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I am basically a person of extreme contradictions. I'm good to those I care about, but sometimes lash out at them too.
What I love today I very well might hate tommorrow and what I hate today I may love. I try to appreciate what I have, while recognising the transience of life.
I have little regret over all the things I have done. I do regret the hurt I have brought to those who really cared for me. For that I am truly sorry.
Nothing keeps me up at night, except the pains in my legs. This can drive me crazy.
My love, hate, curiosity, addictions and wanderlust have brought me to some wonderfully tragic and terribly ecstatic places.
I never could say no to easy gratification and immediate pleasure. I do respect those that can.
I want life to have profound meaning. Yet I can't see it.
I envy people who have deep faith in something, art, religion, philosophy, whatever. The only thing I have faith in is my own ability to survive.
I analyze everything. I can't help it. It is not difficult to bait me into a discussion. I will probably argue against you even if I agree with you.
I am just as comfortable discussing intellectual intricacies with the well educated, as I am drinking in an alley.
I have not given up on this life, yet.
I am no better and no worse than anyone else.
