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::CT:: is a Blackbird

i'm sorry he doesn't love you. really, i am.

About Me

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ I don't want someone to love me
I want someone to excite me
i like my loves
i like that i don't sleep
i like my place
i like my ink
i feel like i don't know life outside anymore
I've been locking myself behind doors
and boys who act like doors
i ramble when i haven't slept for days
My friends are the men in my life now.
i love them dearly
they are all i need
A Sad ::CT:: Is Worth Nothing To No One
A girl could spend forever drinking wine and holding hands, but things escalate.
More and more bottles start to litter the floor, and you get bruises from boys who have held too firm a grip.
One day something happens, and no amount of wine can wash it.
So you turn to harder things, and faster boys who love you more.
You swear as long as you are too overwhelmed to think, everything will be ok.
Then still a young child, you look so old.
You find a man with handsome eyes, the saddest you've ever seen.
You think he is just like you, but he's not.
He's older.
He knows the world, and how much vodka a girl like you can hold.
sober up sober up sober up sober up
learn to be alone

My Interests


All i ever wanted.... is what i have
I take risks
I'll probably end up dead
but I'm willing to chance it

I'd like to meet:


Reformed Criminals
Born Again Christians
Recovering Alcoholics

.someone who doesn't need me.

sometimes I like to listen to music
sometimes I wanna hear you talk
I'm real sorry if your voice doesnt turn me on
March 14th is the worst day of the year
I miss my best friend
Its been a lifetime it seems
but hes P3ter Pann
and i got nowhere to dig
PCR10191981/3142005
.he was my everything. .he was the blood in me.

.I Want Adventures.
.I Want To Do Things You're Too Scared To Do.

Music:

i hear lots

listen to what you like
maybe some are the same
if not
than say it aint so

Movies:

I'll Sleep when I'm dead
Bright Future
City of God
The Mission
Kontroll
Me Without You

Television:

doesnt entertain me

Books:

I wanna be like oscar Wilde

Heroes:



My Blog

sometimes i wake up black and blue

and sometimesi run around seattle with my love at 4amMineJohns:--- CT ---...
Posted by ::CT:: is a blackbird on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 06:15:00 PST

natural

fake flowers don't die so you make a fake life and put me inside   you're mayor the of this city where the sun shines cold yellow light onto apple trees bearing wax fruits   painte...
Posted by ::CT:: is a blackbird on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 03:56:00 PST

epilogue

epilogue Its like swimming upstream untill you get tired and start drowning all these people are trying to save you and someone does ....a little boy.... but he loses his grip so you lose hope an...
Posted by ::CT:: is a blackbird on Sat, 16 Dec 2006 11:35:00 PST

my love life according to kris

mmm... i've been on the phone with my friend kris from portland for an hour.... he came up with a list of boys i am not allowed to date... it makes me laugh... No singers... being in a band is ok......
Posted by ::CT:: is a blackbird on Tue, 27 Sep 2005 12:17:00 PST

uhhhhhh


Posted by ::CT:: is a blackbird on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST