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Lex Darkholder

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectl

About Me


I dance in my head and laugh out loud. I'm learning to be happy and always strong. I'm more serious on the outside at first but always full of creativity. I love questions but you may end up knowing more than you'd like. I'm a healthy, free soaring man that will always listen and advise with the warmest heart. I love affection and to cuddle but don't mind a black eye now and again. I'm a friendly guy and want to have fun with you. Send me a message! But beware, I'm no list slut. I'd prefer a "Hi, how's it going?", to a friend's request. Wanna be my friend? BE my friend. My real name's Arian but Ari to all my friends :)
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Its Not Just That I Want To Win, Its That I Absolutely Refuse To Fail. -Me

My Interests

Fast testosterone influenced automobiles , women that make me feel alive, Poker, waking up from nightmares of loveless smiles and knowing that everything is okay even when I'm alone, peace, serenity and surrounding myself with those I'd do anything for. Decorating my temple with art, whether it be metal or ink. Flying through the clouds and even between the stars, dancing on the streets, celebrating happiness and loving love, pancakes at 3 in the morning and mashed potatoes please! Parkour keeps me fit and healthy when I'm not playing pool or poker. Modding and playing my PSP keeps me entertained during life's down times. I love to have fun, but can't stand not being able to control my own mind. Drugs are fine, just not my game. Sex is great but best when I'm with someone I love, otherwise its just fun and fun never hurt anyone as long as its safe.

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet people that know what to do with happiness when they've got it and how to get it back when they don't. Someone I can go hiking with, someone who'll show me things I've never seen before, adventurous open-minded people, someone that I can talk to when I'm not listening. Beautiful young women always welcome;) I'd like to learn how to snowboard sometime and need hiking buddies.

A patriot must always be ready to defend his country against his government.-- Edward Abbey
Check these webcomics out, they're awesome!

WE'RE ALL MONKEYS!

Music:

Type 'O Negative, Yellowcard, Jethro Tull, Enya, Green Day, Cat Stevens, The Cruxshadows, Apoptygma Berzerk, Covenant, Pitbull, Sarah McLachlan, VNV Nation, Wolfshiem, NIN, Sinead O'Conner, alot of Trance/Dance/Techno, Industrial/Goth, many songs rather than bands and various others.... I'm constantly expanding my horizons.

Movies:

Doomsday, The Last Mimzy, Southland Tales, Labrynth , The Dark Crystal, Legend, Redemption, Love Actually, Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, The Fast and The Furious, The Jacket, Fool's Gold, The Kingdom, Dude Where's My Car?, Rounders, The Adventures of Pluto Nash.

Television:

Too much T.V. can ruin your life, but I tend to indulge at times. I love Star Trek !, Will & Grace, E.R., Scrubs, That 70's Show, Megas XLR, Initial D, The Simpsons, Sex in the City, The Gilmore Girls.

Books:

The Weetzie Bat series by Fransesca Lia Block, Blood and Chocolate by Annette Kurtis Clause, Where the Wild Things Are by Maurice Sendak, Jonathan Livingston Seagull & Illusions by Richard Bach, Twilight series by Stephanie Meyer
"Listening is a gesture of full grace." -Edward Grumbine

Heroes:

Heroes?... Myself, because I can be anything I want to be and can accomplish anything without ever having to sacrifice honesty, integrity, reliability, or the faith others place within me.
I continue to search for men and women, whom lead by example, that I can look up to.
John Prendergast is an amazing man, and I hope to one day be like him.

My Blog

Nightmares?

Tonight I'm damn sure I saw pure evil. Its unlike anything you ever see in a movie. The big screen can't make you feel evil. It can't instill in you the presence, the fullness of an existence so sure ...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Sun, 27 Jan 2008 04:24:00 PST

That winding road...

And on that winding road we walk,upon the bushes and shrubs we watch.What lurks beyond? What forces stare back? What adventures await?Oh to often never noticing what lays directly ahead.Hiding in plai...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 12:34:00 PST

Inherently flawed... (SEX)

Mac said some very VERY interesting things to me on the phone the other night that hit pretty deep. She's completely right. But that doesn't make it any easier. This topic was actually a bit of a meta...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Sat, 17 Nov 2007 02:58:00 PST

Wild Feelings

The wolves in my head and heart have gotten stronger, they aren't so friendly anymore. I try to keep going, but my haven of grass and trees have turned to deep snow and strong winds. I know I can get ...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 04:16:00 PST

With You

This photo was used as the cover art for a Alberdeen City album. They opened for Rasputina when they came through G'ville. I wrote about what the image said to me. Its not great, but I don't think it ...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 09:27:00 PST

22 Birthday!!

Allllrighty then! It's that time again folks and friends, yes that's right! Time has held back and been put on pause until midnight tonight where I, once again, gain one more year. At midnight, the st...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Sun, 01 Oct 2006 08:17:00 PST

Just One Moment At A Time

To be locked in a house once visited in the past, So lost, so familiar, so painfully aware. I know the way out, but I like it here, It wouldn't really matter, my legs won't listen anyway. But can it r...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Sun, 08 Jan 2006 08:04:00 PST

Your's Truely

In a world where fears about being gay, are quickly becoming ghosts of a less understanding past; Why are we are so scared to be straight? Where one dances and celebrates having a partner to defy ...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

A Mask [twisted *beware*]

Sitting in a black, dusted wast land... My hand lays still, cold fingers motionless and pale, sufficating between your legs. I hate your heart because it taunts me so, I wollow in a puddle of...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Silly Boy

I sit here at my desk, face in my own hands, no light but my screen. I sit here with death, reading over my shoulder, not a soul but my own. I sit here, ears plugged in, listening's like lookin...
Posted by Lex Darkholder on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST