My Pain |
I have been taking a long hard look at myself. Who I am, why I do the things that I do, what worth do I have and how do others see me. Is what I do and how I act affect how people see me, and is it ev...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Sun, 06 Jul 2008 04:58:00 PST |
wow! |
I had a real feel-good experience today ^_^So I went out by Safeway and Blockbuster to grab some breads and movies, and was walking to one of our finer fairbanks eateries on the way home (yea, b...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Sat, 05 Jul 2008 01:03:00 PST |
Long-term goals |
A few goals for the next two years...
Be enrolled in UAF as a student (and not just for fun)
Improve my health-related habits, work to fit into a size 18 dress.
Obtain a license & mayb...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Thu, 03 Jul 2008 05:46:00 PST |
lately |
I shouldn't be posting lately. I did something stupid and self-medicated even though I have a doctor who may actually treat me this time. I've been stressed and in pain and in panic, and I really shou...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 10:09:00 PST |
ReneeReyes |
I write a lot of blogs, so I'm a wordy bitch :P It gives me some odd sense of calm to speak out, to talk. I don't expect people to understand me, though it'd be nice, I just like getting ...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 09:52:00 PST |
The cocoon |
Being me. Being me is difficult, its hard. Being me is rough. Being me is the most masochistic thing I can do right now. Being me is beautiful.I have put such an effort into not being me, soooo much e...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 06:37:00 PST |
Considering the impossible |
So, I am thinking about something which I have barely ever considered before, something I used to rule out unconditionally. I am considering using psychotropic drugs. I am at a point where my depressi...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Tue, 01 Jul 2008 09:22:00 PST |
an alter ego |
Right now I feel the need to create in myself an alter-ego. a tempered rage, the feeling of ruthlessness, a desire to simply be violent. For a long time in me I suppressed, caged these feelings but no...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Mon, 30 Jun 2008 10:50:00 PST |
to the movies~ |
so its noon, and I've spent the past three hours or so playing video games. I have a little bit of maintainable picking up of stuff to do before I go, but I think I will be heading to the movies. By m...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Sun, 29 Jun 2008 01:19:00 PST |
Swimin in the rain |
So I go out today, thinking I will buy an umbrella and walk down to the farmers market. I check a list of places, Big Rays, Wooly Rhino, Safeway, Office Max... to no avail (though I did find this neat...
Posted by cheryl-ann on Sat, 28 Jun 2008 03:40:00 PST |
