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† Casey Chaos †

It is very difficult to discuss the quantum in a language origionaly designed for telling other monk

About Me


"To punish me for my contempt for authority, fate made me an authority myself." - Albert Einstein
I'm Casey - typical Aquarius.
I live my life the way I want, regardless of what others may think. That's the point, right?
I ***LOVE*** music, more than most anything else.
I love to change and travel, and as of yet I haven't really found exactly where home is. My life is controlled chaos.
I have a twisted sense of humor that most people just can't seem to understand, and with me.. nothing is out of bounds. I have a taste for the unorthodox.
I am extremely open minded, and I can safely say I am absolutely impossible to offend. I dislike arrogant people (unless they *really* have a reason to justify it) and those who take themselves too seriously.
I'm in the process of 'rediscovering' myself. It seems that after the past year, I've given too freely of who I am.. I'm still trying to dig my way out. ANY suggestions from anyone out there as to how to go about this are welcome. It's been a rough ride, and my friends make all the difference in the world.
I sing. Well. It's my biggest passion.. umm, aside from sex. heheh
Did I mention I have a problem being too honest?

My Interests



Music // Martial Arts // Taboos // Secrets // Chasing Rainbows // Writing // Sexuality // Puzzles // Darkness // Abstract Thought // Logic // Emotion // Stargazing // Linguistics // The Ocean // Vampyres // Museums // Evolving, whatever that Means // Genuine Friendship // Art Galleries // Paradox // Good Wine // Erotica // Ancient history // Getting people worked up - making the broken feel whole again // Chaos theory // Ghost Hunting // Japanese culture // Angels // Demons // ..aries // Ninjitsu // Astronomy // Confidence // Composing // Anime // Living in the Moment // Gardenias and Jasmine // Theatre // Psychology // String Theory // Demonology // Words // Dance // Singing // Video Games on rainy days // Fighting for those who can't fight for themselves // Education // Meditation // Courage // Legends // Political endeavors // Hair Dye // Listening for voices in the Wind // The unexpected // Poetry // Inner Strength // Butterflies // Serial Killers // Economics // Laughter // Changing things again and again // Old Friends // Falling in Love // Freedom // Astrology // Chasing Enlightenment // Running until I pass out // World Religions // Openness // Teaching/learning (kind of the same thing) // Drifting in the abstract // Clouds // A Good Scare // Listening // Insomnia // Caffeine // Physics // The Occult // Daydreams // Nightmares // The pursuit of living life without restraint.

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet:
++1 )People, mostly.
No goats. No donkeys. No gorillas. No hamsters. No fugging animals. Period. I freely exercise my right to discriminate and harass other species liberally. I don't dislike animals at all, I just resent 'political correctness' and how silly it makes people behave. In fact, the next time you hear someone going out of their way to be PC.. do the world a favor and backhand them! They help contribute to the rapid evaporation of what's left of the beauty in this world. You'll smile inside!

++2)Musicians, artists, writers, models, eccentrics, acrobats, rodeo clowns, circus midgets, geeks, freaks, thieves, superheroes, ninjas, daredevils.. people that help bring color into a black and white world, regardless of what category you may fall into. People like this make the planet an interesting place, and Gods, do we ever need more. After all, it's our differences and intricacies that make tomorrow come.

++3)Those also attuned (and versed, perhaps)to the supernatural... especially if it 'chose' you, rather than you choosing it. Someone else out there has to know what I mean by this, I'm sure...

++4)Anyone who lets me talk about anything I feel like for hours, no matter how insane you may think it is (or fractured and discombobulated) and still think I'm cool. Gods help you if you catch me in one of these moods.

Signs.. make me one, and I'll make you one.. promise!

Music:



All sorts of stuff.. I don't think I'll have the time to define - ever. Basically, if it makes me feel, if it's swirly, edgy, makes me want to dance, or touches me in some way then I probably love it. And I love all genres of music, so that is a whole lot of shit.

Movies:


'You met me at a very interesting time in my life..'

Television:

I'm not all that into television. I try and avoid it as much as I can, due to the fact that I prefer reality.

Books:

friedrich nietzsche // The Marquis De Sade // Immanuel Kant // Karl Marx // Homer // Virgil // Albert Einstein // Carl Gustav Jung // William Shakespeare // Dante Aligheri // Niccollo Macchiavelli // Edgar Allen Poe // Emily Dickenson // Toni Morrison // Sir Walter Scott // Leo Tolstoy // Bram Stoker - NOT quite books, but favorite writers. I could go on and on.. but you'd be bored. .

Heroes:


Sadly, I can't say that I have any left. It seems to me that people of conviction, integrity and character are a dying breed. Possibly anyone who stands up for what they believe in. Anyone who is willing to fight an impossible battle - especially if they know the odds and try anyhow.
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed your children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

My Blog

Gonna be gone awhile, heres how to talk.

I may be gone a while. Probably not I'm told, but you never know. This girl is toxic, and she'll do anything she can to hurt me. If you want to write me, ask Lori. She always knows where I'm at, and w...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Sun, 05 Oct 2008 07:25:00 PST

Shanay-nay strikes again.

So, yet again I have to pay. WTF.You know, you try and play nice with someone.. and it bites you in the ass. Story of my life. I get a call last night, from you know who, and like a dumbass I answered...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Sat, 04 Oct 2008 03:29:00 PST

I should be sleeping..

But, no. I'm writing yet again. It seems this is starting to becoming a pattern..I was thinking about things again. Ya, I realize it's usually a bad thing. Not this time, though.Looking back over my p...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 02:05:00 PST

To my inner circle..

It's now 1:30am, and yet again I can't sleep. So, it's time to write something in hopes that I can get my mind to cease it's restlessness. I'm just going to write it as it comes, and hit post.. so ple...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Thu, 02 Oct 2008 01:46:00 PST

Beautiful Dead Boy

Beautiful Dead BoyIt's like I'm a walking corpse born of a coffin woundThe rattling horror underneath my bed chambersRemember the killer sexual festivities on the 4 o clock hourAn ugly seduction on a ...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Mon, 29 Sep 2008 07:00:00 PST

I couldnt ask for more. ;)

I've reached that stage in my life- finally. You know, the one where you're coming up on thirty.. and you sit there and Scratch your head while saying to yourself, 'What the fuck? How did I get here?...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Wed, 24 Sep 2008 09:45:00 PST

Weirdness..

So, it happens to everyone I think - emotions, feelings and regrets catch up with us all, reducing us to a blubbering pile of jello for a little while. Seems this happened to me last night.It's not AL...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Wed, 17 Sep 2008 07:48:00 PST

RIP Lil Kenny

I just found out yesterday.. looks like it comes for everyone, huh?I'm just sorry that I wasn't around to say goodbye. We've been tight since elementrey school, man.. we've been through a lot together...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Sun, 14 Sep 2008 08:35:00 PST

Would you fuck me? Id fuck me!

Reminds me of some of my days at work, actually...I love my job!Whoever thought you could have so much fun at an upscale apartment complex? ...
Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Tue, 09 Sep 2008 08:12:00 PST

Ho get paid!

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Posted by † Casey Chaos † on Tue, 02 Sep 2008 10:25:00 PST