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~*SPEX*~

Its only the end of the world.

About Me

*~*~*~*~*Scream Of The Butterfly*~*~*~*~*~*A creature made of sunshine. Her eyes were like the sky. Rabbit howls like something old. As we twitch to a lullaby. The scalpel shines in god's sunshine. The Streetlights whisper pain. Down here near the poison stream. Our god has gone insane.She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair, With blood on her hands, Into the sun she stares, She feels it die. I heard her cry...She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair, With blood on her hands, Into the sun she stares, She feels it die. I heard her cry... Like the scream of the butterfly....Sunshine in the house of flames. She loves it where she gets it, But it's never felt the same. Surgery, in the house of dissection. When your candle burns out. I’ll resurrect you. She runs, Through fields of daisies. Yeah, it's just a shame that they eat their own babies. Who cares, Cos the air is free. When you get there will you kiss the dead for me?There's blood on the moon and the summer is cold. There's love in the room, But baby that's getting old. There's blood on my face sittin' on uhh dead shore. A highway,highway of emptiness and I'm getting bored.There's blood on the moon as we plan our escape. The goddess in bloom, Handcuffed and raped. There's blood in the bathtub baby, Murder the king. There's blood on the moon. There's blood on just about everything...Sunshine in the house of flames. She loves it where she gets it, But it's never felt the same. Surgery, in the house of dissection. When your candle burns out. I’ll resurrect you. She runs, Through fields of daisies. Yeah, it's just a shame that they eat their own babies. Who cares, Cos the air is free. When you get there will you kiss the dead for me?Something cold is forced inside her, A tears spill down her cheek. Stillborn songs of a dead dreamer, Hymn's of a needle freak....With sunlight in her hair she smiles like she don't care, Her dreams of liquid blue. I cut my self again and again to remind myself of you...She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair, With blood on her hands, Into the sun she stares, She feels it die. I heard her cry... She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair, With blood on her hands, Into the sun she stares, She feels it die. I heard her cry... Like the scream of the butterfly. I like the scream of the butterfly.....I met an angel with a sawed-off shotgun, Wanted by the FBI. We dropped some acid, Killed our parents. Then we hit the road.I like the scream of the butterfly............
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My Interests

life, love, family, friends, laughter, music music music, knowledge, art, security, sex/sexuality, logic, insanity, fire, past, ego, present, change, companionship, future, fears, passion, noise, hate, street kids, electicity, granparents, water, power, poverty, getting the last word in, kinkyness, tears, daughters/sons, selflessness, addiction, old people, squatting(no not the kind of squatting you do on a toilet), drum sets, silence, opinions, relief, the rich, smiles, money, homeless people, spirit, cities, mountains, home, holidays, super natural, significant others, blood, animals, dirty needles, inteligence, cuddling, death, beliefs, chaos, books, mothers, school, conseption, youth, tragety, fighting, sickness, sisters, skulls, uglieness, god or something like it, traveling, compassion, drugs, children, fantisies, cruelty, integrity, relationships, guns, loyalty, stars, cheese, nature, memories, intuition, work, brothers, controle, t.v., health, movies, technology, mankind, lust, abandonment, nicotine, innocence, sun rises and sets, candy, thrills, chicken, lost lovers, pirates, recovering junkies, not so recovering junkies, autumn, willow trees, portland, frisco, colorodo, every place i have been to, fathers, war, sleep, luck, movies, beauty, nieces/nephews, arguments, history, air, ice cream, miracles, but most of all.....motherhood and my sobriety!!

I'd like to meet:

Most of the people I would like to meet are dead and gone. Its to bad. But then again, even if they were alive I probably wouldnt be able to meet them anyways.
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Music:

