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kaylahhh

it's just a rose; don't get your hopes up.

About Me

I'm Kayla.

this is me.
I speak fluent bitch. the basics.
well, I'm kayla. if you don't know that, why the fuck are you on my page? I'm sixteen, junior at riverside. uhm, I love my friends, and my wifey. and my family, strangely. I like to party, and dance, and sing, and be random and crazy. but I also like to chill with good company. I might as well be a mute, but consider myself a philosophe anyway. me and my sissy are going to compete on top model, and I'm gonna slap tyra because she's annoying. I love to look at the stars and everything else in the world. I don't care if you think it's lame, it's what I like. I love literature and the magic of quotes. and if you try to make me listen to a song that isn't lyrically sound, I'll tell you politely to stick your thumb in your mother's ass. I'm sarcastic, but capable of taking things seriously. I give good advice, but can't take any myself. do not compliment me, I respond much better to insults. yes, I do care what you think, but that doesn't mean I'll necessarily take it into consideration further than respecting your opinion. I will not change simply because you ask me to, or think something about me isn't morally sound; not much about me is. I'm going to Hell. but I still pray, all the same. I don't do much, save for seek a good time. making memories are the cobblestones of happiness.
"we must all learn to live together as brothers, or perish as fools."
-martin luther king jr.

MYSPACE:
where everyone's famous.
(oh, you love it.)

DAILY CONFESSIONS.
MAY 4, 2006:
I'M THINKING ABOUT MOVING TO SOMEPLACE WHERE NOBODY KNOWS MY NAME SO I CAN START OVER. I CAN'T STAND WHO I'VE BECOME.
MAY 5, 2006:
I THINK ALL MY FRIENDS SECRETLY HATE ME. EXCEPT MY BABY ANNA; HER I CAN COUNT ON. OTHER PEOPLE I'M NOT SO SURE ABOUT...
MAY 6,2006:
I WONDER WHO WILL CRY FOR ME WHEN I DIE.
MAY 7, 2006:
I WISH YOU WERE HERE RIGHT NOW.
MAY 8, 2006:
I WANT TO SEE MY BESTFRIEND MORE THAN ANYONE IN THE WORLD. (EVEN HIM.)
MAY 9, 2006:
I ALMOST CRIED IN COURT TODAY.
MAY 10, 2006:
I WISH THINGS WOULD GO BACK TO HOW THEY WERE LAST YEAR.
MAY 11, 2006:
I SECRETLY WISH I HAD THE GUTS TO DO HALF THE THINGS I SAY I'M GOING TO DO.
MAY 12, 2006:
OUR SCHOOL OBSERVED THE DAY OF SILENCE TODAY (IN SUPPORT OF GAY/LESBIAN RIGHTS). I WROTE "KISS ME IF YOU ARE SILENT" ON MY HAND, JUST TO SEE IF I WAS AS UNDESIRABLE AS I BELIEVE I AM.
MAY 13, 2006:
MY SON IS THE CUTEST LITTLE BOY I'VE EVER SEEN. I HATE EVERYTIME I HAVE TO LEAVE HIM.
MAY 14, 2006:
I WORRY ABOUT MY AUNT. SHE CAN'T SEEM TO GET THINGS INTO PERSPECTIVE. (MY GRANDMA ISN'T HELPING HER MUCH EITHER.) I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP.
MAY 15, 2006:
EVERYONE I KNOW IS TURNING INTO MAJOR BITCHES. OR IS IT JUST ME?
MAY 16, 2006:
I'M AFRAID THAT NOTHING IN MY FUCKING LIFE WILL EVER CHANGE, BUT AT THE SAME TIME HOPING ALL THE GOOD WILL STAY THE SAME.
MAY 17, 2006:
I'M SICK OF THE SAME SHIT EVERYDAY. GIVE ME SOMETHING NEW.
MAY 18, 2006:
WHO GIVES A FUCK?
MAY 19, 2006:
I'M EXCITED THAT SCHOOL'S ALMOST OUT, BUT SCARED OF WHAT THE SUMMER WILL BRING.
MAY 20, 2006:
I REALLY CAN'T STAND HER.
MAY 21, 2006:
HOW DID I END UP HERE? THIS IS NOT HOW I PICTURED IT.
MAY 22, 2006:
LITTLE MISS SUSIE FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL.
MAY 23, 2006:
HELP.
MAY 24, 2006:
AGHH, HERE'S TO DEVELOPING NEW (THOUGH EQUALLY UNHEALTHY) HABITS.
MAY 25, 2006:
OLD PASTTIMES, BACK AGAIN.
MAY 26, 2006:
OH MY GOD. I FUCKING LOVE HER. BESTFRIENDSALWAYS.
MAY 27, 2006:
I LOVE MY 2BESTFRIENDS IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE.
MAY 28, 2006:
I AM A SUCKY ASS FRIEND. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP...
MAY 29, 2006:
WHO KNOWS? HERE GOES...
MAY 30, 2006:
I WISH I DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK. I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE'S EYES ARE ON ME...
JUNE 1, 2006:
OH. MY. GOODNESS. I SMILE EVEN WHEN SHE FUCKING I/MS ME... : ]
JUNE 2, 2006:
SOMETIMES PEOPLE DON'T REALIZE HOW MUCH OF A BITCH THEY'RE COMING OFF AS.
JUNE 3, 2006:
I NEED A DAY WITH JUST MY BABY. :]
JUNE 4, 2006:
HOW DOES SOMETHING LIKE THIS COME ABOUT? HOW CAN SHE HAVE NO FEAR?
JUNE 5, 2006:
I LOVE THE LAZY DAYS. FRIENDS=SMILES.
JUNE 6, 2006:
BRING IT ON.
:D

