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an entire year of you in a single speck of blood

About Me

i like to think of myself as kind of unique...maybe there is a label for me out there but i really don't feel i fall under any specific one. i'm just myself...if that means i'm one of a kind...cool...if i'm really just like everyone else...i guess then maybe i'm just in denial. i can seem like an incredibly shy person but once i get to know somebody, develop a sense of who they are i begin to let my guard down and become more and more comfortable with them and start to open up alot more. i guess i'm kinda like a dog...or is it a cat...or maybe it's a wolf...i dunno, who cares?

My Interests

writing fiction and poetry, reading, film, photography, movies, music \m/ motherfucking metal \m/, industrial, goth, djing, computers, video games, ps2, xbox, gamecube, roleplaying games, dungeons and dragons, comic books, x-men, wolvernine, punisher, spawn, gen13, cute animals, sloths, goats, puppies, kittens, horror, vampires, zombies, serial killers and stories of true crime, popular culture and the hatred of celebrities and their lifestyles, sports, hockey, red wings, cooking, chinese food, sushi, educational stuff, history, ancient Japan and China...i've probably got like a thousand different little hobbies that i've bounced from back and forth through the years....

I'd like to meet:

people...just people that would probably be cool to have as friends. it would be a plus to meet some nice people hang with in my area (cleveland) cause i alot of my other friends have moved away. i certainly would like the chance to get out more. plus i guess i wouldn't mind meeting the undead...or zombies...i'm not sure which term is actly politically correct. but it definately is a goal of mine to raise an unholy army of the undead and use them to lay waste, destruction and pestilence to the world. ha...bet homeland security wouldn't see that one coming now would they. but seriously, zombies out there hit me up...vampires, werewolves and other children of the night...don't think for a second i'm excluding you either. remember this is an unholy army so it's pretty much anyone condemned to suffering by god.if you are interesting in just chatting or care to assist in the plotting of end times as often foretold in the book of revelation...i usually be reached on AOL instant messenger @ Seither999

Music:

Death Metal, Black Metal, Grindcore, Hardcore, Metalcore, Industrial - Pig Destroyer, Deftones, Marilyn Manson, Slipknot, Agoraphobic Nosebleed, American Head Charge, Atreyu, Between The Buried & Me, The Berzerker, Carcass, CKY, Converge, Cradle Of Filth, The Dillinger Escape Plan, Dimmu Borgir, Dying Fetus, Enemy Soil, Godflesh, Hatebreed, Ion Dissonance, Lamb Of God, Mortician, Most Precious Blood, Napalm Death, Neurosis, Symphony In Peril, Static-X, Slayer, As I Lay Dying, Every Time I Die, Arch Enemy, Black Dahlia Murder, Bleeding Through, Chimaira, Eighteen Visions, The End, From A Second Story Window, Psyopus, The Haunted, Glass Casket, Himsa, In Flames, Shadows Falls, Killswitch Engage, Isis, Lamb of God, Love Lost But Not Forgotten, Norma Jean, Mindless Self Indulgence, Nasum, Terror, Throwdown, The Red Chord, Regurgitate, Shai Halud, Today Is The Day, Underoath, Walls of Jericho, Zao, Velvet Acid Christ, Skinny Puppy, wumpscut, Front Line Assembly, Nine Inch Nails, Type O Negative, The Electric Hellfire Club, Ministry, Alien Sex Fiend, KMFDM, Bile, My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult, Chemlab, Pigface, Godhead, Fiona Apple, Bjork...and so many many more....

Movies:

Science Fiction, Fantasy, Hong Kong or Japanese martial arts or ultraviolent flicks, anime, HORROR, Night of the Living Dead, Evil Dead, Reanimator, Anything by Peter Jackson like Lord of the Rings, The Frighteners, Dead Alive, Meet The Feebles, Bad Taste, Anything by John Carpenter like The Thing, Big Trouble In Little China, Escape from New York, Escape from LA, The Matrix, 12 Monkey, Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas, Scarface, Donnie Darko, CKY series, Jackass, Slapshot (best hockey movie of all time), too many good movies to mention....the list goes on and on...

Television:

SPORTSCENTER is an essential part of my life...the sopranos, oz, discovery channel, history channel, cartoon network (adult swim muthafucka...family guy, futurama, AQUA TEEN HUNGER FORCE, sealab 2021, all that anime shit), fox news (yeah you read that right, the fair and balanced shit with the occasional break for a random car chase), vh1, any sports that happen to be on...most reality tv show, i'll admit it, i hate almost all of them but i watch the shit anyways (KNOW YOUR ENEMY)

Books:

chuck palahniuk - fight club, survivor, invisble monsters, choke, lullaby, diary; bret easton ellis - american psycho, the rules of attraction; neil gaiman - neverwhere, american gods, good omens; clive barker - the hellbound heart, books of blood; william gibson - neuromancer, jrr tolkien - the lord of the rings; hunter s thompson - fear and loathing in las vegas; HP Lovecraft, Stephen King...most horror and black/dark fiction

Heroes:

edgar allan poe, chuck palahniuk, sloths, eyeore

My Blog

yours eyes peirce right through me, unvieling the hidden elusiveness within...

music: rifles at recess - to whisper in tongues tv: on the record with greta (cause she fuckin' rulez) if this shit isn't the funniest thing, "The Gorgeous George Show", in the world then, well...it...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Wed, 31 Aug 2005 12:24:00 PST

i'll never be who you want me to be, you'll never see the beauty i see...

music: bleeding through - this is love, this is murderous tv: sportscenter (what else?) shit, it's been like over a fucking month or so since i last even bothered to blog.  then again, who reall...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Sun, 28 Aug 2005 10:17:00 PST

bury my dreams, i will bury you...

music: haste the day - when everything falls tv: fox news <blink...blink>...god i hate it when i can't fucking sleep, especially when i have to be at work in only...hmmm...four fucking hours or...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

this is the only thing. the one thing. the only thing. i breathe it in. breathe it out...

music: throwdown - vendetta tv: sportscenter another night, another dream.  that night we almost spent...or so it would seem...for a brief minute of heaven i'd gladly endure a thousand years in ...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

boys: shoot to thrill from the hip. this time we put the "act" in action...

music: AFI - the art of drowning tv: date my mom mtv has this new show...it's called "Date My Mom"...apparently, a guy takes these 3 girl's (whom he has never seen) moms on a date to get to know more...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

ten days to come, three weeks to pass, and now she's gone again...

music: himsa - ground breaking ceremy tv: vh1 oh my god i have absolutely no fucking idea what's going on right now... (sigh)...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

every mile makes me feel so far away, you are the only thing that helps me sleep at night...

music: remembering never - women and children die first tv: attack of the show you have already built me up so much that to let me down now would just destroy me, tear me apart into a thousand pieces...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

i begin romances, i travel through sexual situations, i only hope to never wake...

music: from a second story window - not one word has been omitted tv: sportscenter i was dreaming of you again...i always do, even when i'm not you still seem to have uncanny ways to find your way...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

why do i bother? some things are better off left unsaid...

music: bury your dead - cover your tracks tv: sportscenter sometimes i feel as if i am waiting...waiting on you, something which i am not entirely uncustomed to by this point. there are times, es...
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

my hands are itching for razors. my angel, this knife shall carve thee wings...

music: the black dahlia murder - unhallowed tv: harvey birdman attorney at law somedays i think all "this" will be a distant memory...but will you have forgotten me...or not?
Posted by xXx = s t e p h e n = xXx on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST