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About Me

I am without a doubt a mess of contradictions with limited social appeal. I am polite but unrefined and to many, my unfiltered dialogue is deemed offensive. Some view me as a wallflower and a milquetoast; somebody who is mere vapor within the scheme of things. While others think that I'm a selfish degenerate pissing his life away and taking people with him. Not necessarily an up-beat presentation of myself, I admit. But it is a real/honest one. People would be quite suprised to know that I'm just like everybody else at heart. My aloofness keeps people from seeing that. At the heart of the matter, I'm a toy in the "Lost And Found" desperately searching to be discovered and embraced and brought to a dwelling that I once knew and felt safe. I admit that I brood more than I smile and I love and hate with a passion that I have not yet learned to cap but should. I'm sweet and timid but refuse to be pushed-over unless doctrine tells me not to. I can re-coil with a virulence that is unexpected, yet if looked at logically or with a sense of empathy, is well-warrented. I often feel at a loss for words to explain myself and as an end result, I end up misunderstood and feeling more isolated and alone than I was when I attempted to explain myself. After all, isn't revealing who you are and what you think an attempt to feel accepted/understood or at the very least, a gift to give to another human being? I indulge in my vices with wreckless abandon. I'm not on the big "Health Kick" that this toilet-paper-besmirched decade has embraced and felt necessary to impose on everyone. I am all too aware of my mortality and know that this is just a gig/stint that I have to suffer through for something more or eternal rest..(I'm agnostic you know). Whatever happened to just wantonly enjoying life? Living it while you're here? Remember when there was a romanticism about living fast and dying young?...Burning out while you're shinning? I believe in living as much as I possibly can without restraint...Needless to say, this doesn't go well within this abhorrent decade. In this world, you're lucky if you find people with an original idea in their head or a value in their heart. Everyone has become so souless and blind and self-centered. All the more reason to suffer tormenting dreams...All the more reason to love the friends that you have....All the more reason to eternally be on the look-out for those with a mind of their own. If human beings are a work of art, then what I have presented is up to you, the viewer. The line, "About Me:" is the track lighting. Your computer is the red, velvet ropes, and what I have written is the exhibition....You'll see me as a meaningless mess slapped upon a moving canvass..... or you'll see me as quite a piece of work.

My Interests

People-Watching, playing board games, NTN, Trivial Pursuit, going to movies/plays, tea, the rain, writting things, bars, clubs, unexplored avenues, death, religion, the profane and morbid, Gnosticism, The art of Propaganda, Communism, horror, people's dreams, regrets, fears, and loves.

I'd like to meet:

Anybody with an ounce of grey-matter rattling in their head or a strange desire burning in their heart. Prophets, harbingers of truth, deviants, perverts, sons and daughters of revolution, and those who "Get It". ..

Music:

The Sisters Of Mercy, Joy Division, Bauhaus, New Order, The Legendary Pink Dots, Siouxie And The Banshees, The Clash, The Cult, Fields Of The Nephilim, The Cranes, Portishead, Dead Can Dance, Mira, Mission U.K., The Chameleons U.K., Giants and Sad Lovers, Alien Sex Fiend, Deutsch Amerikanish Freundschaft, Laibach, The Wake, Rosetta Stone, Tones On Tail, The Call, Morrisey, The Smiths, The Ramones, The Normal, The Stranglers, Propaganda, The Sundays, The Sugarcubes, 999, Pete Shelley, Ultravox, The Shroud, Switchblade Symphony, Liasions Deluces, Mito, Camoflage, Hungry Lucy, 12 Rounds, James Ray and The Performance, Die Form, Throbbing Gristle, Die Krupts, Sleep Chamber, Aurora, Hawaiian Pups, Billy Idol, Adam Ant, Depeche Mode, Flock of Seagulls, Nitzer Ebb, Blondie, Blancmange, Aria, March Violettes, The Psychadelic Furs, The Gathering, Mike Watt, Underworld, Die Warzau, Front 242, The Specials, Mission Of Burma, Soft Cell, English Beat, David Bowie, The Jam, The O'Connels, Shriekback, Falco, Tears For Fears, Lene Lovich, New Model Army, Pet Shop Boys, Big Audio Dynamite, Daisy Chainsaw, State Of Grace, Trans-X, Gary Numan, Love And Rockets, Carcrash International, Specimen, Sex gang Children, The Fall, The Cramps, Ministry, The Buzzcocks, Iggy Pop, The Revolting Cocks, Josey Cotton, Wolfshiem, ...Bah! You know where this is going. Tons more ontop of it.

Movies:

Taxi Driver, Blue Velvet, Demons, Near Dark, The Ice-Cream Man, Suspiria, Midnight Express, Hider In The House, Elves, Hellroller, One Flew Over The Cukoo's Nest, Frankenhooker, Waiting For Guffman, Parents, The Stepfather, Gramps, Near Dark, Alien, Aliens, the Universal and Hammer horror films, Deathwish 1and2, Flawless, One Hour Photo, Affliction, The Fan, This Boy's Life, Tommy Boy, Dark Days, American Movie, The Hunger, Nadja, The Begotten, Class of 1984, Dawn of The Dead(1977 version), Night of The Living Dead, Night At the Golden Eagle, The Dark Backward, Creepshow, Goodfellas, Casino, Scarface, Oktober(1920), The General, Nosferatu(1922), The 'Burbs, Cemetary Guy, The Lost Boys, Who's Harry Crumb, Uncle Buck, Heavyweights, American Psycho, Henry: Portrait of a Serial Killer, The Deer Hunter, Suicide Kings, Pulp Fiction, Eraser Head, Lost Highway, M, Hard To Die, Slumber Party Massacre 2, Mephisto, Company Of Wolves, The Last Emperor, Kingpin, Boogie Nights, Killing Zoey, Night Of The Hunter, anything with John candy...(Don't you miss him?)...and many more that escape me.

Television:

Get A Life, Strangers With Candy, Three's Company, SCTV, Survivor, Lost, Carnivale, Curb Your Enthusiasm, Cheaters, The Surreal Life, American Justice, Investigative Reports, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Kids In The Hall, and Benny Hill.

Books:

George Orwell, Jack T. Chick, Marx, Engels, Trotsky, The Bible, Francis Bacon, E.M. Cioran, and Vladimir Illyach Lenin....Of corpse!....And Grimm's Fairy Tales(Original Texts)....What more do you really need after that?

Heroes:

In this day and age, there are no more heroes...They're dead. Anybody that you deify, you'll come to vilify the more you find out about them and realize they are just another stupid human. Choose them on merit and personal value. Gaze upon the brilliant man whom I deem as one of the last true heroes of the 20th century.