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Fox

Because life is a gamble and your luck just ran out.

About Me


Hi Im Ryan...but most people call me Fox...
Yes, im single...BUT THAT DOSEN'T MEAN I'M LONLEY!!! I've chosen to be alone. It was hard choice but I think it was the best one for ME.
Although I will say that the next girl will have to be pretty damn spectacular to fill the shoes of the last woman I was with....so if you don't think u can cut it I wouldn't suggest even bothering to try.
I live In Bel Air, MD by choice...I've had plenty of chances to leave, I've left and came back many times, I guess I just gotta accept that this is home from now on.
I'm sober for almost 3 months and counting and if feels pretty damn good...you should try it sometime
I graduated from Sheffield Broadcast Institute in the TV/Radio Broadcasting program. Im a radio/tv personality. Though of getting into acting....but gotta pay the bills first....so yea
I'm in the Process of Heading to Kuwait for a Logistical job working for a company that works directly with the government and I plan on leaving within the next month. Yea you read it correctly, Kuwait. Before any of you say anything, YES I understand the risks involved, and yes I KNOW ITS HOT THERE (its in the middle east for christ sake)...it still wont change my mind. This will open so many doors for me in the future and I cant begin to tell you how excited I am to be going.
anything else you want to know about me...just msg me here or on AIM HearMeOut1981 works best

My Interests

WRITING MUSIC, Poetry, and i dunno just being creative

heres a lil taste

"The Days as of Yet"
3/18/08

It’s a simple explanation,
Coming down I happened to miss
That Important last step
And I’ve been falling ever since
It’s hard to keep telling you this
Cause I been saying it for years
I CANT FEEL ANYMORE
So why do you expect me to keep trying?

Trapped in the position of neutral
Chained to something I just
Can’t put my finger on.
And that constant painful feeling that
Everyone is watching and laughing;
Makes me want to destroy something beautiful

It’s a Lose / Lose situation
Collapsing from the inside
Over and over again
At least I can still feel pain.
It’s heaviest when I Wake up.
Just another day;
Just another way;
To pretend everything is perfect.

I guess I just lost my way
Somewhere along the tracks
While losing track of time along with it.
To busy with the now; never the later
And that’s what’s come back to haunt me.
I’ve lost myself once again…..
And any hope of a rescue party
Is non existent.

I'd like to meet:



Those kids in High school who thoguth they were better then me.....and all those teachers, enemies and adults that thought I'd never ammount to anything. Just to show them how wrong they were..........oh and so i can punch a couple of them in the face too.

Music:

Emo / Scremo / Indie / Rock / Alternative / Hardcore........oh and a lil bit of that Reggae

A
ACROSS FIVE APRILS
A Change of Pace
A Perfect Circle
A Static Lullaby
Against Me!
Aiden
Alexisonfire
Alkaline Trio
All American Rejects
All Time Low
Amber Pacific
Anberlin
Armor For Sleep
As Night Falls
As I Lay Dying
At The Drive In
Atreyu
Audioslave
Avenged Sevenfold
Avril Lavigne

B

Bayside
Bleed The Dream
Blindside
Blink 182
Box Car..Racer
Brand New
Breaking Benjamin
Bright Eyes
Bush

C

Cartel
Chevelle
Coheed and Cambria
Cold
Cold Play
Counting Crows
Crossfade

D

Dashboard Confessional
Days of the New
Death Cab For Cutie
Default
Deftones
Disturbed
Doors, The

E

Early November
Eightyonedays
Eleven Eleven
Emery
Evanescence
Eve 6
Everclear

F

Falling Up
Fall Out Boy
Farewell To Arms
Finch
Flyleaf
Format, The
Foo Fighters
From Autumn to Ashes
From First To Last
Fuel
Funeral For A Friend
Further Seems Forever

G

GWEN STACY
Garbage
Godsmack
Goldfinger
Good Charlotte
Gorrilaz
Greenday

H

Halifax
Hawthorne Heights
Hopesfall
Hoobastank
Hot Hot Heat
Hot Rod Circuit

I

Incubus
INmemory
In Flames

J

Jack's Mannequin
Janes Addiction
Jimmie’s Chicken Shack
Jimmy Eat World
John Mayer
Johnny Cash
Juliana Theory

