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I'm an old rock n' roller- you know the kind? The kind that the body says your fixing to be 40 and my mind has me stuck at 25!Wish I could get them both N'Sync! I think that "Eddie is a God" and love taking road trips to Van Halen and Aerosmith and KISS and Peter Frampton and and and......! I have and will also travel for Gentelman George Strait and Toby "Who's You're Daddy?" Keith! Mmmm! Love him!Lest I forget Tim McGraw!!! Music is the Universal Language. Have you heard my boy Aaron sing? Won't be long from "Phat Monkey" to SUPERSTAR!!!! July 23.2005 i lost my reason for living. I cannot tell you the amount of times that I have dropped to my knees in hysterics begging my God to please,please wake me up from this nightmare! Christopher Ryan Mccann was my best friend, my reason for living and the light and joy of my life~~~ I will never get over his sensles death of being killed by a drunk driver...and I will never be the same. My heart continues to beat, even when I think it isnt possible because of My God, my family, My precious SPM -AC - RF and numerouse friends who have held me up when I stopped having strength to stand and who have stood by as I rather quickly lost my mind and tried to jump off this trainwreck that is now my life. I am forever greatful for their love and support....most of all...Sean Michael, USMC - SEMPER FI!!!! Aaron Chatham USAR, and Ryan Ford, USMC...have given me more hope to go on living in a world without my boy. Because of them and the way they loved Chris and love me, they correct so many wrongs! I LOVE being MOM2!!!!! "God is great - but sometimes Life ain't good". Thank you for all the hours of lending your heart and ear my B.F.F. - Tricia! Without this woman on my side, times would have already gotten to me I'm pretty sure! To have a friendship like ours is impossible for many people to ever find in their lifetime. I am truely blessed to have her in my life. She has been my best friend since high school..and we have gone through so many of lifes hard times together. I know God had this friendship hand picked! Thank you my very own best friend for picking me up the million times I've fallen. Thank you for the million tears and the gaziliion laughs!!!! "You just call out my name and you know wherever I am...I'll come running to see you again". I love you my best friend!!! Traci and Jan - thank you for being by my side no matter what is going on in your own life. Sweet Steph... I am SO proud of the wonderful mother you are to that precious Logan Boy! I love my sweet Josh too!!! Catheryn, thank you so much for being such a wonderful Mother and loving and taking care of my sweet boy! You are incredible..and you two are lucky to have each other. Hug your boys EVERDAY...cuz we sure don't know if we have tomorrow. My greatest achievment?? I AM CHRIS'S MOM!!!!!!!!

My Interests

Music, my boys, memories, playing guitar, my boys, writing music, writing poetry, my boys, playing piano, my boys, goin' to concerts, sitting around on the porch jammin' with musicians, my boys, traveling, Cabo - Cabo - Cabo!!!

I'd like to meet:

Sammy Hagar in Cabo San lucas, Mexico at the Cabo Wabo Cantina, Eddie "the God" van Halen, Quentin Tarrentino, Aerosmith!!!!! Steve Vai, Tommy Lee, Kid Rock, Johnny Depp, Antooooonio Banderas, John Travolta, Eddie Veder,Michael Madson, Neil Young ,Peter Frampton. I'd like to sit in my backyard and drink a beer with Merle Haggard, Willie, and Kris Kristoferson just listening to them on their accoustics. I wonder.........think I'm a groupie? Lol! Only Majorly!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4l2UUueH5Q

Music:

PETER FRAMPTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mostly classic rock....but I do have a hankerin for some Nickleback (MMMMMM) 3 Door's Down , a few county songs...all are sung by men and have attitude or can make me cry. Like 'em both. (Yep - - - Groupie) Eddie Van Halen is a God!!! Rock On!!!!!

Movies:

Pulp Fiction, Kill Bill I& II, Resevoir Dogs ANYHING Tarrentino - - -Just about any movie with Brad, Johhny Depp. Tombstone - ....And Mel's movies "Apacolypto", Brave heart, We Were Soilders, The Patriot and the Passion of the Christ. ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING BRAD!!! (I didn't even notice there was a war in his movie "Troy"! Did you see him in that armor? lol

Television:

I LOVE American Idol and always pull for the long haired Rocker to win (cept for last year, I was rooting for bald headed Chris Daughtry! HE ROCKS!!! I mean its' not just ANYBODY who would turn down a very nice offer as the lead singer of Fuel to step out with their own band!

Books:

She's Come Undone, Tommy Lee's Tommyland, You'll Never make love in this Town Again, Aerosmith Biography, Natural Born Killers, ...I'm fascinated with the seriel killer mind..I should probably read more self help books..but blech. I get plenty of reality. And I'll get back to being a good person with a healthy way of thinking someday soon. Right? Right? Right?

Heroes:

Jesus Christ and his Mom. I have thought of her many times since the death of my son. She watched his murder from start to finish. Talk about faith. I often wonder, even though she knew this is why he was born to her - In her humaness and broken heart, did she ever shake her fist at God for taking her son, as I have many times? My precious Christopher that even now is watching over his mom...for teaching me real, unconditional love - and that we really shouldn't take ourselves or life too seriously..laughing feels good and makes your soul dance!! My boys....for being willing to put their lives on the line so that we may live safe - and they do it for most people they don't even know. Talk to me about heroes? (I also include all our soldiers in my sentiments -I'm just a little prejiduce when it comes to my 3 boys!) My brother for keepin' on keepin' on when I know many times it would be so much easier for him to disappear. My precious little Momma - who watches over me now too - for NEVER compromising her belief in God no matter what the cancer did to her body. I am who I am because of you all - and for this I thank you. I am lucky to be loved so much.

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And it Gets Easier When?

Contrary to how I felt many times - I have survived my 2nd Holiday Season without my Chris. That has to be God..because I would have quite long ago. I know they love me, worry about me and mean w...
Posted by Chris's Mom on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 05:53:00 PST

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2 years....

Damn. Been 2 years without my Christopher. I don't think I'm ever going to be ok. How do parents that have lost their only child go on in this world? I know they do....don't know any of them...but I k...
Posted by Chris's Mom on Sun, 05 Aug 2007 05:48:00 PST