eSp {keep fighting Jess...}

About Me

Please continue to pray for Jessi as she fights to come back to us.... We can live through this baby....because i'm diluted & perfectly flawedi shall live by passion & not by lawand i'm insecure ... i need aggressionto feed the spiders of perceptionand i'm supposed to be strong & have all the answersa cannibal in the new church of cancerbut i'm nothing special i'm not uniquei have many secrets & i eat the weakand i'm at an endi'm at an end .....and there's ... NO WAY OUT!!i need to find my sanctuary ..... someplace safe gotta get this outta me ..... this is my escapeand i think about it all the timei'm volatile & afraid to crybut i'm still not comfortable in my skinand the anesthetics slowly wearing thin& i need to talk to someone newi need a different latitude& i'm in this voidall alone! feeling needy... hungry to growbut i'm suffocating -- can't come downand .... no .... THERE'S NO WAY OUT!!!i need to find my sanctuary .... someplace safe gotta get this outta me! .... THIS IS MY ESCAPE!!!--- all i see is sadness all i see is sadness .... what's left?-- this will teach them. this will teach them,......you've got to...... push. Push. PUSH.... YOUR WAY OUT!!!FOLLOW ME! FOLLOW ME! THIS IS YOUR WAY OUT!!........you are not alone- this is where i hide my power - this is where i become free
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My Interests

Music:

My musical taste is all over the place!!! I just love music, all forms.

Movies:

Ok seriously...every movie I watch and I really enjoy is my new favorite.......

Television:

Books:

STEPHEN KINGThe Greatest Writer Ever

Heroes:

My Brother....1968-2007My Ultimate Hero I would give anything to hug my brother and hear him laugh just one more time!!!!!!!!Sin will take you further than you want to go. It will keep you longer than you want to stay. It'll charge you more than you want to pay....

My Blog

Pictures of You

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you that I almost believe that they're real I've been living so long with my pictures of you that I almost believe that the pictures are all I canfeelR...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Mon, 16 Jun 2008 09:54:00 PST

Give me release

Give me releasewitness meI am outsidegive me peaceHeaven holds a sense of wonderand I wanted to believethat I'd get caught upwhen the rage in me subsidesIn this white waveI am sinkingin this silencein...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 09:46:00 PST

Somehow

At night I feel so lowCount the hours... they go so slowI know the sound of your voiceCan save my soul City lights, no streets of goldLook out the window.. to the world belowIt moves so fast...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Fri, 06 Jun 2008 10:06:00 PST

Every breath takes a sound

I would only hope that everything would come back to you...... just to say you wanted me too I would be the one to let you catch up and go through, go through.... without you...... I can't breathe ...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Sun, 01 Jun 2008 04:19:00 PST

Its time to wake up..

It's time to wake upWe're all waiting on youPraying for your safetyNot knowing what to doThe world has stopped turningAs everyone criesJust one more timeI'd like to see those pretty brown eyesPlease j...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Sun, 18 May 2008 09:08:00 PST

silence

Hush now, don't you cryI'll wipe away the teardrop from your eyeYou're lying safe in bedIt was all a bad dreamSpinning in your headYour mind tricked you to feel the painOf someone close to you leaving...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Mon, 05 May 2008 06:29:00 PST

worthless bags of douche

So here it is....12:00 pm on a Monday afternoon. I am gettig ready to drop the cat off for his haircut and then head off to my doctors appointment.......for a referral to a surgeon for a biopsy ...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Mon, 10 Mar 2008 09:14:00 PST

ironic isnt it?

isnt it funny how you spend so much time, energy and thought worrying about hurting someone else and in the end...it is you that is hurting? Not them..... ironic "I wanted you to know tha...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Thu, 28 Feb 2008 08:18:00 PST

TAG you are it

TAG YOUR IT! Tag your it!! Here's how you play: Once you've been 'tagged', you have to write a blog of 10 weird / random facts/ habits/goals about yourself. At the end choose 5 people to be t...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 06:14:00 PST

Try this for ONE WEEK

It never ceases to amaze me the amount of ignorant things we allow to come out of our mouths on any given day. We, as people, are just stupid at times. The bad thing, i think, is the fact that a...
Posted by eSp {keep fighting Jess...} on Wed, 09 Jan 2008 07:57:00 PST