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This is from a Friend and is how I have tried to live my life with Help and Hope! God puts special people in our lives and I believe God speaks through them So I am compelled to listen!

“I believe God is a part of us all.”

“I have had many questions about God's will and mine. I have wondered what is God’s will? If I am a part of God, how do I know what God’s will is? I hear many people say, “God’s will not mine.” God wants us happy, joyous and free. I wondered how there could be two wills, God’s, and mine, when God and I are one? I have asked many questions and read many different books on this subject. I have heard many people say different things on God’s will. I have studied religions and spiritual books, for over six years and I came to this God’s will is my will, but I have to ask myself, “Is my will God’s will?” That is the question I had for quiet awhile.

I believe that when I am centered and in connection with the Spirit (God) then my will is God’s, other wise the Spirit goes along with what I choose so God’s will is mine, because God gave me freedom of choice to choose and what I choose is ok with God but it may not be ok with me if it is not ok with me then it is not ok with God. If I feel uncomfortable with doing an action and I continue to do it then that is when God’s will and my will conflict. I need to be centered with the Spirit (God) in order for me to hear what God’s will is for me. Then I can get in connection with Him and our will is one.

At a time in my early sobriety I started to feel guilty with certain behaviors I was acting on because I knew better, I knew I could do better than I was. That is when I believe I hit a bottom in those behaviors, meaning my conscience “Soul” was telling me to stop certain behaviors I was acting on. I started to listen to the Soul, and I became willing to get help and I stopped that behavior. The reason I say God’s will is mine, is because God gave me free will. I can choose to act on that free will, because it was God’s gift to me. I soon became uncomfortable with my actions and behavior. I started to get a conscience, (the knowingness or soul); I was doing something I should not be doing. I call it the Soul letting me know to stop my behaviors. I was feeling sick inside, which helped me see what I was really doing. I was acting on my will and my will was not in connection with God’s will.

The worst feeling I have ever had was doing an action when I knew I could do better and still continued to do it. That is an example of my will and God’s will in conflict. When one does not no better then one feels comfortable doing certain behaviors but when one knows better and still behaves the same then that is when guilt and shame take over. That is what I was doing. My guilt and shame was taking over and got in the way my connection with the spirit.

I still do actions and have to stop and really get honest with what I am choosing to do in my life. Is it uncomfortable or not? Is it something I really want to do because there are consequences of my actions so I have to know if I want to act on an action and accept the consequences of that action? That is the question I ask myself often. As I allow the Spirit within to direct me in my life, life is much more enjoyable. Letting go and accepting is the easier softer way. Letting go for me is not always the easiest way because it is letting a power that I cannot see or hear take over. Once I allow the Creator to take over my life, life falls into place easier. It is better than imposing my own will; I had to practice, and start putting it into action in my life in order for me to get used to letting go. I am still not used to it completely, because, I want things my way in my own time. When I let the creator God take over it turns out to be my way in the end any way. I have experienced this and it sure does work. It seems the longer I live the more I realize I have to let go of situations that happen in my life, many things are out of my control and the out come is none of my business, when I let go I am peaceful. Letting go and accepting helps me live life with less stress and worry. That makes my life peaceful. I figure I can live life with an attitude of gratitude and let go, or I can live in the chaos and be miserable. It is my choice. I choose to let go. And let God. “

Thank you God.

Angellady .....

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