NO REGRETS.
Because at one point it was EXACTLY what you wanted.
This year has been an amazing whirlwind for me. I met so many amazing new friends that became my family. Gone thru many heartaches and loss an amazing friend.
Is it weird that lately Ive been feeling super homesick? I just miss everything and how it used to be. When no one really cared bout whats cool or not because you grew up with them. They know you for who you are and not what youre made of, what your boob size is or how much you can drink. Life is a continuing circle. Keep the good, throw out the bad, recycle the ones you arent sure of. If they come back then Im pretty sure there's a good reason for it.
2008
Ready to get my Grown Woman on
Im done with being let down.
Im done with caring so much and and being unappreciated.
Honestly if you are my close friend then you know i would do anything for you.
If you were my close friend then more then likely you know i put you before my family.
Really tho some people just do not derserve me as a friend just because i care too much.
I know thats partly my fault but thats just me.
I dont care to meet new people I would much rather love the friends i have.
But in the end it just kicks me in the ass anyways.
Now im back going thru my circle.
Keeping the ones i want, throwing out all the trash and bringing back people I care bout most
NO REGRETS. Cuz at one point it WAS exactly what I wanted.
NightLife! One of the main reason I ♥ life!
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Nick Desimone
Dont tell me its ok.
Its not.
I know i need to get over and move on but i cant i dont want to.. its simply not fuckin fair.
Nick was the only person after high school that i really kept in touch with. Yea i stil talk to a few ppl and we make plans to go out and kick it but it was different with Nick. we didnt have to make plans in advance to see each other. I can just simply call him and say lets kick it and he's there. No need to make plans days in advance. Nick didnt care to make that drive to Seattle to come see me. It was nothing. He always calls me at least once a week to see how Im doin. Thats why i love Nick so much. He knows how i felt bout leavin everett and wantin to get away from everyone but still keepin the ones i cared about. He knew how much i cared for him, he knew that he was someone that i wanted to keep. Thats why he made sure we were always in touch.
Thats what fuckin kills me.
Last Summer i lost my first love. This summer i lose my one of my closets childhood friend. Really. i swear god has it out for me. I know there's alot of other people that is also goin through this but really. MY FIRST LOVE? then My Nicky?
My Freshman football buddy pics Nick was the only guy in it with me and Amanda.
Chelan he was the only guy i brought around my friends that wasnt from high school- Just cuz i knew thay would all love him too.
He's my only friend from back home that knows my most current friends.
HE WAS ONE OF THE ONLY PEOPLE I STILL CARE TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT. Now he's gone. For the stupidest reason ever. He doesnt desrve it.
So dont tell me its ok. Cuz its not.I have my every fuckin right to be upset and cry my ass off whenever the fuck i want.
You were my stud Nicky. I love you always and forever
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