JUNE 7, 2006:
AHH, THE SUMMER SUN. (&OLD FRIENDS)
JUNE 8, 2006:
JUST HANGING OUT TILL ALL HOURS; SUMMER=LOVE.
JUNE 9, 2006:
HEY. THERE. SPARKY! OH, WHAT FUNNNN.
JUNE 10, 2006:
YOU'LL NEVER HAVE FRIENDS LIKE MINE.
JUNE 11, 2006:
BEST DAY IN A LONGGGG TIME.
JUNE 12, 2006:
RAPE IS A HORRIBLE WORD. THE ACTION IS UNBEARABLY WORSE. WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE? THIS IS SO FUCKED UP...
JUNE 13, 2006:
THINK BEFORE YOU FUCKING TALK. YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT SHIT.
JUNE 14, 2006:
GREAT NIGHT. :]
JUNE 15, 2006:
AMAZING DAY. YOU'RE THE ONE THAT I WANT, OOH-HOO-HOO, HONEY!
JUNE 16, 2006:
I NEED TO TALK TO MY BESTIES ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY FUCKING PSYCHOBRAINNNN!
JUNE 17, 2006:
SLEEPOVER? I THINK SO! (AND SMILESSSS!)
JUNE 18, 2006:
I THINK THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME. EVERYTIME I'M REMINDED OF IT, I GET SICK TO MY STOMACH, AND WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY AND FUCKING BEAT SOMEONE DOWN. I HOPE THIS DOESN'T LAST...
JULY 9, 2006:
WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK. MY COMPUTER IS BROKEN (STILL). BUT IN THE PAST THREE OR SO WEEKS:
I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE BECAUSE I WAS SOOOO SICK,
I GOT THROWN AROUND A TRAILER WHILE IN THE 4HT OF JULY PARADE,
I GOT EATEN BY MOSQUITOES AT FIREWORKS,
THE MEMORY ON MY COMPUTER (WHICH INCLUDED MY SONGS, MY POEMS, MY PICTURES, MY LAYOUTS, AND MY BOOK) GOT COMPLETELY ERASED (WITH NO WAY TO RETRIEVE IT),
AND WHAT I THOUGHT WAS GOING TO BE SOMETHING FUCKING GREAT FOR ME, WELL, TURNS OUT IT'S GOING TO BE PRETTY SHITTY, AS FAR AS I CAN SEE.
:/
ROCK ON, SUMMER!
JULY 19, 2006:
OH, I WISH I WERE AN OSCAR MAYER WEINER! NO, REALLY THOUGH? SUMMER'S ALMOST OVER AND IT KINDA SUCKS.
:/
JULY 25, 2006:
UPDATES:
COMPUTER IS STILL BROKEN. I'M STARTING TO THINK IT'S NOT GOING TO GET FIXED UNTIL I DIE FROM WITHDRAWAL.
SCHOOL IS A MONTH AWAY, AND I HAVE 4 BOOKS TO READ AND ASSIGNMENTS ON THEM DUE THE FIRST DAY.
(I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE BOOKS YET.)
I'M RAW.
BARBIE DOLL AND I ALMOST GOT EATEN BY A TARADACTYL.
AND, UHM...
OH MY GOD, SHOES.
THAT'S IT FOR NOW.
JULY 31, 2006:
MORE UPDATES:
CRAZY "GET-TOGETHER",
THE ENCLAVE,
SKYE&THE RUBY SLIPPERS,
DAWN,(ENOUGH SAID, CRAZY GIRL!)
BAWLS,
ZEPPE'S!!!!
AND CRAZYHARDCORE SWEETATLIFENESS.
ALL EQUALS MY LIFE.
SEPTEMBER 3, 2006:
UPDATAGE:
SCHOOL SUCKS. HOME SUCKS. WINTER SUCKS. I SUCK AT DRIVING. I HATE SHARING MY LOCKER. I MISS MY FRIENDS. I MISS SUMMER. EW, LIFE.
BUT PICNIC TOMORROW!!!! YAY! KAYTHANKSBYE.
SEPTEMBER 16, 2006:
UHM, B.I.M. LASTNITE. EW, MUD. BUT I GOT TO SEE MY LAURENFACE AND VERONICAAAAA. WE ALMOST FOUGHT SOME WIGGERS. FUNNY. NOT A BIG PARTY NIGHT BUT FUN ANYWAYS. DAWN DITCHED US. SWEET. PERCHFEST LAST WEEKEND, TIRING, A LOT OF MONEY THOUGH. HOT ITALIAN GUYS, RAW FISH, SUBZERO TEMPERATURES-WHAT MORE COULD YOU ASK FOR?
UHM, BABYSITTING TODAY, MORE MONEY, HOPEFULLY BACK OVER HERE TO SEE THE BLONDE BITCH IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE. I MISS SUMMER.
SEPTEMBER 23, 2006:
UHM, LAST NIGHT WAS PRETTY FUCKIN FUN, I MUST SAY. ALSO, SCHOOL STILL SUCKS, PEOPLE ARE STILL BITCHES. IT'S EARLY, AND THE DAY'S BEEN PRETTY SWELL. (EVERYTHING IS BETTER AFTER DARK.) HALLOWEEN SOON, BITCHES! :] UHM, FUCKIN RIIIIIGHT. HAHA, WOW I'M SWEET.
SEPTEMBER 30, 2006:
HOMECOMING TONIGHT. (I'M THE LOSER WHO WILL BE ELSEWHERE.) I FUCKING MISS MY FRIENDS, AND SUMMER. BUT THINGS ARE GOING OKAY IN THE PAST WEEK OR SO. :] SMILEYFACES AND SMOOCHES TO ALL (AND YOU.)
OCTOBER 8, 2006:
HOLY SHIT, CRAZY WEEK. COVENTRY, TOY SHOPS, SKATING, BOWLING, CRAZY HARDXCORE SWEETATLIFENESS :] , AND FUCKING AMAZING PEOPLE. :]
OCTOBER 11, 2006:
OMFG, I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW. LATELY I CAN'T STOP GRINNING. AGGH, STREP THROAT. TWO DAYS OF SCHOOL. UHM, LAUREN WENT TO CHURCH WITH ME ON SUNDAY. SWEETASS WEEKEND. HOPEFULLY ANOTHER ONE STARTS TOMORROW. :] SMILE, EVERYONE!
OCTOBER 14, 2006:
CRAAAAAAZY WEEKEND. "PANIC! IN VERONICA'S CAR", ALYSSA FUCKING COONEY, CHINA, COMMUNISM, BONFIRES, COMPUTER GAMES, LATE NIGHT TRIPS TO WENDY'S, BESTIES, AND STILL AMAZING FUCKING PEOPLE. GAWD. I'M SO HAPPY ALL THE FUCKING TIME. (WELL, FOR THE MOST PART.) AND, I REMEMBERED MY TEDDYBEAR. :] I HOPE EVERYONE ELSE HAS AS MUCH HAPPINESS IN THEIR LIVES AS THERE IS IN MINE. (AND HEY! GO COMMENT MY SONGS BECAUSE I NEVER GET BLOG COMMENTS ANYMORE. MORE SONGS SOON, TOO.)
OCTOBER 21, 2006:
SWEETEST'S DAY HAS LANDED ME WITH AN EXTREMELY CUTE SWEETEST. I HOPE YOU ALL ARE HAVING AS GREAT A WEEKEND AS I, BUT IF YOU'RE NOT, DON'T WORRY, YOUR TIME WILL COME. TODAY'S EPIPHONY: EVERYONE IS IN MOTION, BUT NO ONE EVER JUST STOPS TO CHECK THE SCENERY. YOU ALL SHOULD TRY TO FIND SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL IN LIFE WHILE YOU'RE GETTING WHERE YOU'RE GOING. THERE IS MORE BEAUTY IN A NIGHT DRIVE OR A WALK DOWN THE ROAD THAN WE REALIZE ANYMORE.
NOVEMBER 10, 2006:
WINTER IS A QUIET CELEBRATION; ALL THE EARTH IS STILL, SILENT AND SERENE. WINTER IS A TIME FOR CONTEMPLATION; TIME TO REMINISCE, TIME TO HOPE AND DREAM...
TAKE TIME TO JUST TAKE IT ALL IN. LIFE IS GOOD, DESPITE THE SETBACKS. SMILE, EVERYONE, A NEW YEAR IS UPON US.
NOVEMBER 25, 2006:
LET'S JUST HOPE THAT THINGS KEEP GETTING BETTER, BIT BY BIT. BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEK, OOH, AHH. UNGROUNDED, ON RESTRICTION. SCHOOL'S LAME, HOLIDAYS MIGHT NOT SUCK COMPLETELY, BUT WE'LL SEE. WHO FUCKING KNOWS. I LOVE ALL YOU PEOPLE!
DECEMBER 10, 2006
ALMOST THE NEW YEAR. I JUST WANT TO BE OLDER. FRIENDS SUCK SOMETIMES. I LOVE ANNA AND LAUREN. I LOVE VERONICA. EVERYONE'S FUCKING REPRODUCING. (I SWEAR IT'S LIKE A FUCKING 2006 BABY BOOM.) SO MUCH IS CHANGING. I NEED TO LEARN TO SPEAK. I'M SO IN LOVE. SCHOOL STILL SUCKS, LAST WEEK. CHRISTMAS BREAK LOOKS SEMI-PROMISING. SOMETIMES A GOOD CRY IS NECESSARY. IT IS NEVER NECESSARY TO BE A FUCKING CUNT LIKE SOME PEOPLE LATELY...(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.) THINGS WERE KIND OF EASIER WHEN I WAS A FUCKING BITCH.
DECEMBER 18, 2006:
WOW. WHAT A FUCKED UP WEEK IT HAS BEEN. HARDXCORE DRAMA. I HAVE BLOODBROTHERS WHO THROW PUNCHES. I HAVE LOVERS WHO KISS MY HANDS AND CHEEKS. I HAVE BESTIES THAT I COULDN'T BREATHE WITHOUT. MY, OH, MY. LOOK AT THE TIMES...
JANUARY 6, 2007:
AGH, THE FRESH NEW YEAR DRAMA. I CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT LAST NIGHT COULD HAVE BEEN LIKE WITHOUT PEOPLE WHO WOULD TAKE PIPES TO THE FACE FOR FRIENDS. NEW YEAR'S EVE WAS SWEET. UNFORGETTABLE START TO THE REST OF MY LIFE...AND THE PEOPLE I WILL SHARE IT WITH. EW, SCHOOL. FIVE MONTHS LEFT AND OPEN CAMPUS MIDTERMS ALL ALONE. AWESOME. GAWD, WHERE'S SUMMER WHEN YOU NEED A FUCKING BREAK? WHATEVER, PEACE OUT, GIRL SCOUTS. I'M OUT. TEHE...
JANUARY 7, 2007:
OH MY FUCKING GOD. VERONICA. ENOUGH SAID. I LOVE MY BESTIES; I DON'T LIKE TO THINK ABOUT WHERE I WOULD BE WITHOUT THEM.
MARCH 12,2007:
I'M AFRAID THAT SOMETHING REALLY BAD IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN.
MARCH 25, 2007:
I REALLY MISS JUST BEING COOL WITH EVERYBODY. AND I'M SICK OF LECTURES AND STERIOTYPES. AND I DON'T WANT TO GO TO THE FUCKING DOCTOR. AND I MISS SUMMERRRRRRRR. :<[br />
MARCH 31, 2007:
YAY, FRIENDS! AND SPRING BREAK NEXT WEEK, AND MY LOVERRRR. GOOD WEEK.
APRIL 6, 2007:
UHM SPRING BREAK. I ALMOST KILLED MY DAD AND ME LAST NIGHT CAUSE I'M AN AMAZING DRIVER. APPRENTICESHIP MONDAY. SUMMER'S COMING. BLAHBLAHBLAHHHHH.
APRIL 13, 2007:
FRIDAY THE MOTHERFUCKING THIRTEENTH. PARTY TIME, BITCHES. PERFECT TIMING, TOO, BECAUSE I REALLY NEED A FUCKING DRINK. :<[br />
APRIL 21, 2007:
WELL, WHAT A NIGHT. I THINK ANNA AND I ARE GOING UP TO THE MAPLE FEST TODAY. WE BETTER BECAUSE I SKIPPED GOING TO THE LOUIE RUN MEETING TONIGHT SO I COULD GO WITH HER BECAUSE WE NEVER GO DO SHIT ANYMORE. BUT OH WELL, TODAY WILL BE FUN NO MATTER WHAT. (ESPECIALLY AFTER MY CONFIDENCE BOOST YESTERDAY, HEHE.) :]
JUNE 10, 2007:
SUMMER'S FINALLY HERE. I THOUGHT I'D BE MORE EXCITED. I'M WAY CONFUSED. I JUST NEED A FUCKING DRINKKKK. I WISH YOU ALL A GREAT SUMMER, AND I HOPE I'M INCLUDED IN YOURS!
JUNE 11, 2007:
CRAZY NIGHT. I LOVE 3 A.M. REUNIONS. SERGIO LATER? I HOPE, BUT WE'LL SEE. GOD, SUMMER TASTES GOOD.
JULY 1, 2007:
WELL. I'M OFFICALLY BACK WITH MY DARLING. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE FOURTH, I GET TO SPEND IT WITH MY BESTIES. I NEED TO HANG OUT WITH A TON OF PEOPLE...ARE YOU ONE OF THEM? UHM, I DON'T KNOW. I GUESS THAT'S IT. YAY!br
JULY 4, 2007:
OH, HAPPY DAY. ALYSSA'S NOT STAYING. NO FIREWORKS. NO LAUREN OR V. I'VE GOT ANNA AND A WHITE RUSSIAN. WELL...
THERE HAVE BEEN WORSE DAYS. HAPPY FOURTH.
JULY 5, 2007:
GREAT FOURTH. EVEN WITHOUT MY LOVES. I LOVE FIREWORKS. I WISH EVERY NIGHT WAS LIKE LAST NIGHT.
JULY 9, 2007:
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCKKK I'M DOING. SUMMER'S SHITTY, SCHOOL WILL BE WORSE, THEN REPEAT. ALL I CAN DO IS DRINK. AND HOPE TOMORROW I CAN SMILE ABOUT TODAY.
JULY 14, 2007:
YA'LL WANT A SINGLE? SAY "FUCK THAT." I LOVE ALCOHOL CONTENT. BUT WHATEVER. FUCK YOU ALL.
:]
JULY 14, 2007 (LATER):
OH, THE TIREDNESS. BUT THE LACK OF SLEEP WAS WAY WORTH IT. I LOVE MEETING SOMEONE ON A WHIM WHO KNOWS WHAT THE FUCK I'M TALKING ABOUT. IT MAKES ME FEEL LESS ALONE IN THAT ASPECT OF MY LIFE. I WISH YOU KNEW WHAT I WAS EVEN TALKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW...HAHA, WHATEV.
JULY 18, 2007:
UHM, YEAH. I DON'T KNOW. IT'S WEDNESDAY? I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WRITE ABOUT. EXCEPT I HAD A DREAM THAT JOSHY STABBED ME IN THE THROAT WITH AN UMBRELLA. WTF? YEAH, THAT'S IT.
JULY 20, 2007:
I'M GOING TO KILL LAUREN. HAHA. BUT WOOHOO FOR DIAGON ALLEY TODAY. AND DAWN. YAY, FRIENDS.
JULY 21, 2007:
HAPPY NINE MONTHS, DARLING!!! LAST NIGHT WAS WAYYYY FUN. I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND SUCH, BUT I WISH MY BESTIE WAS THERE...
BUT STILL GREAT NIGHT.
JULY 23, 2007:
DUDE. CHRISTMAS IN JULY. HOW SWEET AT LIFE IS MY SURROGATE FAMILY? BE JEALOUS, BITCHES. I WISH SCHOOL WASN'T COMING SO SOON...
JULY 28, 2007:
PEOPLE SURPRISE ME WITH THEIR STUPIDITY. AND I'M OH SO SICK OF THE FUCKING DRAMA. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I GET PULLED INTO IT ALL, WHEN ALL I WANNA DO IS CHILLLL. WHATEVER, I GUESS SOME PEOPLE JUST NEVER LEARN, AND OTHERS NEED TO STOP BEING SO TWO-FACED.
AUGUST 15, 2007:
UHM, MORE DRAMA OF COURSE. AND SCHOOL SOON. JOY. I'M SICK OF PEOPLE CAUSING PROBLEMS. GROW THE FUCK UP ALREADY. AND HAVE A GOOD DAY, FOLKS. :]
AUGUST 16, 2007:
AGH, I LOVE FRIENDS, AND GFS. AND OLD FRIENDS. YEAH.
AUGUST 18, 2007:
BLAHBLAHBLAH, FAIR TODAY. I SAW JAMIE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARSSS. HER BABY IS SOO CUTE. UHM, SCHOOL SOON, YAY FOR THAT. CAITIE'S LEAVING IN LIKE FIVE DAYS OR SOMETHING. APPARENTLY I'M A NYMPHOMANIAC. HAHA, RIGHT.