neutral milk hotel, the mars volta, the descendants, the strokes, left over crack (choking victim), beck, the white stripes, sage frances, melt banana, acid bath, agents of oblivion, dystopia, radiohead, knives, penis envy, black eye peas, patsy cline, coheed & cambria, mindless self indulgence, the killers, alkaline trio, lovage, velvet underground, cage, pavement, missy elliot, necro & ill bill, delvic, the mofos, bright eyes, despresidos, justin sane, outkast, thursday, stone temple pilots, bell & sebastian, franz fedinand, m.o.p., ok go, hole, the clash, young michel jackson, at the drive in, lil jon and the east side boyz, led zepplin, sex pistols, the ramones, the beatles, ween, god speed you black emperor, weezer, pharo monch, bob dillon, club house, sonic youth, they might be giants, they used to be giants, spanish reggae, faith no more, brian adims, buckithead, jethro tull, devo, the vines, les claypool, rise against, neil young, frank zappa, the cardigans, poison the well, sparta, from autumn to ashes, blue oyster cult, elliot smith, blind melon, primus, nervana, foo fighters, the donnas, the meat puppets, queens of the stone age, the doors, chemical brothers, janes addiction, david bowe, the cure, blues brothers, ludicrous, modest mouse, jurassic 5, sublime, biggie smalls, jeff beck, pink floyd, snoop-dogg, the used, lil' kim, john zorn, my chemical romance, atmosphere, the 7,8,9s, the who, run dmc, pussy cat dolls, ani difranco, 30 seconds to mars, emenem, velvet revolver, obbie trice, grease soundtrack, incubus, chris issak, james brown, all american rejects, neptune, the eagles, iron maiden, old lenny kravits, the teriyaki boys, system of a down, sly and the family stone, hot chocolate, mikie t-bags and the suckas, d-12, old afi, the cars, jimi hendrix, the temptations, blondie, rick james, fat boy slim, prodigy, ciara, the cranberries, alice in chains, elvis, lynyrd skynyrd, the supremes, tomahawk, secret chiefs 3, jennifer charles, dinosaur jr., flaming lips, dashboard confessions, butthole surfers, creedence clearwater revival, jay c, red hot chili peppers, neco, big pun, janis joplin, the police, the sainte catherines, gorillaz, nofx, tlc, nine inch nails, deftones, bloodhound gang, madonna, iron butterfly, dr. octagon, the rolling stones, lords of acid, lou reed, a perfect circle, kanya west, mr. bungle, smashing pumpkins, motley crew, the verve, dj scribble, dir en grey, rammstien, no doubt, atrayu, taking back sunday, the misfits, the abandoned hearts club, cannae, caligari, kitty, alian ant farm, rage against the machine, lit, mike patton, ac dc, gg allin and the murder junkies, queen, elton john, iggy pop and the stooges, hawthorne heights, the pixies, a tribe called quest, tenacious d, crosby stills and nash, guns n roses, krs1, santana, fat joe, jonny cash, the fugees, ray charles, circle jerks, jay z, bikini kill, muddy waters, garbage, tool, wu tang clan, liquid swards, lamb of god, blood brothers, gym cass hereos, panic! at the disco, chiodos, kill hannah, phantom planet, ted nugent, cheep trick, ragina spaktor, lily allen, foreiner, bad company, elton john, steppenwolf, grand funk, dan the automator and alot of other good stuff. i LOVE music, all music!

Movies:

fear and loathing in las vegas, falling down, clockwork orange, bio dome, 28 days later and most zombie movies in general, dawn of the dead, labrynth, adventures in baby sitting, napolian dynomite, candy, goonies, sid and nancy, royal tenenbaums, amelie, run lola run, magnolia, lost in translation, super troppers, office space, whats eating gilbert grape, all evil dead movies, adventures in babysitting, nacho lybre, drop dead fred, waynes world movies, vs., the notebook, the descent, sin city, ali g, borat, half baked, domino, drug-store cowboys, tromeo & juliet, creep, beavis and butthead movie, baskitball diaries, SLC punks, buffy the vampire slayer, one flew over the cukoos nest, spun, american history x, jay and silent bob strike back, cheech and chongs movies, requiem for a dream, american beauty, tremores, adaptation, resevoir doggs, full metal jacket, the life of lenny bruce , i am sam, lost boys, fright night, kill bill volumes 1,2, and 3, donnie darko, U turn, once upon a time in mexico, pulp fiction, the usual suspects, saw movies, transpoting, from dusk til dawn (the first one only), natural born killers, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, four rooms, to many to remember.. ..

Television:

prison break, the riches, nip/tuck, rob and big, house, er, beavis and butthead, cold case, family guy, all of adult swim, aqua teem hunger force, sea lab 2020, charmed, reno 911, sureal life, top cheff, how its made, progect runway, modern marvels, buffy, dirty jobs, scrubs, myth buster, city confadetial. I also watch blues clues, upside down show, backyardagans, jacks big music show, little bear, dora, diego, max and ruby, wonder pets, and lazy town on a regular bases with my beautiful daughter, Sophia May. most t.v. sux now a days but i have got way to much time on my hands so I end up watching it!

Books:

v.c. andrews, orwell, james patterson, william burrouhgs, stephen king, hunter s. thompson, jack kerouac, go ask alice by an unknown author,(my favorite book is) please kill me; the history of punk by leggs mcneil.

Heroes:

my mother, my sister sarah, and my daughter sophia may. i also admire anyone who has delt with all of the pain, sadness, and most unpleasant parts of life, and can take it all in and rise up out of their own personal hell and become a better person for it.

My Blog

A past lover, lost, and will never be found.

I drop to the ground Sick Get back up Fix Feel so alive Elevated Without you I'm empty Numb Once I'm with you I feel again Hooked A shell of my former self Reckless Can't go on like this Downfall ...
Posted by ~*SPEX*~ on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 02:55:00 PST

I blink my eyes........

 and a whole year passes by. I cant believe how fast it was. It seems like i was just at the hospital yesterday, in amazement of this tiny, beautiful, innocent, little person that I had give...
Posted by ~*SPEX*~ on Sun, 21 Jan 2007 10:38:00 PST