind that I didn't put his name with hers. I just don't like the fact that some family members think or say that I should do what they would do. I am my own person and not everything that I do is always going to be what you want. And I am always be me whether you like it or not I am not you. But that don't mean that I won't hear you out. What I do with my life is what I do with my life. I try not to tell others how to run theirs so stop telling me how to run mine. The difference between advice and telling people how to run their lives are two totally different things. Giving advice is saying hey you can take this and use it to your advantage if you don't hey thats ok. Telling someone what to do is saying hey you have to do it this way whether you like it or not and if you don't I am going to get upset. Well I am sorry I am not that type of a person. I learned that these past few years because I have a family of my own and two because of my mistakes when it came to giving advice and telling people what they should do. I am trying not to do that now. So please don't do it to me. (This excludes you Patti and Shenna because you both never told me what to do. But you both know which person I am talking about the one that has lost three people this past year two that were very important.) I understand how this person feels but I think that its time we all just move on. I am sorry that I can cry every night like some of our family members do about grandpa. I just can't cry. In fact I try not to think about it. That is why it don't bother me. I am sorry I can't show emotion behind that right now. I just can't it stresses me out and I finally am happy with the fact that something in my life are less stressful. I have learned to deal with certain things that happen in life and yes death is one of them we may not like it but bringing life into the world is also a memory that some of us never want to forget. My grandfather taught me that. And I have two beautiful children. One is 3 and the other one was just born. She isn't even a week old yet. I am going to cherish them forever and ever and not just til death do us part but after death. I will forever love them just like I will forever love most of my family members that have come out and have shown me that life is always full of surprises. And I cherish them and love them alot.

There are those of family members that wanna copy me (no not you patti or shenna!!! Not you guys) but if you were to actually search on myspace and I did this Dec 19th at 3 in the morning found that our cousin virginia loves to copy anything that I have to say her head line is really fucking close to mine!!!! It sucks!!!!!! WHAT A FREAKING COPY CAT!!! CAN'T SOMEONE JUST SMACK HER AND TELL HER TO STOP GETTING HER STUFF FROM MY WEB PAGE OMG!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL MYSPACE ABOUT THE LINES THAT SHE STOLE FROM ME!!! I am just kidding but really its annoying i try not to copy other people most of my ideas on this page are original except the back grounds and pictures that had the codes and the trouble that i went through to get them. But at least I have style and I have an attitude and it goes to show that copy cats are just robots they don't have any particular style they just ... well copy.. what retards.. yeah keep on reading see if you come up with anything original from my poetry...
More about me. I of course have two children. One is three and one isn't even a month old yet. I have been with my boyfriend Lenny for almost two years. And I have to say I feel it in my soul that I have finally found "THE ONE". He makes me feel happy, special, as myself, not afraid of what anyone thinks. Before that wasn't possible I was always worried about what other people thought of me. Right now we live in Ephrata PA in our small apartment. I sing at Karaoke, now when I have the time away from my children and normal day to day life. I have three of the greatest friends in the world my friend Denise and Jenna both my karaoke gang members lol. We go to the same bar and sing when we all have the time and money. I used to work on a farm but that has changed because my former employer fired me because of a doctors note and said that there would be no spot left for me when I had the baby. That's alright we will see what I do for him ever again if he asks. I am usually a happy go lucky type of person. I enjoy music, lighting, muscle cars, video games, action movies and hot showers (because they feel so nice). I also enjoy dancing in the privacy of my own home because I don't care for people glareing at me because I am slightly over weight (HEY YOU FUCKING RETARDS I JUST HAD A BABY!!!), I like playing on my computer, writing and thinking of off the wall shit to say to people. Whether sometimes it maybe funny or 100% true. I very rarely take shit from people. I do tend to have a softer side to me I am not always mean except only to those whom push my buttons.I enjoy making friends and trying to keep them. I get bored with sitting too long in one spot doing absolutely nothing to do to occupy my mind. Anything intellectual is always welcome unless its a subject that I totally have no interest in. (sex conversations are not wanted here thats what my sexy man is for.) My moto is "Live life as if tomorrow will never come because you never know if today is the last."Although I am 24 years old, I am still afraid of the dark I have to have at least one light on in my entire house or else i can't go to sleep. I enjoy long drives while talking about why the government sucks right now. I believe that out troops in Iraq are fighting for our country but also for the wrong reasons. Politics what can I say, very complicated. I believe that we should be fighting the battles that are going on in our own country first before we fight something totally different. Again as I said Politics are very complicated. Religion, hmmm the same as Politics very complicated. Neither of these topics should be pushed on me *NOTE TO SELF DON'T MENTION IT UNLESS YOU REALLY WANT YOUR BRAIN HIT IN*. That's pretty much all about me. I don't have much to say just read my blogs enough to get to know me or email me all it takes is a few strokes of some keys that spell words and you have a conversation.

When Life and Death part something happens to the world. Sadness is invoked and life seems meaningless. The clouds roll in and my shoulders weigh heavy. Then when death is upon me I smile and laugh at it in the face and say take me away take me away.

When Life and Death Part something happens to the people. They no longer sit and wonder what can happen. They just sit and wallow in the emptiness that has enveloped around them. Their life seems to be meaningless and their bodies become limp. With out a smile or comfort to take away the pain. It seems empty with Sadness and Hatred. For the fear of Death and not knowing what lies ahead.

