..
Every thing I touch goes black
Dark as pitch, color never to come back
Day dies and is replaced by night
Light is drained and pulled out of sight
As far as I can see there is no light to follow
No moon to let off a silvery glow
No sun to announce the beginning of tomorrow
Life vanishes and death is what replaces
Vibrancy and joy are stolen
His voice gives fear His eyes blood red
He knows not love But lives in hate instead
What is he to others?
He is their demise
He is what kills on a moonless night
The tears that they cry
Who else can put themselves in my place?
Who else can stare into deaths cold hard face?
Whether or not you want to
Let your mind unbend
For you know as well as I do
That your life will inevitably end.
Can you not see me?
My eyes are filled with tears
Can you not hear me?
Iv been crying all these years
I guess I've hidden it inside
Pushed it as deep as it can go
I guess I'm a pretty good actress
And never let it show
I'm afraid they see me weak
For just a single moment of the day
I'm afraid they see the little girl
Not the bitch that's tough in every single way
Only a select few have ever seen at my worst
Very few people have ever seen me cry
I apologize to those
They are not your problems, but mine
But as strong as I look I have so many fears
And as tough as I seem I've shed too many tears.
-this is the day i died.. October 14,2004
got 2 different personalities... you'll never know unless you know me THAT well.
im nadine, isang nadine na di madaling maintindihan.. odrs may find me rli tLkative, bt d fact dat im juz lonely sitting in one corner hving my own world.. mezirabLe buhay ko.. kya kng ayaw mong maging mezirable buhay mo ehh lumayo-layo kna sakin [ok?] im in2 reading wiccans, incase u dunno, dats a handbuk fullo' witchcraftz. m smtyms weirdo, n my frends dnt knw dat. bein weird is my beauty. mdali lng akng pkisamahan kng tlgang maki2sama k, dhil kng mukang plastik ka lng tlga den bak off. m not in2 s2pid plasticz n lil biyatch. i hav my own styLz n passion for it. i dnt wnt jerks cloning me. m juz my ownslf n i rli hate POSERS! ayokng dnidistorbo ako dhil sumasabog ulo ko. seryoso ako s mrming bgay kya ayokng linoloko ako. kng s iba jan n ayaw sakin, y da hel shud i evn cre? kng ayw nyo skin ayw ko rn sa nyo. juz go to helL n fuck d devil. m a simple grl hus devoted to the musicz i Luv n a slave for my craft~ for dos few ppol i cared, thy knw me. but for others who knws me juz by my plain name, & on wat i luk n wear,den dnt juz pretend u kno me.. coz u dnt.
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underneath the warmth and smiles.
I am there.
There is where I am frail and angry-
Trying so hard to understand
and failing miserably.
There is where I am rude and ugly
where I am tired and confused
and no one seems to understand my insanity.
And down there is where I am a liar
where I am hurt and depressed
and my self-loathing is impenetrable.
And there is where I question
all that is me and surrounds me
all of the masks that people wear
so much like my own..
For. down there.
where I am moody and sad
I am impossibly. absolutely. incredibLe Alone.
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nadine
+ i like writing poetry
+ ive seen love die way too many times
+ i am nothing speciaL
+ anti social
+ im 17, 22 in october
+ trapped inside a world full of pretendings
+ im paranoid
+ im not scene, nor emo. I never want to be either,
im myself and i aint gonna change for anyone
+ dont say a word u dont knoe me
+ kinda boyish
+ gain my trust, and ill die for you
+ addicted to chocolates
+ im weird. maybe thats why people hates me
+ aben is my my drug
+ i dnt wear makeups
+ i Love graphic designing/drawing weird things
+ my hair eats my face often
+ pipoL Luv to see me faLL
+ i dont smoke
+ pipoL hurt me thats y i hurt them
+ pipoL Lie to me thatz y i Lie to them
+ i love dark coLors
+ i hate pinoy bands. but i love their music
+ cookkie + milk = yum
+ i love fries
+ i talk to myself cause I know Ill listen
+ ig raysang ak ha redhorze :p
+ im not insecure. i just dont trust people
+ teddybear ^_____^
+ always own a broken heart
+ i probably seem imature by now, hmm.. lol
+ im compLicated
+ i do enjoy just sitting around, even not saying
anything.. so dont feeL boring
+ a girL who smiLes even with her heart broken..
+ im the definition of tragedy