AUGUST 21, 2007:
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, DARLING. BUT I'M BORED. I SAW A LOT OF RANDOM PEOPLE TONIGHT, BUT THEY ALL HAVE CURFEW LIKE GOOD LITTLE KIDS. AGH, I HATE BEING THIS BORED. BUT I LOVE ANNA, VERONICA, AND LAUR. FO REAL, DAWG.
AUGUST 24, 207:
I'M IN CAITIE'S DORM THINGY RIGHT NOW, AND IT'S SOOO FUCKING HOT. I WENT TO SLEEP A LITTLE AFTER THREE, AND WAS UP AGAIN BY FIVE THIRTY. I CAN'T WAIT FOR A NAP, BUT I THINK I WANT TO GO OUT TONIGHT. WE'LL SEE.
AUGUST 27, 2007:
AGH! SCHOOL TOMORROW. LAAAAME. AND I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO WAKE UP WITH AS LITTLE SLEEP AS I'M RUNNING ON. I CAN'T WAIT TO BE THE OBNOXIOUS GIRL WHO TALKS ALL THROUGH CLASS AND CAN'T SIT STILL-YOU KNOW, THE ONE EVERYONE HOPES WILL TRANSFER SOMEWHERE FAR AWAY TO SAVE THEM THE ANNOYANCE. HAHA, YEP, THAT'S ME! PS: I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIEND REUNIONS. OTHER THAN THAT, PISS ON EDUCATION. : )
AUGUST 31, 2007:
FINALLY FRIDAY. THANK JESUS. I HATE SCHOOL, IT'S POINTLESS, AND I DON'T SEE ANYONE. HOW RETARDED CAN THINGS GET? WHATEV, I HAVE NO CHOICE. PS: I LOVE HOW PEOPLE PRETEND TO BE COOL WITH ME, ONLY TO COVER THEIR TRACKS AND INSULT ME BEHIND MY BACK. SERIOUSLY, KIDS, STOP TALKING SHIT.
I♥MUSIC.
KORN
SYSTEM OF A DOWN
STRAYLIGHT RUN
CREED
STONE TEMPLE PILOTS
GYM CLASS HEROES
BRAND NEW
SOMETHING CORPORATE
PANIC! AT THE DISCO
AUGUSTANA
STEVIE RAY VAUGHN
COLDPLAY
NICKELBACK
THE YEAH YEAH YEAHS
THE DRESDEN DOLLS
BREAKING BENJAMIN
NIRVANA
GARBAGE
THE OFFSPRING
VANESSA CARLTON
AVRIL LAVIGNE
TOOL
SMASHING PUMPKINS
SILVERSUN PICKUPS
I♥MOVIES.
NIGHT AT THE ROXBURY
LIFE AS A HOUSE
NATURAL BORN KILLERS
CRASH
CLOSER
SIGNS
A WALK TO REMEMBER
SCREAM 1&2
BALCK HAWK DOWN
WHAT WOMEN WANT
HOLES
THE EVEN STEVENS MOVIE
DREAMCATCHER
STORM OF THE CENTURY
ROSE RED
NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS
MONSTER'S BALL
CABIN FEVER
ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND
THE TRUMAN SHOW
MURDER BY NUMBERS
FEARDOTCOM
ROAD TRIP
MEET THE PARENTS
MEET THE FOCKERS
BUBBLE BOY
PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN
AMERICAN PIE
AMERICAN PIE 2
AMERICAN WEDDING
EUROTRIP
MANIC
HOME ROOM
BEAUTIFUL GIRLS
11:14
THE HOLE
THE UNITED STATES OF LELAND
CONFESSIONS OF AN ALL-AMERICAN GIRL
ELEPHANT
RABBIT-PROOF FENCE
I♥ books.
endgame;nancy garden.
beautiful Inez;bart schneider.
playing in traffic;gail giles.
raising Abel;w. michaeal and kathleen o'neal gear.
go ask Alice.
Jay's journal.
other girls;diane ayres.
sold;patricia mccormick.
cut;patricia mccormick.
BESTFRIENDS
ANNA,
ALYSSA,
LAUREN,
VERONICA,
AND JILLIAN,
I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS!
HELLO,DARLING