Ask me when life is fortold and how we shall live for nothing is what it seems and everything is left a miss. Ask me when the day ends and I shall tell you nothing is what it is until the day turns to night and we lay our heads in for sleep and dream of a world that does not exist but only hope for a new one to begin.

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My Interests

Music, Dance, Party, Kids, Family, Trust, Home, Cars, Trucks, Living Dead, Vampires, Resident Evil, Black, Blue, Purple and Red..

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My boyfriend doesn't want me posting anything that has to dealwith him on here so i just posted a few pictures of him and kayume and deleted the pictures of him off of my profile. There maybe I can make everyone happy.

I keep this sort of thing to myself there is really no reason to explain who i would like to meet.

Music:

AC/DC, Avril Lavigne, Pat Benatar, Rammstein, Metallica, Jon Bon Jovi, B52's, Godsmack, Savliva, Slipknot, Scropions, Credence Clearwater Revival, The Doors, Nirvana, Limp Bizkit, Eminem, Mudvayne, Green Day, Blink 182, Drowning Pool, Stone Temple Pilots, Sex Pistols, Pink, No Doubt, Bryan Adams, Rollin' Stones, Aerosmith, Alice in Chains, Alien Ant Farm, The All-American Rejects, Bad Company, Journey, Beastie Boys, Black Eyed Peas, Buggles, Pink Floyd, Eric Clapton, Cardigans, The Cars, The Cranberries, Johnny Cash, Cher, Cypress Hill, Sheryl Crow, Kid Rock, Crystal Method, Coal Chamber, Killswitch, Disturbed, Def Leppard, Deftones, Elton John, Genesis, Garbage, The Goo Goo Dolls, Van Halen, Sammy Hagar, Jimi Hendrix, ICP, Inxs, System of the Down, Incubus, Judas Priest, Janis Joplin, Jewel, Evanescence, Lenny Kravitz, Kiss, Korn, Led Zepplin, The Beatles, John Lennon, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Linkin Park, Moody Blues,


Your Theme Song is Born to Be Wild by Steppenwolf
"I like smoke and lightning
Heavy metal thunder
Racin' with the wind
And the feelin' that I'm under"

A total independent spirit, you can't be held down or fenced in.
You crave the feeling of wind on your face... and totally freedom. What's Your Theme Song?

Movies:

Romance, action, mystery,

Television:

What's television I haven't sat in front of one for a long time. Although I would have to say I love Beavis and Butthead, Inu Yasha, King Of The Hill, Home Improvement (don't ask), Everybody loves Raymond, That 70's Show, and I think that is it... oh yeah and don't wanna forget Heroes oh and Naruto.

Books:

Harry Potter, Virginia Henly

Heroes:

Pat Benatar, My Dad, My Uncle Brian, My cousin Patti, and My Grandpa. With out either one of them I would not be who I am today. And my three year old son David!!! And of course my lover and boyfriend Lenny!!! And the new addition my daughter Kayume!!!
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My Blog

First Step in weight loss.

The first thing that I have come to think about when coming to grips with losing weight is how much I want to lose.  It doesn't just start out with major excerises. First you have to realize what...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Wed, 05 Mar 2008 05:41:00 PST

The Movie Called Juno

Today I watched the movie called Juno.  Its about a girl that was 16 years old and got pregnant.  And she decided to give her baby up for adoption.  I know for some people they have to ...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Fri, 29 Feb 2008 12:09:00 PST

Ok about my induction.

Ok I know I have been telling people the last few days that I would tell them about how it went.  Well now I am getting to it after two nights of hardly any sleep because me and my daughter can't...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 04:27:00 PST

Tomorrow the big day!!!

Well since I haven't had the baby all of this time!!!!!!!!  Tomorrow morning is when they are actually going to induce me.  Now I hope that they don't do what they did to me last time. ...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Tue, 01 Jan 2008 11:41:00 PST

My Grandpa died today.....I walk the line...

I got word from my Aunt Terry that my grandfather had died.  Its a sad thing losing two people very important to me this year.  My uncle Brian that died in Febuary and now my grandfather her...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Sat, 29 Dec 2007 11:51:00 PST

Bad news but yet some good news.

Well bad news is the doctors pushed back my induction date to Jan 2nd.  But the good news is I might have the baby any tiem between then.  I hope so.  The reason why they pushed the ind...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 04:42:00 PST

Some Good News. I am so EXCITED!!!!!

Well I have some good news.  Went to have a Non Stress Test at the hospital today and well it went well and well I was joking around about inducing labor.  And well the Doc suggested it beca...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Fri, 21 Dec 2007 05:38:00 PST

Everyone left me for california

As some of you may know my best friends have moved back to california and my son and I and Lenny have been forced to stay here becasue of a few good reasons.  One is we don't have the money to go...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Tue, 18 Dec 2007 07:54:00 PST

Nasty Pizza Pocket.

Ok the reason why I am writeing this early in the morning is because well i bought pizza pockets and well i cooked them right and when I hold them up to my nose they don't smell right.  I am too ...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Sat, 10 Nov 2007 12:09:00 PST

Feeling a little down.

As most of you know my uncle did die about a month ago.  And how I cried for the first few hours of finding out.  I smile and remember again how much I enjoyed my uncle and how much he did m...
Posted by Whats a routine??? I don't remember if i have on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 07:26:00 PST