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About Me

i'm afraid of the sea, and what lies beneath it, but i like jet skiing and kayaking as long as i don't fall into the water. i'm afraid of aquariums, have you seen the way fish look at you? and it's scary how big fish can be. i don't like to be alone if i can help it. that's why i love my cat who keeps me company when she isn't running around with the neighbourhood cats. i need music in the background before i sleep every night, don't know why i just seem to sleep better with it playing. i love watching cartoons. i hear voices talking to me.
im still trying to figure out who i am.
=at times, you sit back and reflect upon life and wonder, is what i am doing worth it all. and you think to yourself, no, it really isn't worth it. it's not worth being upset and angry over. sometimes you just need someone there to listen to you. but do they really listen? do you really listen to your friends when they have something to say? time to pop some pills and sleep. sometimes it isn't worth thinking so much. at times it really isn't worth thinking at all. you make me feel like suicide. i just want to disappear.=

i really dont know what's going on,
what i'm thinking,
what i'm doing.
all i can feel is turmoil.
and the more i try to untangle it,
the more complicated it becomes.
i might be paranoid and in denial but i can't think.
my mind and heart...
i feel like i've been stabbed and am bleeding profusely...
- elaine rachel

"We are all the same people With sinning hearts that make us equal Here is my hand, not words said desperately It is not our job to make anyone believe."
-emery
maybe i need some time away from here. it's bad when you start feeling nothing's going right. and you start to realise everything you had is fading away.

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My Interests

window shopping.
travelling.
reading.
procrastinating.
dreaming.

I'd like to meet:

jay and silent bob.
someone.
anyone.
angelina jolie, for saying this: "I need more sex, okay? Before I die I wanna taste everyone in the world." that, is so sweet.
when i grow up i want to be a dinosaur.

Music:

old music. new music. it's all still music.
grew up listening to metallica and music like that thanks to my dad.
discovered new music in school like:
korn.
marilyn manson.
deftones.
system of a down.
emery.
bullet for my valentine.
dredg.
loud angsty music that my friends dont understand.
anything good to dance to when you need to let loose.
I made this MySpace Music Player at MyFlashFetish .com.

Movies:

silence of the lambs.
white chicks.
romeo and juliet.
50 first dates.
wedding singer.
center stage.
girl interrupted.
green street hooligans.
girl interrupted.
movies that make you wonder what this world is coming to and what you're doing with your life.
animation movies like shrek, shrek 2, finding nemo, etc.

Television:

the simpsons. drawn together. the boondocks. hey arnold and as told by ginger.
i absolutely love CSI.
mythbusters.
cartoons from childhood: my little pony, disney classics, tom & jerry.

Books:

vampire chronicles by anne rice.
any books on vampires.
prozac nation.
trainspotting by irvine welsh.
tuesdays with morrie.
the five people you meet in heaven.
the historian.
american gods.
midnight in the garden of good and evil
graphic novels like transmetropolitan and astrocity.
true crime books.

My Blog

enjoy the silence.

i don't want to cry.
Posted by starsareunderground. on Sat, 14 Jul 2007 06:28:00 PST

the ponytail parades.

another of my favourite emery songs.the lyrics really say alot bout how i feel.------------------------------------------------------- ---------------- Three sleepless nights This isn't how its suppose...
Posted by starsareunderground. on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 12:13:00 PST

hush.

lesson learnt in life.you can never trust people who claim to be your friends.people you used to hang out with can easily turn their backs on you and treat you like you never existed.friends that used...
Posted by starsareunderground. on Fri, 27 Apr 2007 05:39:00 PST

why.

all we ever do in life is try to please the people around us.whether we want to or not.
Posted by starsareunderground. on Sat, 21 Apr 2007 12:18:00 PST

.

i cry."don't they know, it's the end of the world..."
Posted by starsareunderground. on Fri, 20 Apr 2007 05:50:00 PST

maybe.

you live, you learn,never to trust,not even yourself.your heart betrays you,so do your thoughts.sometimes you're better off alone.i wish i believed that.
Posted by starsareunderground. on Fri, 20 Apr 2007 05:49:00 PST

as your voice fades - emery

lyrics to the song "as your voice fades" by emery.i've always loved this band. the lyrics to this song, kinda convey how i feel inside. life is a bunch of lies.somebody please tell me what am I suppo...
Posted by starsareunderground. on Tue, 03 Apr 2007 12:46:00 PST

disturbingly funny.

http://santasm.net/sister sent me this site. brightened up my day.so now go spread the love. share it with everyone.heh.
Posted by starsareunderground. on Tue, 06 Mar 2007 10:57:00 PST