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My Interests

Paint It Black
I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes

I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love, both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a newborn baby it just happens ev'ryday

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts

It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not forsee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
My love will laugh with me before the morning comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

Hmm, hmm, hmm...

I wanna see it painted black, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun, blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah

I'd like to meet:

someone who appreciates words as much as I do.

"when the black and blue fades, you will emerge changed."

My Blog

things that should never be said.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everydayI am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.I am the prostitute working the...
Posted by kaylahhh on Sun, 24 Jun 2007 03:42:00 PST

a poem

**NOTE: My aunt wrote this and I thought it was really good, so I hope you guys like it as much as I do.** A fallen soul is realizedA consequence is accounted forNegativity is a great downfall of our ...
Posted by kaylahhh on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 04:23:00 PST

make believe

I know who you're thinking ofwhen you're touching meand telling me you love meI'm not the one you're talking towhen you're saying "I miss you,"and I know I cannot bethe one you love.I'm sorry for maki...
Posted by kaylahhh on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 04:16:00 PST

diary of a shattered soul

paint splatter on the walls and I am feeling lonely.every other hacking cough brings a single crimson rose of promise.I'm tired of running on a water bed floor trying to catch up with my head;floating...
Posted by kaylahhh on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 04:08:00 PST

bloodbrothers, or so it seemed.

well. as I said in my daily confessions, "I have bloodbrothers who throw punches."   things have been crazy lately. and I've decided that some things need to be said about last week's "incident."...
Posted by kaylahhh on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 11:06:00 PST

imagination

If I could say anything to you right nowI wonder what words would come from my mouth.If I somehow found the courage to let it all out and speak the truth-what's really on my mind?I wonder if what I'd ...
Posted by kaylahhh on Tue, 11 Jul 2006 09:02:00 PST

this is so messed up.

venting time!alright. there are some people who need to know some things,and some other people who are just nosy bitches who'll read the shit just because they want in on the drama.I've told you all a...
Posted by kaylahhh on Sun, 09 Jul 2006 09:24:00 PST

tonight

When the world is sleepingand the streetlights are gleamingYou can find me standing alone.It's not that I want to,but you do what you have toto get by in my little hometown.A car rolls by,"hello",Ten ...
Posted by kaylahhh on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:37:00 PST

the truth about evolution

Your words are fists bringing me sorrow so sweet,Each syllable strangles me till I can't breathe.But you can stop this,Close your lips and let me live.But instead you hold each word out a little longe...
Posted by kaylahhh on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:21:00 PST

lonely

You thought that I'd cry during those cold long nights.You thought that I'd just die without you here by my side.Well, darling, I'm telling you, don't worry,Cause, without you,I'm doing fine.I'm fine ...
Posted by kaylahhh on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:06:00 PST