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Silently changing for the beauty of existance

Speak your words to me on a canvas of muted tongues so that I may hear your voice through the deafen

About Me

I love from my soul and smile from my heart. I am grounded in my being and free in my words of truth. I do not play on the thought of meaningless love in the sheets with the unknown. Instead I choose to know one...know the soul of the one that is meant to fill the hole that exist in my heart. I'm not one to entertain the exaguration of other's lives nor do I dwell on the thought of meaningless conversation. I choose to believe that every conversation starts with a thought...no matter how big or small, the fact that the thought originated from yourself alone is beauty in itself. I have a vice for menthol's and don't apoligize for it and enjoy a glass of wine while reading a book. I love the noise of the everyday routine and random adventures but some of my most solice moments are in the silence of my own thoughts. Being a twenty-three year old gay male is how I would most describe the first thing noticed on my surface. My soul on the other hand has so much more written on it. My two ultimate goals in life: FIRST, to put those very words written on my soul on paper and share it with the world. So I am currently 2 years into writing my version of a combination between the world's own testiment and those words written within my being. SECOND, to find that person....that one. The one who can look at me and say that they love me for my imperfections and not the impressions I leave with 'face'. I'm searching for someone who can lay with me for hours just talking about life....and when we're done, feel like they just made love to my soul. Sex doesn't just do it for me and honestly doesn't even calculate into it. It's about finding someone who looks at me and sees everything written inside me and tells me that I'm beautiful for that and that alone; that my face is just a shell in which I occupy in this life we live. You can never have too many friends and you can never love too much..................... .................................................... .................................................... Unless quoted otherwise, everything written on this page is from my heart. It is original and it is unique. Words are what I use to express who I am. I have a strong feeling that the world as a whole is slipping away slowly simply because so many people are so scared of their own thoughts and their own silence. So close your eyes and listen to the words of the spirit that occupies you. Speak with clarity, understanding and honesty. I find it funny that there are so many angry poeple out there when all they have to do is listen to their own words inside of themselves. "Words are a 'meaning' and for those who will listen, an anunciation of a truth" -V. This is truth in it's truest form; real and honest. My blogs are part of my works and I hope that they, at the very least, make you think and challenge your inner self.
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Your Love Style is Agape
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. What's Your Love Style?

My Interests

Poetry, music, movies, books, writing, words, talking, listening, helping, love, experiencing life to the fullest extent, trying everything once (except drugs), meditation, people and the connection/energy between them, LIFE.........z "We all walk the same road in life but we're so distracted that we don't realize what or who is right next to us helping us along in the most unique and unexpected way. We were all born with a beauty that is unique and attractive and we shouldn't spend our lives covering up what we're made up. If you're ashamed then change, if you're hurt then learn from it, if you're happy then embrace it, if you're depressed then explore why, if you're confused then venture out and find yourself and if you can love then do so with no second thoughts, pre-cautions, or walls because at your rarest and most honest state is where you will find yourself and what you are truely made of. Open your mind, follow your heart, and let your soul guide you....""The air whips my face the water stings my body as I fall faster and faster, harder and harder through the water of the earth. Drowning in a sea of emotion and falling through the air of their words. Cutting the very being that exist in me threatening to bleed every bit of passion out of me. To fight is to invite more pain for the fight is twice as worse as the bite. To understand the cut of their knife, you must first understand the strife that has been felt and the cards that have been delt to a man who knew nothing but learned everything he knows from the society in which he was born. So to judge the scar on me is to judge the very thing that makes us who we became in the beginning, how we were brought up as a person. To judge them is to judge people and their actions as a whole. Although I am judged I will not judge. Although they lie, I will not pertake. Although they make me suffer, I will not retaliate with violence. "Words are a 'meaning' and for those who will listen, an anunciation of a truth" and even though they hate, I will show them love. There are those who want us silenced and would love nothing more then to never recall our faces again. Well, I will recall your faces every moment of everyday as a constant reminder of my strength and courage as a person for all I've been through. To all of the gay-bashing, homophobic, close-minded, judgemental people I say to you...remember one thing..."Homophobia is not the fear of gay people, it is the fear of being gay."

I'd like to meet:

Julie Roberts: She's beautiful and talented, her laugh is infectious, and the work she does in third-world countries (and any country for that matter suffering from poverty) is amazing.Mother Theresa: All though a symbol and Saint of catholisim her accomplishments and heart were nothing short of incredible. To be in the presence of her selflessness and intense love and compassion for humanity would be amazing.Mother Theresa....Such a beautiful heart and soul....She faught for all of man-kind one at a time....gay, straight, mother, father, son, daughter. She faught till the very end and never gave up...rest her soul...cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2
Your Love Type: INFJ
The Protector

In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.
For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls.

Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.
However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself.

Best matches: ENTP and ENFP What's Your Love Type?

