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ANTIDOTE

*Fighting*For*A*Future*

About Me

"i was a loner until there were no friends left and before someone offered me drugs you know i was straight edge and everyone quits til you offer them a ciggarette before we learn our lesson lets see how bad things can get and i'll drink myself to death! or at least i'll drink myself to sleep! chainsmoke my way through the gaps in between my aspirations and my apathy. as we drive past the last exit to home i am waving goodbye and i might be sleeping in the ditch tonight but it's alright cuz whisky is my kind of lullabye! i was sober all morning til i woke up this afternoon and before someone offered me a job ya know i was gonna get one soon and everyone in this town sleeps til the calender collids with june, before the booze wears off lets take another shot or two. and i'll drink myself to death! or at least i'll drink myself to sleep! chainsmoke my way through the gaps in between my aspirations and my apathy. as we drive past the last exit to home i am waving goodbye and i might sleeping in the ditch tonight but it's alright cuz whiskey is my kind of lullaby, lullabye!" ~johnny hobo and the freight trains

My Interests

MY MISTER...ROLLER DERBY!!! music, shows, bass, tattoos, PIN UP, peircings, black and white films, sex, skateboards, gray hound buses, trains, long nights, poetry, lyrics, bondage, holding hands, making out, steel toed dr martens in cherry red, comic books, ninja turtles, sega, making clothes, acting, performing, shows, exerbitionism, photos, zines, peter pan, rocky horror, running, spooning, skating, subways, the city, traveling...

I'd like to meet:

XoXo I HAVE ALREADY MEET HIM XoXoI step right off the edge let the blood rush to my head I'm going down to where the lucky ones have bled I lift the veil up to reveal a fascination And if you crave it then you know that you are injured And I'm holding on And I'm holding on For what you do to me baby theres no measure I've taken everything and now I want to give it I left the lights on so you'd stumble in devotion So easy, so easy It's left unspoken And I'm holding on And I'm holding on And I'm holding on And I'm holding on I've come to realize that you're the only thing I I'm falling all the way in I'm falling all the way in I've come to realize you're the only thing I want I'm falling all the way in ***The Distillers***View All Friends | View Blog | Add Comment

Music:

I like to rock and I love to roll, when the music's running through my soul I've got no place to go but my own private radio I met a lot of people that made me feel alright and their music's got me through the night I had a drink and I had a smoke, I listened to every word you spoke. Another story another memory, another day the way things should be If i had it my way everyone would know how we're living to our own Private Radio ~bouncing souls

Movies:

movies are greatness, love independent films, black and white films, old 1950's horror and thriller movies and foriegn films *** favs: almost famous (american), what to do in case of a fire (german), thesis (spanish), hush hush sweet sharlet (1950's american thriller), green, spun and sooo many more

Books:

Cookie Monster as Houdini in a Special Segment ~M. Doughty cookie monster, burnt out and hateful of children, concocts a suicide ploy under the auspices os show business; stripped and chained up, he is lifted into a velvet sack, placed in a steamer trunk full of holes so as to sink faster, sealed, and thrown into a lake before throngs. the band plays, and in the velvet sack, in the sealed trunk cookie monster waits to drown.

Heroes:

any one who is willing to stand up and fight for what they believe in...

My Blog

day by day

DAY BY DAY  4/15/2008 By: me 8 months, right down to the day and I don't ever know how we got this way angry words spit from one mouth to the other speaking harshness without a single stutter ...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Fri, 06 Jun 2008 02:13:00 PST

Katy Perry, U R that gay

***Below you will find the press release for "katy perry" real name Katy hudson, former christain song writer and performer turned hollywood "IT" girl. SHE MAKES ME SICK.  i think after reading b...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 03:46:00 PST

for the boy who loves me for me...

For the boy who loves me for me:Thanks, i like you for you too......
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Thu, 21 Feb 2008 01:20:00 PST

I Am ANTIDOTE

ANTIDOTEby Pain Tonys got a botfly in his forehead Jennys got a guinea worm in her shoe Daves got leeches, Mikes got flu, Everybodys got a parasite, Ive got you. First date: ...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Sat, 26 Jan 2008 12:39:00 PST

a familar path that i dont reconize

"Please Be Here"Our shadows dance on the bedroom wallif only this night could last a little longerfor now I'll hold you close and pretend that I'm not leavingI know your scars start to feel more so...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 12:20:00 PST

so not kool...

This week, no not week... this last couple days... well 2 last days... has totally and utterly been not kool... less kool then Scott Baio... and he's not kool.small print ---->(Scott Baio's koolness o...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Thu, 15 Nov 2007 03:09:00 PST

TO MY PETER

POSTED A FEW DAYS AGO ON CRAIGSLIST ON MISSED CONNECTIONS: To you... this is me. hi. (you wonder what goes on in my head and as i stare at you not even 2 feet away i instead write it then speak these...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 10:45:00 PST

The beauty in chaos

yesturday i sat in a stadium with thousands and thousands and thousands of people overlooking beautifully dirty philadelphia. around us contruction and parking lot but inside beauty, heartbeats poundi...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 10:37:00 PST

breathe

my heart is pounding, pounding, pounding out of my chest. my lungs feel like they are going to explode, no air, no air... suffacation. i am my own destuction, my own down fall, my own death and i just...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 09:53:00 PST

a new beginning...

anchors aweigh my friends, i'll see you another dayI'm going away, experiences have to comeand the past has got to into our dreamsanchors aweigh my friendseverybody understands that good times,that go...
Posted by ANTIDOTE on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 08:30:00 PST