marianne

Losing someone you love is heartbreaking, but what is most heartbreaking is being with someone you love but longing for someone else. For quite sometime, someone is lurking in my heart. I cannot let him go… I want to… believe me; but for whatever reason I am completely unable to… I sometimes wonder if you call it love when you are the sole person loving that certain someone and he’s loving someone else?! I’ve been thinking why his heart stopped loving and my heart didn’t. I may not be able to understand love at all, but my strong feelings for him had me unhappy for so long. Though everyone else thought that I’ve let go, that I’ve finally moved on, a part of me somehow wasn’t able to truly forget. Heartache crept into my life just as fast as I fell in love and although I thought my broken heart would never heal, time as it might have healed my wounds but it left a scar that made me bitter for quite sometime. It’s hard to love again when you think you had given your all and it’s been wasted on someone you trusted and cared for but in the end, it’s not worthy at all. But now, I realized that my broken heart had made me strong, had made me see that I was quite lucky that for once in my life, I’ve felt how wonderful it is to love and be loved. I used to be scared to open my heart again, I wanted to be alone for myself… to be the person I want to be and when I’m ready, I know that love will somehow find me… Love won’t obey your expectations; its mystery is pure and absolute.