Music:

Postal Service, Pink, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Olivia Boardfield, Cherry Bang,All-American Rejects, Linkn Park, 30 Seconds to Mars, Neverending White Lights, Nicklback, Coldplay, Silver Chair, Bjork, Fuel, Enja, Moya Brennon, Fionna Apple, Lorenna McKennit, Michael Buble', Josh Groban, Opera, BT, Seal, Alanis Morrsette, TATU, Fall Out Boy, Meriwhether, Panic! at the Disco, Snow Patrol, Imogen Heap, Blue October, Josh Radin, Damien Rice, Hinder .........z This song really hits home with a lot of issue. Seems to me this is Pink at her most souful, most raw, and most "earthy" performance I've seen her do....

Movies:

Crash, Dancer in the Dark, Mysterious Skin, Hard Candy (awesome movie), Sherry Baby, The Departed, The Guardian, Little Miss Sunshine, Dot the I, Requem for a Dream, Spun, Steel Magnolias, Mommy Dearest, A Walk to Remember, I (heart) Huckabees, Garden State, Memento, The I Inside, The Machinest, Underworld and Underworld Evolution, X-Men, Spiderman 1 and 2, Mind the Gap, Suspect Zero, Million Dollar Baby, Taking Lives, Girl Interupted, Eyes Wide Shut, Closer, We Don't Live Here Anymore, Enough, Scream (1, 2, & 3), Ong Bok: Thia Warrior, Crouching Tiger Hidden Draggen, Memiors of a Giesha, Tale of Two Sisters, Wedding Crashers, Wild Things, 11:14, Stay, City of God, Before Night Falls, Stay, Soldiers Girl, Angels in America, V for Vendetta, Clue, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Matrix, Enough, RENT, CATS (the broadway musical), Practical Magic, Ccrash, The Craft, American History X, A Home at the End of the World, Mysterious Skin, Imaginary Heroes, Gothika, The I Inside, The Butterfly Effect, Harry Potter: Sourcer's Stone, Chamber of Secrets, Prisoner of Azkaban, and The Goblit of Fire, The Family Stone, Somethings Gotta Give, Mean Girls, Friends With Money, Tale of Two Sisters............

Television:

I LOVE Alias and LOST!! Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Friends, Sienfield, Queer as Folk, Grey's Anatomy, Will & Grace, I Love Lucy, Grey's Anatomy, Six Feet Under.....

Books:

"Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you, and you may call me V." -V

Heroes:

All the men and women that help to save lives everyday, the ones who fight for us, treat us, talk to us, listen, help us, push us, and believe in us. The greatest heroes seem to be the ones no one knows about that always go unmentioned and un-noticed............. This is my sister and soulmate Michelle and our good friend Shannon. She is an incredible sister with a personality to match her beauty. She is one of my best friends and one of my personal heros......

My Blog

Iry Kraemer...Rest in Peace (RIP)

Please take a moment for me and my family to please say a prayer. My grandfather passed away yesterday morning at 91 years old. So please to a moment out of your day for me to pray for a soul that wil...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 09:39:00 PST

Be I, be you, be yourself....

Suggestion for the day:"Be aware of I, be aware of you, be aware of yourself."Just take a minute....just one between this very moment and when you sleep tonight to be aware. Just take a deep breathe a...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Wed, 30 May 2007 04:32:00 PST

It has come to my attention...

It's come to my attention that there are those who say they know me but do not SEE me.  So I write this in hopes that by the end you will see alittle more of me and alittle less of the ...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Sun, 13 May 2007 01:12:00 PST

For the 'fallen' in all of us....

For my sister...my blood....my soulmate during the most intense trial she has ever had to endure....I love you"There are times when I look back...my life...so trivial, so small. I pick up the pieces a...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Mon, 07 May 2007 11:10:00 PST

Horizontal vs. Vertical

It may look 'lengthy' but in turn is part testimony of humanity.... Lost in a moment that will soon take over.  Moments in our lives that define us, shape us, make us who we are for an eternity t...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Sat, 28 Apr 2007 01:52:00 PST

Notes from an old soul, the spirit upholds...

"Note pads and pens, they chamber my thought,Relinquishing the old and the thoughless,Heavens words fall through my eyes and pump through the heart that pumps in my shell,These letters form ever so as...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 10:32:00 PST

Without "the skin" & no judgement sent, apply within...

I decided, since I was bored with work.....and men, that I would create my own "soulmate application" (or) "soul friend" application rather....to see who replies and what people are REALLY about....ju...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 11:38:00 PST

Years of strife...passion sufficed....

May you find comfort in knowing that we all feel pain, we all bleed, and we all find heartche in the most unlikely of places...to bare ourselves we must bare our wounds and to bare our wounds we must ...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 05:04:00 PST

A story for the soul...

I wrote this for all those who want and crave something more then the everyday experience. For those who's depth goes just a little deeper then the "everyday routine". So relax, sit back, have a cigar...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 06:00:00 PST

Life...amoung other things...

So...I haven't been on in a while because life has been getting a little crazy. I got fired on Monday and that really brought me down but lucky for me I have a great circle of friends and an even more...
Posted by Silently changing for the beauty of existance on Sat, 17 Feb 2007 06:41:00 PST