K

Killers

L

Linkin Park
LostProphets
Lucky Boys Confusion

M

Mae
Matchbook Romance
Mest
Midtown
Modest Mouse
Mudvayne
My Chemical Romance

N

New Found Glory
Nickleback
Nirvana
No Doubt
NonPoint

O

Oasis
October Fall
Offspring
Our Lady Peace

P

Panic at the Disco
Pantera
Papa Roach
Pennywise
Pink Flyod
P.O.D
Postal Service
Puddle of Mudd
PunchLine

Q

Queen
Queens of the Stone Age

R

Radiohead
Rage Against the Machine
Rancid
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Relient K
Riddlin’ Kids
Rufio

S

Saves the Day
Seether
Senses Fail
Sevendust
Silverchair
Silverstein
Sinch
Sister Hazel
Slipknot
Smashing Pumpkins
Smile Empty Soul
Something Corporate
Sparta
Starting Line
Stabbing Westward
Staind
Stone Temple Pilots
Story of the Year
Straylight Run
Sublime
SUM41
Sunny Day Real Estate
Switchfoot
System of a Down

T

Taking Back Sunday
Taproot
Tenacious D
The Academy is…
The Get Up Kids
The Movielife
The Postal Service
The Used
Three Days Grace
Third Eye Blind
Thrice
Thursday
Tool
Trapt
Trust Company

U

Underoath
UnderScore
Unwritten Law

V

Valencia
Velvet Revolver

W

Weezer
White Stripes

Y

Yellowcard

#

311

the list could go on.......but i dont feel like tryin to remember all my favs since '94

Movies:

everything

Television:

everything

Books:

Lord of the Rings books, Brotherhood of War series by W.E.B. Griffin, Tom Clancy book---I’m a WAR freak

Heroes:

"All my hero's are either dead, or next in line to be...."

My Blog

Reality Struck Me

Reality Struck Me5/27/2008Dispositions of everything I've never wanted But always was handedreally never fazed me till recentlyTwo months almost past and still No sign of the end of thisSo I'll swallo...
Posted by Fox on Tue, 27 May 2008 02:51:00 PST

"The Days as of Yet"

The Days as of Yet3/18/08It’s a simple explanation, Coming down I happened to missThat Important last stepAnd I’ve been falling ever sinceIt’s hard to keep telling you thisCause I be...
Posted by Fox on Tue, 18 Mar 2008 12:01:00 PST

Transmission Failed

"Transmission Failed"Whispered WordsLost Silencesand the crazy feelingthat your watching me dieand it aint pretty and it sure as hell aint slowlylike you promisedanother brokenwhat are we to docause t...
Posted by Fox on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 07:45:00 PST

Forfeit

Aug 17th, 2007So i think that i'm doneive had enoughcause all that youve been saying is your finished with mebut your still hereand imstill waiting patientlywaiting patientlyfor you to get out get out...
Posted by Fox on Thu, 16 Aug 2007 11:41:00 PST

Again

"Again"August 12th, 2007Cross-stitch you lipsone last timeCause we all knowthis ain't the first timeHe's destroyed you once again(AGAIN)And like i said the first timeI'll always be by your sidethrough...
Posted by Fox on Sun, 12 Aug 2007 07:53:00 PST

Rename My Heart

Rename My Heart03/2007Broken FreeThe cutts from your shacklesthey will heal and fade,heal and fadeWith time ill compromiseThe last year of my lifeIts come to a screeching halt,in a car hitting a wall ...
Posted by Fox on Sun, 18 Mar 2007 06:16:00 PST

Time to Break Free

"Time to break Free" March 07Lost in yesterday, with no where to go but downAnd with a face like a frowneverything that was ever good in this lifeis buried to far downoh how you wish you knew...but on...
Posted by Fox on Sat, 10 Mar 2007 10:50:00 PST

Since Ive been Sober

"Since Ive Been Sober"Written 03/2007Quick, Cut the time we spent out of your memory banksMake sure you've cleared your mindand hit the record button.Cause this is the one time,this is the ONLY time,w...
Posted by Fox on Tue, 06 Mar 2007 02:01:00 PST

Changes in the lineup

OK sooooo been a while since i posted one of these things.... life has changed......drastically.....i guess being sober for a month and 15 days does that to you. I cant say that is hasnt sucked.....b...
Posted by Fox on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 05:51:00 PST

Closed Heart Surgery

"Closed Heart Surgery"YOU DONTLove me like you use tooI can see it in your eyesthe casual disguiseof your smile is a lie.But its ok Its all my faultPushing you awayIs my only real regretFor making us ...
Posted by Fox on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 10:39:00 PST