♥//valerie monique

12.31.07
Today marks the end of Valerie Esquivel.
Goodbye Sorrow. Goodbye Pain. Goodbye Tears.
Farewell 2007.
Hello New Year. Hello Happiness. Hello Good Times.
Welcome to the Good Life.
I can sum up what I've learned about life and love this year in three words: IT GOES ON. Every second I spent in my life upset added up to minutes that turned to hours that turned to days that I can never get back -that's my only regret. They say if you love something you should never let go, well I tried but I tried holding on to something nonexistant. This year I must admit has been one of the hardest years I've endured in my life and I'm sure there's plenty more to come my way and the only thing I can sit here and do today is welcome it and challenge life to bring it on! I have many memories from this year as I do any other year however this year life brought on a major challenge -one I will forever remember; leaving life as I knew it behind in order to start over new. Six months ago I wouldn't have been able to embrace the beauty in it like I can today but six months later, I am truly grateful of it. God only knows the strength it took to keep me alive through all the pain I went through. It's truly amazing how I allowed myself to self destruct. I lost my love, I lost my family, I lost my friends, I lost my money, I lost my job, I lost myself... It took me five months to recreate the life I destroyed and though I still have not regained all that was lost, I'm proud of where I am today in this final day of two thousand seven. I've come to realize that the best thing in life is life, and I love life, I can't believe I almost let it all go. Looking back, tonight I can not thank God enough for blessing me with an angel that saved me from literally giving up forever. With that said, I leave this year behind me not as a year I'd like to forget but as a year I'd like to always reflect on to remind me that good things come to those who wait and patience is a virtue. I'm entering this year with: new family, new friends, a new career, and lastly the new me. I've been through a lot this year but I believe in second chances and starting over new next year is mine.