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About Me


*I wish I could just spread my wings and fly FAR FAR AWAY**......*I love to got to the park and swing... it helps me think... **..........Your Love Style is Agape

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My Interests

WE ALL are only pones in my minds twisted reality... i cant help it... i love to bite... masochist to which I cater...

I'd like to meet:

someone Who could find my tattered sole and cherish it… someone to make this all worth while...

----send me some

Disorder Rating
Paranoid Disorder : High
Schizoid Disorder : Low
Schizotypal Disorder : Moderate
Antisocial Disorder : Low
Borderline Disorder : Very High
Histrionic Disorder : Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder : Moderate
Avoidant Disorder : Very High
Dependent Disorder : Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder : High

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Music:



Movies:


They are the best when you have a strong guy there to protect me... The crow made me cry... IT is SO romatic...
...Halloween, devils rejects, tx chainsaw, 1000 corpses, Rob Zombie is my FAV director... i love his mass killing movies... vampire/ zombies/ KILLING ...
MY FAV MOVIE OF ALL TIMES... 300

Books:

I LOVE the books about 'depressing' things...Smack, Melvin Burgess [about Drug abuse (heroin)] Beauty Queen, by Linda Glovach [ED and Heroin adiction] Crank, Ellen Hopkins [about Drug abuse (Meth)] Cut By Patricia McCormick [about SI "aka cutting"ect.] When Dad Killed Mom By Julius Lester [sexual abuse and killing dudu] Go Ask Alice By Anonymous [sexual abuse] Speak By Laurie Halse Anderson [depression and teen issues]

Heroes:



Marilyn lived with BPD too... she is such a strong woman... i love her... just knowing we have so many of the same 'issues'...
............................Judy Garland... CLASSIC and Tragic
............................Refined; yet innocent... Audrey Hepburn...
............................Princess Diana, she was SO strong…



My Blog

i love this game *rant

How am I saposta feel&?   I feel like I should be mad or hurt but I just don't really care& I meen... the guy i am dating&   fucks my sluty friend& when i am home sick... dud...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 05:17:00 PST

borderline IS BLACK AND WHITE

Well& thinking in black and white& I see nothing wrong with this 'defense mechanism'&   you hurt me, you are toxic to my happiness, you betray me, you abandoned me& and I erase you&   BL...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Sun, 27 Apr 2008 10:44:00 PST

Rant about being pessimistic

Definition .. Pessimism, from the Latin pessimus (worst), is the decision to evaluate something as a negative when it is uncommon to do so. Value judgments may vary dramatically between individuals, e...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 01:17:00 PST

checkmate

I always start to believe Start so trust, start to play, than reality kick my ass And my grasp on hope slips, and I fail. Forever at battle, forever at hunt,    Trying to just find good in ...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 01:09:00 PST

TRUST ... Murdered by your betrayal

being betrayed Giving out my all being used   All for nothing All for this game   I wish I never gave you a chance to hurt me I wish I never showed you my heart You never deserved i...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 12:03:00 PST

SO many pills

So many pills Cure it all for me Fix my weakness  Sedate my sole Handful of magic Cocktail of joy Numb this pain And make me dream Escape this reality Med induced oasis Longing for an esca...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Wed, 23 Apr 2008 09:08:00 PST

reaching for a daydream

words thoughts flowing  i loose myself longing for understanding for a hand to pull me to safety powerless to this depressionsuffocating in its destruction of spirtno one to rely on cause i push ...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Wed, 16 Apr 2008 09:04:00 PST

STOP believing

falling to peaces so consumed in thoughti cant help but obsess rivers of tears wash the pain awayto weak to show my facei block out life locking myself away i dont want to face people knowing i have t...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Wed, 16 Apr 2008 08:52:00 PST

i am sorry you came across me

i am sorry you came across me i know, i could never make you truly happy, i know, i push you away and make you loose your mind, i know, without me you are happy and content, i know, i am worthless, ...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 02:42:00 PST

night

Numb Just nothing Creeping inside me   Thoughts flood Consuming Never ending   Praying Alone in darkness Pleading my case   Shadows consume me Fluttering in the fires glow Haunti...
Posted by ¤L¬¬§Ha¤Ma¬¤ on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 09:14:00 PST